Determined to conceive #1!

mylittleragamuffin22 · #1 May 13th, 2010, 12:44 PM

Hi everyone! This will be a short intro but I'll post a longer one later. I am determined to make pregnancy and a child of my own a reality. I've waited long enough!

mylittleragamuffin22 · #2 May 13th, 2010, 02:56 PM

Ok, now for a little more about myself!

I'm 32 years old and married. My wonderful husband and I don't have any children. I have PCOS so getting pregnant has been REALLY hard to do.

Last year in January I had a miscarriage. I didn't even know I was pregnant! When the doctor finally told me that my extremely heavy and clotty period was a miscarriage, I was stunned.

Last June my husband and I had decided to become foster to adopt parents and we were placed with a beautiful 4 month old little boy. We immediately fell in love. He was drug-affected but we didn't care. We turned our lives upside down for him. In December, a state worker came to our door and told us that our son was being placed in another foster home. Apparently his birth mother claimed we were becoming too attached to him and she felt that our care for him was interfering with the case plan of reunification. Our son obviously loved us and preferred us over a person he only saw a couple hours a week. He lived with us, why wouldn't he? But because she kicked up a huge stink (while denying all her drug activity) he was moved to another home. We mourned him deeply and still feel the sadness by what happened. We have since stopped fostering.

5 months have passed and I am starting to feel that if we are ever going to have children then it's going to have to be up to me to lose weight, eat healthy, exercise, meditate, read, and do whatever it takes to prepare my body for a pregnancy. I am over 300lbs and haven't been under 300 since I was in high school. It's time for me to shed this weight so that my child can finally come and bless my life.

I am going to try my very best to keep this journal and to be active on these boards. I am SO determined and I truly hope that I can do it this time!

Im.Nayomi · #3 May 13th, 2010, 04:08 PM

Hello, My name is Nayomi.... I am 265 pounds and know what it feels like to carry a lot of weight and want a baby so bad....promising myself to lose weight.......you might want to read my journal to know what I am talking about....but what I did was focus on God & being healthy and he opend up my womb in April 2010....dh and I had been trying for 7 years.......I am 29 by the way.........I stayed as positive as I could...dh and I fell in love and I tried to learn to be happy with my life as is...i was 270 pounds.....so me just losing 5-6 pounds helped...also I took 2 1/2 bottles of fertilityblend& used pre-seed which is 2 1/2 months worth.....&&& will be taking progesterone til I see my obgyn really soon....i found out from my sis in law to stop taking advair....which i think that lead to my 2008 loss...also I pray for everyone on J.M. to conceive in God's time.....I hope& pray you find yourself expecting very soon. Welcome to J.M.

mylittleragamuffin22 · #4 May 19th, 2010, 12:05 PM

Lost 5.3 lbs this week! I feel great!

A classmate told me about this thing called pre-seed. It's supposed to be a lubricant that protects sperm. I might buy that. Also want to look into Fertilaid. I heard very good things about it.

I've been exercising (my muscles are sore) and have been engrossed in pregnancy magazines. So far so good.

mylittleragamuffin22 · #5 May 23rd, 2010, 09:18 AM

I did really great this week! I have lost 9.9 lbs in two weeks! Hooray!

I've been exercising, eating right, and turning down sweets. I found a good strength training workout in a pregnancy magazine that I've been doing. The first time kicked my butt! lol

I've been reading more about fertility and all the things that could go wrong. I made an appointment this week with a fertility specialist. I hope she can answer some of the questions I have.

mylittleragamuffin22 · #6 May 29th, 2010, 03:46 PM

Had an "ah-ha" moment today. I realized that birth control pills have estrogen and that fat has estrogen so if I have excess fat on my body I'm basically one big birth control pill. Duh! lol

I have been keeping my spirits up with keeping a journal and with reading pregnancy magazines. I've been thinking about trying to buy as many organic and natural foods as possible. Any little bit of improvement might help!

Im.Nayomi · #7 June 8th, 2010, 11:05 AM

Free Calorie Counter, Diet & Exercise Journal | MyFitnessPal.com hey! I just joined this site and love it already.....
if you decide to join it my name on there is Nayomi1980. I hope all is well with your weight loss.....I am going through that at this time as well.

also it is very good to surround ourselves with baby related things... && be happy.

hopeful3853 · #8 June 8th, 2010, 10:33 PM

hi and welcome to JM! i'm sara and also trying to get in shape! so we'll all have each other to cheer us on.

sounds like you are off to a great start both with weight loss and gearing up for ttc!

cjmacaroni · #9 June 18th, 2010, 07:30 PM

Well I am Catherine and I have be TTC for over a year and I have loss over 40+ pounds since December and I quit smoking after 10 years but still no luck. I have had a miscarriage and I only have one ovary due to my PCOS.

Duffy510 · #10 June 30th, 2010, 07:17 AM

Heya! I'm Ally. I haven't been trying that long and don't really have weight issues, but I'm enjoying reading your story. 9.9 is a lot to lose in 2 weeks. I hope it makes a difference. Lots of luck.