[Jessy133]

i think AF is on her way! im getting crampy feelings like AF kinda cramps and i went ot the bathroom and i have creamy CM and creamy CM is not fertile....im sooooo mad! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and worst off ill probably have AF in Disney god i hate being broken! why cant i just get pregnant! im so depressed! i feel like just not trying anymore i feel like teling dh sometimes that we will never have kids its been 6 months! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and now that i think of it last month i got a + opk but i didnt put it in since many people said that the PCOS thing doenst make it accurate or w/e but sinc emy doc told me that all my results came back ok if i put it in then that means i really didnt O last month it take my CH's away....

[JustWant2Love]

i think AF is on her way! im getting crampy feelings like AF kinda cramps and i went ot the bathroom and i have creamy CM and creamy CM is not fertile....im sooooo mad! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and worst off ill probably have AF in Disney god i hate being broken! why cant i just get pregnant! im so depressed! i feel like just not trying anymore i feel like teling dh sometimes that we will never have kids its been 6 months! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and now that i think of it last month i got a + opk but i didnt put it in since many people said that the PCOS thing doenst make it accurate or w/e but sinc emy doc told me that all my results came back ok if i put it in then that means i really didnt O last month it take my CH's away....[/b]

BREATHE, Jessy! I know how hard this is, we've been trying for another for years.. but think about this, does beating yourself up help? It doesn't, it just makes you feel worse. You're totally entitled to your feelings, I have the same ones most of the time. But don't let them stop you from living and being happy. You love your husband, and you both want to be parents, and it WILL happen. Why we have to go through all of this when others have it so easy, I don't know. It sucks, that's for sure. But it is what you make of it. I know how hard it is not to let it consume you, but you have to try to emotionally separate yourself from all of the charting or it will eat you up inside.

Whether you get pregnant from TTC or through IVF, or if you adopt.. it will happen.

I know that when it does, you will be such a wonderful mother because your child will have been so desperately wanted.

Keep your head up!

[MountainMomma]

I still think you might have O'd yesterday. I almost always get creamy CM right after I O. Take a deep breath and let's see what your temps do in the morning.