Hi there! congrats on your upcoming baby!
My 1st was emer. I was put completely out..
My 2nd was a planned and def. diff. cuz I was awake...I kinda like that I knew exactly what was going on ..got to hear baby's 1st cry & see her in the 1st few mins after she was born...
My 3rd was the same except for diff. parts of the surgeries didn't go very well..with the 2nd one the spinal took 45mins for him to get it in...with the 3rd the spinal went great but they took so long to get started & finish that I felt the last cpl stitches ..guess I lost alot of blood too..
I'm a bad one for nerves before the surgery..I start to shake from head to toe...funny enough I'm completely still for the spinal...after that then it isn't too bad...I just try and focus on waiting for that 1st cry & then seeing what's been kicking me for the last 5mos lol
It's been 15yrs since my emer. I always thought they put you out for an emer. one...things must be changing...I'm so sorry your 1st went the way it did...I'm sure your 2nd birth will be much much better...sending you T&P's!