[lizm75]

I start each cycle so hopeful and thinking positive. And then at about this part of each cycle I become discouraged, emotional, and negative. Another month will pass and I will not be pregnant. It is really upsetting. I don't know what to do anymore to deal with the ups and downs of TTC. My husband and I fight at the end of each 2WW once we realize we have failed, yet again. I feel so defeated and sad today. I know everyone feels this at some point, it just seems each month I have a cycle buddy they get a BFP and I don't. I am so tired of the rollercoaster and the only way for me to get off is to become pg. This month I will have an HSG, once AF arrives I will make the appointment. I wanted to have this be my month so bad because I don't want to go through the HSG. I can hardly stand a pelvic exam, I don't know how I will handle the HSG. I suppose I should just start a journal because I feel like I need to get it out somehow. I am sitting at my desk at work and all I can think about is the fact that I am not pregnant and am so sad.

The stress of TTC can be very tiring!! Each month that passes and another AF makes things very difficult to handle!! I'm sorry that you are so sad today...I don't think you should give up just yet though!! Your chart still looks really good. You are still well above your cover line. Have you tried testing at all? Last month when AF arrived I asked my husband to go to the store to get me tampons and he looked so sad saying "no baby again this month huh?" We are here for you hun!!!

[lizm75]

I tested yesterday and it was - obviously. I just don't put that on my chart. I am crampy and have had a little bit of discolored spotting so I am following my pattern of about to get AF. I predict tomorrow my temp will drop like a rock and AF will arrive. I hope I am wrong, but I do not feel positive right now.

[Mari13007]

Ahhh Lizzy, so sorry sweetie. ((Hugs)) I know we have all been there, we get to that point towards the end of the cycle were hope diminishes and the reality of AF either coming or being on her way hits us like a ton of bricks. I'm sorry that you are having such a rough day, hang in there, your chart still looks good so don't give up hope completely. Don't lose faith that you will be a mother one day. When that day comes when you are holding your precious one in your arms you will think back on everything that you went through and know that it was all worth. I hope your day ends on a brighter note and know that we are here for you. ((Hugs))

[shortcake]

Lizzy, I know exactly how you feel. I think we've both been trying since May? Anyway, it does feel like a rollercoaster, but I keep telling myself that we'll get pregnant when the time is right and for now I should enjoy the time I have my DH all to myself. Not that I'm not ready to have the extra responsibilty of looking after a little one, but I have to stay positive to keep my sanity! So find something to be glad about, like "The Glad Game" from Pollyanna.

Keep smiling,
Sarah

[frogftsh]

Oh Lizzy, I'm so sorry about how you're feeling. I feel the same exact way! I'm in that negative, sad, depressed mood too. I keep testing negative, and today my temps started dropping. I'm sorry I hope that next cycle is it for you!

~Gail

[wewantaminime]

Lizzy just wanted to send you some

[diznynurse]

I'm sorry you are down. This is the worst part of the cycle. The end of the 2WW, hormones ragin (nasty ones) and we just know AF will be here. I'm here with you. I'm 9dpo (i think) AF will be here on Tuesday and I can feel my hormones changing and the bickering has begun, and another cycle almost gone and no bfp! hmph.

On a brighter note.....I've heard many ladies get BFP's after and hsg!!!! So I'll be rootin for you next cycle!!!!!!

[~Sandy~]

AWW Lizzy Im sorry...it is very frustrating to hope and wish each month and then when af shows its like a huge rock gets dropped on your heart...and really it doesnt get any easier as time goes on...and you are right about the way to make it go away, its def to get pregnant and beleive me girl it will happen for all of us....some beofre others and some in different ways but we will all get our miracles...HUGS