[brandiruss]

Hey ladies...ok, so I'm kinda just venting...but I think I might really throw in the towel on this whole charting thing. I find that it is making me super sad when my temp isn't what I wanted it to be. FF gave me dotted crosshairs this a.m. I'm thinking now that I haven't O'd at all. I'm going to chart for the remainder of this month, but come February, I'm calling an OB to see about Clomid. I'm just going to tell them that I've been trying for a year because I KNOW it's going to take that long anyway. AF never shows her face on her own...they have to put me on Provera, so they might as well put me on Provera and Clomid. I just don't want it to take TEN YEARS like it did for my mother. If there is a problem, I want to go ahead and take care of it now. I find that *baby thoughts* are consuming my everyday life and I'm not going to be able to get myself back to normal until I have a child. It really is an uncontrollable desire...I'm sure a lot of you know that! Come on girls, help me out. Am I crazy?

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Brandi

[blueeyedbaby]

Hmmm well maybe you should suss your OB out as if he/she is one of the ones that believes in charting, they will want to see a couple of months of charts before they'll give you clomid. If they don't believe in it, they might be ok to act on it straight away OR they may also ask you to wait another month so that they can do some blood tests and see what is happening with you.

I can understand you getting frustrated because your temps aren't doing what you want them to, I think that you need to take a leaf out of my book and distance yourself from the temps lol. Your temps will do what they need to do hon, you can't control them, think of it like reading a book ... you will only know how things are supposed to be when you get to the end of each chapter.

Try not to let your want of a baby be all consuming, it may only lead to heartbreak. There is nothing wrong with wanting a baby badly but you need to also accept that sometimes things do take time. This will help you savour every moment even more when your time comes.

Good luck hon, I'm sorry that you're having such a hard time with it all at the moment ... but take heart in the fact that we've all been there at some stage and many of us will probably be there again in the future.

[Acadia]

Well, no matter what you decide keep your chart so you can show it to the doc. If they're interested in charting at all they might want to see, and then things could get started a little sooner.

I don't know that you should stop charting altogether ... it might be better to keep charting WHILE trying Clomid. That way you'll know if/when you ovulated because Clomid is not always a magic bullet, and that is definitely something the prescribing doc would want to know.

It's disappointing to me when that happens, though. My chart just never does what I want it to and worse, there's no way to change it. If I did sleep less, etc, to manipulate it, it wouldn't be accurate. I am just used to controlling my body and things related to it! It does a number on my sanity.

I used to be less stressed about it when I first started charting. That first cycle I temped every morning and didn't plot it on a graph until I got AF. Then I could see how things had gone and zero in on when I O'd, how long my LP was, etc, without stressing all the time ... it's not like I could see a pattern anyway! Maybe next cycle you could try that if you have to wait for the Clomid. Then you'd still have the chart to show the doc but maybe skip some of the daily stress.

I really think that it's not charting that sucks. It's just TTC in general! It would be great if you could just decide to get pregnant and then BAM, next time you BD you are!

Let's suggest that new method to the baby dust fairy. I would sure like a change.

[NutMeg76]

It can be so frustrating when you body doesn't cooperate. For me though I NEED to chart, if I don't I sit and wonder about every little thing. Maybe it helps that I originally learned to chart as contraceptive and did it for 2 years before we decided to TTC. So I already knew my cycles and it was sort of fun to try to see what was going to happen.

This time around it can be frustrating, we seem to keep missing the egg because my O day is changing every month. I wonder if it has something to do with my thyroid.

I keep charting though so I have something to show the doc if we are unable to conceive after a fe wmonths of actively trying.

[brandiruss]

Since I don't get AF on my own, I only have one chart becauce my DR put me on Provera to make me start. In order to keep charting, I would have to get on Provera again. I just feel like if they are going to give me Provera, they should give me Clomid too!

I just never thought that TTC could be such a painful process. I hope that ALL OF US get our BFPs soon so that we don't have to do this anymore!

Brandi

Good Luck!!