Jennie's Journal

CohensMommy · #1 January 9th, 2009, 06:32 AM

Lets get right to the point!

First day of my last period was December 14th. I usually have 28-31 day cycle. Closer to 28 days the last few months.
DH and I BD'd on CD5 and again on CD14 [ which was day 2 of 3 days of EWCM so I believe the day before O if I'm not mistaken ].

Today, that puts me at...11 DPO. Possibly 12.

I have taken two tests, yes I know too early.

I have sore BBs, I had some cramping a few days ago that could either be AF coming or implantation. If this cycle doesn't happen, then I'm going to be starting to track my temps next cycle!! I'm actually going to be away all weekend, but I shall return with some sort of news I hope on Monday!!

CohensMommy · #2 January 12th, 2009, 07:16 AM

So here we are...Monday... 14 DPO

AF was due yesterday, and nothing so far. No sign of her coming either. But I did take an other test today, and negative. What an emotional roller coaster. I don't know if it was negative because I'm indeed not pregnant, if its negative because its just an internet cheapie...or if its because of late implantation and its just too early to test. But I'm a day late!! Grrr!!

Now I was on antibiotics for a portion of this cycle. I had no symptoms, but a regular annual physical showed that I had a bladder infection. I took active bacteria supplements to avoid a yeast infection, but since stopping the antibiotics, I've felt a little odd down there. A little itchy, no discharge or anything TMI I know...and I've been checking my cm constantly. I'm still leaving a little white creamy on my panties...usually don't you dry up before AF?

Ugh! Longest two week wait of my life...and trust me, we've had some scares. I haven't been on any time of birth control since DS was born March 05, but this time I'm really not sure!?

CohensMommy · #3 January 12th, 2009, 11:53 AM

Seriously???

I just noticed a teeny tiny spot when I wiped after having a bm.
I usually spot before AF, so I'm pretty sure by this time tomorrow she'll be here with full force.
Oh well, at least next month I can chart temps and hopefully be a little more percise about when I ovulate.

CohensMommy · #4 January 13th, 2009, 07:29 AM

Bahh!! More spotting today, so I'm sure by this afternoon she'll be here. I was really upset yesterday because I wanted the timing to work out [I wanted to be due in September because DS starts school this September - I could be off on Mat. leave a little early and walk him to school and back every day!!] so DH actually said to me "well then why don't we wait until next January!!"

We had originally planned to start TTC last November, but decided to take a year and get a few things in order [we bought a house, etc.]. So this November came around and we had decided to go on vacation in January with some friends. We pushed it back again until January. The trip was cancelled in December so we tried right away. This is only cycle one so I shouldn't be that disappointed that it didn't work out..but now DH is thinking we should push it back again. Well actually think he just said that to make me feel better, but the thought is so upsetting.

Anyways, I guess I'm now on CD1. I took my temp this morning so that will be helpful. When DH saw the thermoniter yesterday he asked me how it can help with trying to have a baby, so I know he still wants to. Here's to cycle 2!!!!

CohensMommy · #5 January 14th, 2009, 11:39 AM

An other day!

After a slow start, AF is here in full force. It's usually light and only lasts a few days, so I'm at least thankful for that. I met with a new Psyciatrist today [I suffer from bad Anxiety and Depression]. She was very supportive of my last dr's decision to keep me on my medication while pregnant and just wants to make sure that I see a OB earlier than 20 weeks [which is the norm here - you see your family doc up to that point]. I told her about the anxiety that I have with being pregnant again, especially since DS was born early, and I went into premlabour 8 weeks early. I'm so happy though! She is sooo nice!! I feel 100% comfortable talking with her!! I'm going to start a thread about this in the main TTC section, but I'm wondering if anyone else is dealing with clinical anxiety and depression while pregnant or ttc?

Oh and DH and I talked about still trying last night...everythings still a go! He just thought that the timing was so important to me that I might want to wait!

<>*NaYoMi_BaBy_Dreamer*<> · #6 January 18th, 2009, 12:26 PM

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An other day!

After a slow start, AF is here in full force. It's usually light and only lasts a few days, so I'm at least thankful for that. I met with a new Psyciatrist today [I suffer from bad Anxiety and Depression]. She was very supportive of my last dr's decision to keep me on my medication while pregnant and just wants to make sure that I see a OB earlier than 20 weeks [which is the norm here - you see your family doc up to that point]. I told her about the anxiety that I have with being pregnant again, especially since DS was born early, and I went into premlabour 8 weeks early. I'm so happy though! She is sooo nice!! I feel 100% comfortable talking with her!! I'm going to start a thread about this in the main TTC section, but I'm wondering if anyone else is dealing with clinical anxiety and depression while pregnant or ttc?

Oh and DH and I talked about still trying last night...everythings still a go! He just thought that the timing was so important to me that I might want to wait![/b]

HEY THERE IM DEALING WITH SLIGHT DEPRESSION/ANXIETY AND WAS DIAGNOSED EARLIER LAST YEAR MARCH08 AND HAVE BEEN TRYING TO GET PREGNANT WITH MY FIRST,GOT PREGNANT OCT 2008 AND LOST MY DARLING TWINS NOV 2008 SO YEAH IM RIGHT THERE WITH YOU WITH THAT STUFF....I TRY TO PRAY AND TALK TO GOD ALL THE TIME....AND TRY TO STAY BUSY AND MY MIND ON POSITIVE THINGS.....A LOT OF THAT STUFF STIMS FROM STRESS....BUT NE WAY I HOPE BABY BLESSINGS OVER YOU!!!

