[MeghanRy315]

Ok so here is my story. I am in my 2nd month TTC. It seems that everyone around me is getting pregnant, friends and friends of friends. I am now 11 DPO and got a BFN two days ago. This morning my temp dropped, but there was no sign of my AF. I woke up this morning feeling like I had been hit with a mac truck and I haven't been drinking. I felt very fatigued all day but jittery at the same time. I am having all these weird symptoms, like feeling really gassy, random boughts of nausea, some dizziness, but these are all symptoms of AF, aren't they? I am also just coming off BCP (month 2 without) and it seems that everyone I speak to got pregnant immediately after stopping the pill, my best friend included. What is wrong with me? Is it a rule that your AF comes the day of the dip? If my temp rises tomorrow, does that mean it was not my AF, but something else. It just seems that everyone around me is becoming a mom, and I am struggling. I know it is only month 2 but I am feeling very uneasy.

Does anyone else feel upset when this happens? I know I should be happy for all these people, and I am, but deep down I am just feeling frustrated. I want a support group, but cannot tell my friends I am trying. I feel alone.

[sjkduke]

I'm sorry hon! I know how it is all too well to have everyone around you be pregnant, or have babies, and you're empty handed. We tried for a very long time to get our daughter, and it's so frustrating! I think the biggest part of it is the lack of control.

Not everyone gets pregnant right after stopping the pill. My best friend is going through this herself right now. I keep telling her, you'd be AMAZED how many people DON'T get pregnant right away, people just don't talk about it freely.

Unfortunately, as well, pre-AF symptoms are almost always the same as pregnancy symptoms. It's really hard to know based on symptoms, and it'll drive you crazy!

Just hang in there....I know it's hard to do, but it'll happen. Try to enjoy this time as much as you can, and try to wait to turn DTD into a chore. It's just not fun anymore once you do that.

Good luck, and please come and keep us posted, we'd love to get to know you better!

[jeepgirl24]

I wish you'd post again to see how you are doing. I always have to imagine that you got pregnant and that is why people don't come back. I think we all wish for that for everyone on here including ourselves.

You sound a lot like me. Even my sister that never wanted children has a 3 year old son. But we all have a 1 in 10 chance of not getting preg in the first year. A surprising number for me to read since no one talks about it. It is a shame that we have to hide in the shadows, but I fear the hurtful comments of others that I have already heard from what I concidered a close friend before we were even trying. I am a very public person and would love to go public with this, the only thing I seem to keep a secret.

We've been trying a year and a half now and it seems to have become routine. We fool around with the idea of me being pregnant and then get the tests and are sad until about day 3 of my cycle. It's a crazy roller coaster that some of us have to go on when some people "accidentaly" get pregnant.

People don't understand that you are really happy for them, just sad for yourself and they take it as if you hate their baby or are angry that they are happy.

I joined a local infertility group and it has really helped. These group boards online help as well.

Lack of control is a really big issue, when I have goals and have been able to control everything else. Everything had fallin into it's proper place except this.

I took my problems to the endocrinologist to let him worry about my problems and getting us pregnant. I even put away my BBT chart that I have been working on for almost a year. I feel like I need a break, but can't stop trying.