[mrsdaiwa24]

So I was doing okay about getting AF. I had my meltdowns in the days leading up to her arrival as I watched my temp drop lower and lower. The day AF showed, I was sad, but I did okay -- no tears, no breakdowns. Maybe it was because she showed during the week and I was too busy to fully register it, but it hit me today. I need to get this out of my system so that I can be all holly-jolly and attend my friend's tree-trimming party -- even though right now, hanging ornaments and pretending to be happy is the last thing I want to do.

I'm not pregnant. And I sooooooo want to be pregnant.

It just sucks. And for some reason right now, I keep thinking back to this past summer when a Facebook friend posted comments that suggested pregnancy....her friends would fall for the bait and exclaim she was....and then she'd come back and deny she was pregnant -- when in reality, she was in her first trimester. (Hey I get not wanting to tell people -- but don't lead people on and then lie about it!)

I'm not pregnant.

Anyone else feel like joining me in a pity party??? Feel free to let loose and break down. Misery does enjoy company, you know.

[HopefulMommy81]

So sorry you're having a rough time, Amy!!! I'm still in my 2WW and praying constantly to get a sticky BFP in a few days, but if I don't, trust me, I will be having the biggest pity party JM has ever seen! I really hope we both get our BFP's very soon since it sounds like this is what both of us want more than anything else. About your friend- that would so irritate me! I, too, understand not announcing it to the world for a while, but the hinting then lying and denying is kind of ridiculous imo. I hope you had a good time at the party! Try to enjoy yourself and then give it all you got again when you O!!! Good luck!

[slpliz]

I understand. I know my temp is going to plummet tomorrow morning and AF will show tomorrow or Monday and I'll be back to waiting to ovulate. Booo! I tried to keep busy today making tons of Christmas cookies with my kids but it didn't keep me from noticing every AF sign that I have been feeling. Grrr.

[LoLo'sMama]

Amy, I was there Friday. Yesterday it really sunk in and today isn't the best either. I woke up on Saturday morning where you've temporarily forgotten something bad happened the previous day and remember it seconds after you wake up? I totally understand your feelings right now. We all wanted that BFP for Christmas so badly. But, we have to rally and try for a New Year's BFP now. Maybe we can be cycle buds again!

The last thing I will say is allow yourself to be sad for awhile. Cry it out or whatever. Then pick yourself up and lets get working on that BFP next month. This WILL happen for all of us! We are going to be great mommies and are going to enjoy every second of being pregs and being a mommy because we had to work so hard for it!

[mrsdaiwa24]

Thanks for the support girls. I had a good cry before we left for the tree-trimming party, so I was able to get it out of my system. And, thanks to some good company (and a couple of cups of sangria!!), I was in a much better mood for the rest of the night. I woke up in a much better mood and a much better perspective.

Today is a new day. I guess it's good that I'm only waiting to O and not in the 2ww -- I've got a mountain of work to do this week before my school goes on break and I have to focus (which is so hard for me to do when I'm in the 2ww as I spend/waste hours of time researching every potential symptom!!).

I hope Jacque and slpliz get their Christmas BFPs. Jessica, January is going to be our month -- we've got to stay positive (so we can get our positives later on!)!!

[HopefulMommy81]

Amy, I'm so glad today is going better for you. Sometimes a good cry really helps and I'm sure the sangria didn't hurt I know what you mean about wasting time researching every symptom during the 2WW- that's totally me right now. I hope your time to O goes quickly and you catch that eggie when the time comes and come September you'll be a mommy!