Trying to Conceive Our First

BabyWillMake3 · #1 August 26th, 2010, 08:40 AM

I really like the journaling option. I have been journaling on my own and I'm really excited to find a message board that you can have a way to express yourself and enjoy the process.

Our journey TTC started off on a rainy day.. Just kidding, I don't think it was raining. MH (Joe) and I have talked about having children since before we were married. Joe has a DD from a previous relationship (she's 11) and we quickly moved to AZ after we were married so he could be around and watch his daughter grow up, without us having to fly her back and forth and travel up here (to AZ) for the weekend occasionally so he could spend time with her (it broke my heart to see him away from her and have to say goodbye all the time not knowing when he would see her next).

I was always the hesitant one, MH would've been ready for a baby at the drop of a hat but I was always cautious. Being the obvious worrier in the relationship (you will learn this about me very quick) I was constantly thinking about money, our home, our jobs, and raising a baby. This is an enormous amount of responsibility and I don't know how to do anything 50% and knew once I was a parent, I would turn my life upside down to make sure I gave our baby everything and anything (within reason of course).

Being on BCP's put a snag in our plan. I was told by my OB/Gyn that I could get off the pill anytime and for a while there, I was taking Pre-Natals and BCP's at the same time. If you haven't tried it, I suggest it, its really REALLY fun when you go to the pharmacy to pick up you BCP's, Pre-Natals and Condoms and feel like you have to justify your contradictory purchase. After talking to MH in December we decided we would start "Trying" but knew that I had to stop taking the BCP's for at least 3 months for those to get out of my system.

That brought us to February when I stopped taking the pill and I was so proud when I went to the pharmacy to pick up my PNV's, and condoms (NO BCP's!). After waiting three months we started actively trying in June hoping for a March or April baby. After allowing my body to recover off of the BCP's and TTC the good ol' fashion way, I took to good ol' Google for some research and found out about TTC, Charting, Temping, CM the whole 9 yards and settled with charting on FF. I started charting at the end of July after our "April" baby hopes quickly faded with the arrival of AF.

Now that we are in August, I've stressed myself out quite a bit TTC and started to micromanage my cycle. I am looking forward to taking it easy going forward but not backing down on our dream. I've handed over my HPT's to DH and only have access to my ovulation tests. (Last month I peed on everything.. and went through 6 pregnancy tests thinking they were "ALL" wrong). I am trying to let life happen, let my body do what it wants to do, and give everything time to work.

I look forward to sharing my TTC journals with everyone and can't wait to meet new people and enjoy this step in our lives together.