CohensMommy · #7 January 20th, 2009, 04:25 PM

Thank you so much! My depression is actually pretty well under control right now, but it hasn't been for long...I just went back to work today for the first time in 10 weeks. I've been on a short term disability because I tried weaning off of my medication...bad idea.
Today was good though. Going back to work is taking my mind off of ttc, so I feel like there's a lot less pressure. Hopefully that means it will happen easily lol. I was talking to MIL on the phone yesterday and in the background, FIL yells, 'is she pregnant yet' and when I said no, he said 'well tell my son to get on it'. LOL
Then when I told DH, of course he had to give him hell. Now before I write the next part, I have to say that my inlaws are very respectful, conservative people, but my father in law has a great sence of humor. He tells DH that he better hope his swimmers are good, and not to confuse my uterus with my tonsils! OMG!!
I also met with a counsellor today...paid for by my work because of the nature of my short term disability [did I mention that I love my job]! She was amazing as well...she actually reminded me of the psyciatrist that I met with. She's going to help me deal with the anxiety that is coming with me dealing with the fact that I'm going to be on medication while pregnant. I know that its the best thing for me and my hopefully soon to be baby, but I was unmedicated while pregnant with DS and ended up going into prem labour due to an irritable uterus, which is caused by anxiety. Anyways, it was how you would imagine a counselling session to go, we talked about my "storey" and then talked about my past, parents, messy divorce, abandonment issues, etc, etc...and when I left, I was happy! She gave the greatest compliments, saying that considering what I've been through, I have accomplished so much, and that I carry myself wonderfully, and that I am ageless, she had no idea I was only 23, and thought I was just blessed with young features! Then she gave me a hug lol.

So obviously I have a lot to distract me like I said above... I have a very good feeling about this month! 2009 is the year of Jennie my old manager said today, and I think she's right!!!!

CohensMommy · #8 January 21st, 2009, 05:36 PM

Day two back at work!! So far so good! Yes, I'm exhausted by the time I get home, but I think I just need to get myself back into a routine. So much going on, and with very little time to be on JM, I'm hardly thinking of TTC...
Well I was, until we baby danced! Now I just keep thinking, well if they survive up to 5-7 days, these little swimmers could very well be the ones!?
This weekend, DH wants to take me out for "one last night". I'm not 100% sure what the plan is, hopefully dancing or something fun like bowling or movies and wine. This laid back approach seems to be working!! If I O around when should be "normal" it would be right around the weekend, and obviously we're gonna BD if it's the "one last night" out before a potential pregnancy!!!
Awh, I'm so excited!
I'm going to start my OPK's as well. Maybe tomorrow, CD10, would that be too early for a 30 day cycle to start? I only have 9, maybe I'll wait till Friday or Saturday just incase!? Advice...anyone?

CohensMommy · #9 January 24th, 2009, 05:13 AM

Guess what!?!
I'm at work! That's right, I can post on JM from work! I am sooo pumped!! Oh and also, I have sticky CM, so I should get EWCM any day now. I think now is the time to start my OPKs!!!

CohensMommy · #10 February 3rd, 2009, 04:36 AM

Sooo
I have been avoiding posting in this journal because I'm trying to convince myself that if I don't pay too much attention, it will happen. Well of course its impossible not to obsess!!
I got my + OPK CD15 in the PM, so I imagine I O'd the next morning. That would make me 6-7DPO right now. We BD'd the day before the +, and the day before that, skipped a day, and the day before that. I'm hoping we covered our bases. We didn't BD the actual day of O, which is a long storey, but considering I had EWCM for a couple of those BD days, I think we're good for this month.
Since my cycle is 30 days, AF isn't due until NEXT WEDNESDAY!! I don't know if I can hold out testing that long. I'll probably start tomorrow or Thursday lol. Its so hard not to, especially since I have 7 IC's that can just be wasted without worry lol. I know its only cycle 2, but we had such an easy time getting pregnant with DS, so I still worry. I mean we went almost 4 years without birth control [just pulling out], you'd think we would have gotten pregnant somewhere along the way!?
Anyways, It's my Monday [I work Tuesday-Saturday] so hopefully the work week will distract me enough not to test!! Hopefully!!!

CohensMommy · #11 February 5th, 2009, 03:39 AM

WOOT WOOT!!!!

8DPO & I have a very very faint line!!!

It's incredibly hard not to get my hopes up, but I am going to retest tomorrow morning to make sure the line is getting darker!! DH saw it too, and we high-fived. Much better response then when DS was born [he was an oops]!! I'm so excited, I want to yell from the rooftops! I want to find DS a shirt that says big brother ASAP so we can e-mail it to my parents and DH's parents as soon as we're for sure certain! They both live too far away, and we're not seeing my parents until March 18th, and the in-laws until April 10th. There's no way that we could keep this from them for that long! I have a big mouth that's just waiting to tell the whole world lol. I'll keep updated as I retest!

maypril1982 · #12 March 2nd, 2009, 08:20 PM

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WOOT WOOT!!!!

8DPO & I have a very very faint line!!!

It's incredibly hard not to get my hopes up, but I am going to retest tomorrow morning to make sure the line is getting darker!! DH saw it too, and we high-fived. Much better response then when DS was born [he was an oops]!! I'm so excited, I want to yell from the rooftops! I want to find DS a shirt that says big brother ASAP so we can e-mail it to my parents and DH's parents as soon as we're for sure certain! They both live too far away, and we're not seeing my parents until March 18th, and the in-laws until April 10th. There's no way that we could keep this from them for that long! I have a big mouth that's just waiting to tell the whole world lol. I'll keep updated as I retest![/b]

Just wondering if the line got darker!!! :-D