[Wallflower]

We were on a mini-vacation this weekend for our anniversary. That part was fun, but the not fun part was that AF is here.

I'm having one of my discouraged days. I'm just getting so tired of it all. The temping, the charting, the OPK's, pH strips, constantly obsessing over every little thing my body does, all to get to the end of my cycle and be rewarded with AF. November makes 1 year for us, and I'm just scared to get to that point, to have been trying for one year with no success. I'm afraid there's something wrong. But I know lots of ladies here have been trying for much longer than I have.

Some days are better than others. Some days I feel really optimistic. But other days I just feel so frustrated. It's like with all the things I do to TTC, I still feel like so much of whether it happens or not is completely out of my control. Even with really good BD timing, it doesn't happen. This is supposed to be easy. It happens to people all the time without them even trying.

Ugh, it's just a rough day I guess. I really wanted to be able to give my DH a positive HPT for our anniversary.

[Admin-pattyandthemoos]

I am glad you had a nice mini vacation. Very sorry AF showed. I have taken a ttc break before because I just needed it. We didn't actually stop ttc but we just stopped charting and using opks and stuff. It was good for me. When I came back to charting I felt like I got some needed rest and was ready to hit it hard again.

(((HUGS)))

[Coley]

I know just how you feel girl, because I feel the same dang way!!

I feel like I have paid attention to more things than most people, watching my temp, checking my CM, checking my CP, charting, timing BD'ing right, taking vitamins and stuff to make an optimal environment and each time... I get squat!

Then I get to top it off with hearing about accidental pregnancies and I get to see hair brained family members get Oopsies! GRRR!!! So yeah... I'm there with ya. Makes me wanna go "HULK SMASH!!!" LOL!!

[Wallflower]

I'm so glad I have you ladies to talk to about this! I know we have all been there!

I am feeling a little better emotionally today, although AF is being really heavy and sucky today

I guess the first day of AF is always the hardest because it's such a let down. I have thought about just taking a break from all the charting and stuff.

[Coley]

The first day of AF is always the hardest. It's the first day of knowing that you didn't hit the bullseye, ya know?

If you feel like you need to step back for a bit, know that we will all support you in whatever way we can. However, I hope as the days go by you'll feel less emotionally charged and will be ready for another shot at the 'ol target.

[Wallflower]

Thanks Nikki! I am hoping too that I will feel better as days go by. Right now I am just taking a break from all of it since AF is here! At the very least we will get the S/A done this month.