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  #1  
April 30th, 2009, 09:14 PM
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May 2nd is Cora's birthday. That's the day I went through labor for nothing. It's also the day I held her, loved her, and imprinted her sweet face on my memory.


May 1st though? That's the day I saw that horrible ultrasound with no heartbeat. When the doctor said those horrible words. When my worst nightmare came to life.

It makes me sad that my younger sister's birthday (may 1) is permanently ruined, when it was a day they were supposed to share. I'm convinced Cora would have been born that day, but she died instead.
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April 30th, 2009, 09:44 PM
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I'm so sorry hun... I can't even imagine how hard that will be for you. Just know we'll all be sending you tons of love & hugs over the next two days!

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April 30th, 2009, 10:10 PM
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I know what you mean. Katrina was born on August 9/08, but she actually passed away on August 8/08. August 8 will always be imprinted in my brain as a horrible, horrible day. At least August 9 I tried to be strong and just happy to be able to hold her since I knew it was the last time I would ever get to see her beautiful face.

I'm sooo sorry you have to be dealing with remembering your daughter through her angelversary instead of being able to hold her and have her here with you now

HUGE to you. We'll be thinking of you the next couple of days.
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April 30th, 2009, 11:21 PM
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u know im the same i always dread the 17th june but the day ill always remember as the day she died will be the 15th thats the day that will haunt me forever the 17th was the day i got to see her kiss her and hold her thats the day i will cherish!

im so sorry brittanie i hope u get some hugs today and we are here today and tomorrow if u need us. i will stop and think about u all tomorrow love u girl!
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May 1st, 2009, 04:56 AM
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I'm dreading November 13 like that. That is the day I spent the morning doing what I'd done all my pregnancy....I was starving...My mom and brother took me out to eat...Went shopping...Oh, I had a doctor's appointment, no biggie...No heartbeat on the doppler? Oh, she's a new nurse. Five minutes of painful pressing from the OB and still no h/b. Really? What's that? Mine? Emergency ultrasound (yes, I get to see Roald again!)....

I hate that day. That's the day that the first half was as if nothing was wrong and then my life was ruined.

Im sorry today is that day for you. Especially since it's your sister's birthday
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May 1st, 2009, 06:18 AM
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I'm so sorry today is going to be a hard day. You are in my T&P's.
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May 1st, 2009, 06:29 AM
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May 1st, 2009, 06:30 AM
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I can completely understand. My day is July 21st. That will be etched in my mind forever as the day my world stopped turning.

I remember that day so clearly. It was a Monday. It was beautifully sunny outside. I wore tan capris and a striped maternity shirt to work. I was singing along to the radio in the car on the drive to work.

I just had a baby shower that Saturday before. We had made it a "Couples" baby shower, men & women invited. We had a "Noah's Ark" theme. We got all sorts of gifts for boy and gifts for girl. That Monday at work, the friend who threw me the baby shower just mentioned that her sister had delivered her own triplets on Sunday at 33 weeks gestation. I had an appointment at the hospital with the diabetes management center at 1:15. I passed by my OB in the hallway on the way to see the perinatologist at 2:30, where he said "soon, very soon they'll be here! Just a few short weeks away!"

The rest I HATE, absolutely HATE reliving it in my mind. How the f*** could such a beatiful weekend, beautiful day turn into such a f***ing TRAGEDY?! I still wonder how on this Earth I'm going to survive this July 21st yet celebrate Julia's 1st birthday on the 22nd.
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May 1st, 2009, 07:05 AM
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Thanks ladies. It's raining today. It fits my mood. Feels like the world is crying with me.

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The rest I HATE, absolutely HATE reliving it in my mind. How the f*** could such a beatiful weekend, beautiful day turn into such a f***ing TRAGEDY?! I still wonder how on this Earth I'm going to survive this July 21st yet celebrate Julia's 1st birthday on the 22nd.
That day was such a beautiful day for me too. It seemed like such a mockery.

I think you should do something very special on the 21st, to let yourself have the grief. Let yourself feel it all on that day, so you can be happy for Julia the next day. It'll obviously still be hard, but maybe that will help a little.
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May 1st, 2009, 07:54 AM
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The worst day of my life was February 6th - the day we found out that Ethan was sick and couldn't be saved.

I'll be thinking of you this weekend.
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May 1st, 2009, 10:48 AM
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I love you, Brittanie and Cora...trust me...right now I'm in tune with how raw it is. Just know I love you dearly.
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May 1st, 2009, 10:55 AM
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Honey. I hope this weekend is peaceful and easy on you. At least as easy as it can be.
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