ttc and keep my composure

naenae · #1 September 24th, 2009, 01:26 PM

Hi, im jenae and my dh is alex. weve been ttc for almost 2 years. we recently found out that my dh has low motility. weve been seeing a doctor for about 6 months. so far, weve had no luck. im having a hard time realizing that this is happening. lately it seems like im so depressed and i dont want to get out of bed. i dont know what to do. dh says we'll be fine. and sometimes he says dont worry we have alexander(my step son). but he doesn't understand that his son will never be my biological son. i didn't raise him from birth. it just really hurts that for the longest ive wanted to be a mother. and now that im trying it doesnt seem like it will happen.

naenae · #2 October 5th, 2009, 01:15 PM

ok so we went to the dr last thursday. no sticky bean yet, but still trying. thought maybe it was too early. so just waiting on AF. should be coming tomorrow, but hopefully not. something weird happened last night. his semen was like think jelly. i dont think this is normal, has this happened to anybody else? so were saving to get more infertility counseling. so wish me luck

naenae · #3 October 7th, 2009, 09:57 AM

ok, im feeling under the weather today. really bad heartburn. burning my throat. runny nose. still no AF. but i tested and got a BFN...now im a lil down.