Me sorry

I have just been in a serious funk! My chart is depressing and haywire yet again, and I found out my TTC sadness is NOT helping - I have gained a TON of weight the last couple of cycles (I swear, I can see it in my temps too - they were normal looking, and since the weight started I can see the jagged look)
I've kinda been on the fence as whether to stop TTCing until January, or keep trudging along... but the addict that I am, you know I'll keep trudging while trying to drop the weight. *sighs*
And, I started a myspace to vent about TTCing so maybe that will help me too. I hope... because I almost have felt like changing my display name from hurry_up_BFP to I_Give_Up_On_A_BFP!