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May 6th, 2012, 06:27 PM
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I guess I'll start off with my pregnancy tests. I'm not sure that I'm ready to do the whole weekly belly pic thing, seeing as how I really don't want to get too attached. I'm literally walking on egg shells. This is probably the best place for me to write out my fears as well.

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May 8th, 2012, 01:01 PM
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First Beta results from 3/7:
HCG: 62
Progesterone: 8

Going to be put on progesterone vaginal suppositories, 200 mg.
I have another beta draw tomorrow, 5/9 and will go afterwards to pick up my progesterone.

I feel like I'm in a dream. Every day I wake up and have to remind myself that I'm pregnant. I've been really good about drinking a ton of water every day. So far I've had 3 16 oz glasses of water laced with a little lime or lemon juice (depending on what I want at that moment). For breakfast/lunch I had 3 blueberry muffins. I'm surprised at myself that I ate 3. Usually I eat 1. I've also snacked on some Jalapeno cheese balls. I know I'm going to have some heartburn later, but they were too good to pass up.

After talking with others, I think I'm going to try the smoothie thing for breakfast and I'll most likely be doing salads with chicken or hard boiled eggs for lunch. Either that or some sort of soup that I like (oh just got a craving for Olive Garden's Pasta Figoli...).

For dinner tonight we're having leftovers from cinco de mayo. Carne Picada tacos with refried beans and jalapeno cheese squares (kinda like corn bread...). Oh, or maybe instead of tacos I can do quesidillas?! I better enjoy food for now because i have a feeling once I get on progesterone supplements morning sickness is going to kick in.
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May 9th, 2012, 10:21 AM
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Beta Results from 5/9:
Will update once they call me!

Today I was so nervous in the doctor's office. I think it's mostly just being nervous that everything is going well, that my hcg numbers doubled, and that my progesterone hasn't gone down at all. I really want to be calm about all of this but I'm freaking out inside.

I've been searching for a book I can get into since I finished my last book up. I don't want anything expensive (Nook Download) so I've been browsing GoodReads to see what people are recommending. Maybe something a little different than what my book club reads (Felicia Day's Vaginal Fantasy Bookclub, don't laugh!). Maybe I'll browse the best-sellers and pick one at random.

I had a 6oz cup of coffee and a blueberry muffin for breakfast. Just finished my leftover chinese food for lunch. Yesterday I planned on making leftovers from Cinco de Mayo but Jesse really wanted chinese food, so we ordered low mein and it was wonderful. Maybe leftovers from Cinco de Mayo will be today?

This trying to wait patiently thing sucks. I swear the day is going by so slow!
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May 9th, 2012, 07:46 PM
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I've been googling like mad trying to find stories of slow rising hcg levels and I've been reading stories that have ended with happy endings (a child in their arms) and some that weren't happy endings (miscarriages). At this point I'm going to continue to pray and fight for what I want. I am not having any cramping right now except for little twinges here and there. I'm not trying to be a debbie downer or anything, I just feel so defeated. I really didn't want to have to do IVF (with the pre-genetic testing we need it costs $20k per cycle) but it looks like that may be the only feasible way now.

I guess the next few days will clue us in.
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You're not being a Debbie Downer for being worried. It's perfectly normal. We're all Googling fiends. I'm keeping everything crossed for you and hoping that you get one of those babies in your arms.
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May 11th, 2012, 07:21 PM
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Jesse and I had a long discussion today about the state of our future baby bean and we're kind of where we began. I don't feel comfortable terminating and neither does he. We're going to stick it out and hope that this little bean pulls through and starts producing some good hcg numbers for us.

We are still worried about the possibility of having a child born with a serious mental/physical disability. We could have a child that doesn't make it past delivery, or we could have one born with downs syndrome. I would fight either way. He says he's not sure he could do it. I understand where he is coming from. I also told him that we have a chance that the baby could be perfectly healthy and since we weren't trying for a pregnancy...maybe we'll get lucky.

Maybe this is God's way of saying to me "Fight for it, Shasta!" Well I'm fighting God, so how bout you stop freaking me out!!! MMMMK?!
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May 12th, 2012, 11:34 AM
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I keep going through all these emotions. I just need to chill out and enjoy being pregnant. If this pregnancy isn't going to work out, I would rather enjoy it then stress about it. I'm going to be asking for a copy of my medical records on Monday and I'll be transferring to another OB in town. She's not a fertility specialist/RE, but honestly at this point I don't care. I almost want to go to The Birth Center up in Wilmington, DE...but I'm not sure at this point since I'm still really early. I'm not sure that they would even take me, but I would get better care from them (more compassionate care might I add). I just am not sure if I'm going to make it out of the first trimester. If it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be...but I have to give it a fighting chance.
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May 14th, 2012, 06:46 PM
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Tomorrow is my second ultrasound. Of course, with my low numbers we won't see anything (probably not even a sac yet) but I guess they still want to look for possible signs of ectopic pregnancy. I am hoping that things will just only go up for here.

I want this to work out so bad that I literally have anxiety about it.
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