I think I'm FINALLY O'ing!

I'm on CD46, I don't think I've ever had a cycle this long! DH and I BD yesterday, but that was it, we've been waiting and waiting to O, and I had just come to the conclusion that I am broken, and I wasn't going to O this cycle! But this morning my temp took a major nose dive....I don't hold much hope that we caught the eggie if this is O, but to be entering the TWW will be a blessing! I swear I hate W2O MUCH more than the TWW.
I've been pretty depressed this cycle and so I haven't been around much at all, I'm sorry for being MIA. Things have just been kind of blah, the TTC is getting to me I think, and it's only been 8 months (but only 5 cycles), but it's got me. A girl on another board I'm on (a wedding board) had a "whoops" and is now pregnant....I'm happy for her, but I'm taking it really hard. She had a bad scare, and I was feeling like a real witch for feeling bitter about it, but she had her u/s and everything is good with the bean. I really am happy for her...but at the same time, I'm so bitter that she had a whoops and is pregnant, and DH and I are and have been ttc, and had a m/c, and are having long cycles that arent' cooperating etc. But, now I'm getting off subject!
SO, I'm hoping that I really did O today, and I can get on with it and hopefully in two weeks, I'll either have my BFP, or AF will be here, and we can move on!