I Think I Am on My Way Out....

CandaceDianne · #1 August 17th, 2009, 04:33 AM

I think I am just so emotional from this waiting game. I cried last night for no reason, except it felt good.

Poor DH just hugged me and let me vent about TTC to the fact I hate doing the trash!

Plus, I have been so tired in the evenings and started having weird, scary dreams (which isn't entirely unusual, it happens from time to time). Then, stupid me, tested yesterday at 7DPO....simply just to get it out of my system. I wasn't really expeeting anything from it, but had a little bit of hope.

My chart looks so funky...I just don't know what to think. I have tried to find somewhat similar chart patterns, but didn't have much luck. Patty, I know you said not to panic but its just a little hard. You know?

I have had cramps everyday since at least 3DPO and have been so wet down there that I drip on occassion. Now, I have this funny twinge/uncomfortable pain on my lower right ovary that just started, literally.
I mean I know it would take practically a miracle to get a BFP after one month of TTC PLUS coming off of bcp...but I guess I was hoping I could fall in the small percentage....

I mean my bbs don't even hurt in the slightest bit, which I dont know if that's a good or bad sign because they usually start to hurt about a week before AF. Since coming off bcp, who knows when AF will arrive. Gosh, I am sorry to vent!

I just feel so emotional right now. I am a naturally emotional person anway, but between being tired this morning and slightly frustrated I just needed to let it out.

Thanks for making it through this long-winded vent, I really do appreciate it. I dont know the point of this, except to just VENT.

Admin-pattyandthemoos · #2 August 17th, 2009, 05:25 AM

(((HUGS))) You have all the right symptoms for a bfp right down to the being all emotional. I think your chart still looks good. I always have mega cramping when I am pregnant so maybe what you are feeling is implanatation. Try to wait and see what tomorrow brings before you start calling yourself out. It is still really early.

CandaceDianne · #3 August 17th, 2009, 05:27 AM

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Originally Posted by pattyandthemoos

(((HUGS))) You have all the right symptoms for a bfp right down to the being all emotional. I think your chart still looks good. I always have mega cramping when I am pregnant so maybe what you are feeling is implanatation. Try to wait and see what tomorrow brings before you start calling yourself out. It is still really early.

I know you are right, Patty!! And I really and truly love how supportive you are to everyone!!

You always seem to have the right words to help someone out. I know I have the right symptoms, but I want to KNOW they are true symtpoms!

Thanks for your input, it does make me feel better!

Coley · #4 August 17th, 2009, 05:31 AM

Absolutely. Girl!! You are a mess!! HA HA!! I know it's tough... heck, I've been at this for a while now and I know the ups, downs, hopes, disappointments, etc.

But you are sooo way early to be 1.) Testing and 2.) Calling yourself "out".

As for the sore bbs thing... if it makes you feel any better, I've had months where mine didn't start hurting when I thought they should. Bbs are weird. They do all kinds of things... heck, look at me now... mine have been in some sort of pain since last cycle! HA!

So, ya never know.

Either way... hang in there, hon... you'll be just fine!

Arya · #5 August 17th, 2009, 07:03 AM

I am kind of an emotional person too and I understand the crying part hehe. Just don't give up yet, like the girls said, it's way too early. Just stick with us and we'll get you through it

NickieH · #6 August 17th, 2009, 07:24 AM

Hang in there Candace, the other girls are right... its way too early to know one way or the other. I know how frustrating TTC can be. It was hard for me at first because I thought (as most do) that it would happen quickly, but after a couple of cycles I stopped obsessing so much. If this is not your month, it will get easier and you will at least have a better idea of what to expect from your cycles.

My mantra is "It will happen when its suppose to" and I just repeat it over and over to myself when I start to get frustrated. Try to distract yourself, and save your sticks

CandaceDianne · #7 August 17th, 2009, 07:37 AM

Thank you girls!! This board is awesome and so supportive!!

I needed to hear some postive words of advice this morning. My DH keeps asking me 'What's the rush? It will happen when God wants it to happen.' And, you know what, he is right. What is the rush? Eventually I WILL get my BFP and like DH said 'We will be so happy and blessed'. Thanks again for reading my ramblings for this lovely Monday morning!

*tacii · #8 August 17th, 2009, 08:07 AM

I think your chart still looks good AND you have some pretty great symptoms there. You are way too early to call yourself out. Good luck.. got my fingers crossed for you!!

Tammyms · #9 August 17th, 2009, 10:42 AM

That's the best part about JM is that we all understand exactly what you're going through! Stay positive, it is still early and you might just surprise yourself

kbpeanut · #10 August 17th, 2009, 12:13 PM

I totally get the emotions...these days, when I get "that way", DH just looks at me, and says "hormones??" Yup, that's all there is to it!

As everyone has already said, we're all here, and we all get it! Vent away, as often as you'd like...we're all in the same boat at some point!!

And BTW, your chart still looks great!