Once again, I don't have the energy to write out everything.
It's my 35th Birthday today. I should be 12 weeks pregnant today. Instead, I had a D&C done this morning and now I am officially not pregnant anymore. My heart is just shattered
Physically I am ok. Since Thursday I have just wanted to get the D&C over and done with and now that it's done, the reality has hit me hard. There will be no 'second chance' for me, no 'ttc' road to go down. This was my 'unplanned' miracle. My chance to have my third baby. Now that's all gone.
The one positive I can report is that, thankfully it was not a molar pregnancy! I was so relieved to finally hear those words from my OBGYN. He said 20% of pregnancies end in miscarriage and I just happen to fall into that category, unfortunately
He referred to it as an incomplete miscarriage. They checked my beta levels and he said if they were over 1000 he would have to do a D&C, no questions asked. Well, mine were 7000
Therefore the need for the D&C.
It's of course going to take me some time to come to terms with everything that has happened in the last 2 days. It's also going to take a while to get used to not spending my days on JM, dreaming about my baby and pregnancy. I just know that I am going to miss you all. You have all become a part of my life.
We'll be flying back home tomorrow. I'll check in with you all sometime soon!
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12 weeks} {Oct/29th/2012
Lots of healing vibes coming your way.
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