Thank you all for your kind words, i send you all big hugs, and im sorry for all your losses, its great to finally feel like there are women out there who understand, as my friends (Who as great as they are), have limited knowledge of how it feels to loose lots of babies
As for the doctor, its acctually my oh who tells me we wont put ourselvs through all the testing if the dr doesnt feel we need to, his attitude is if its ment to be it will happen, which im kinda starting to feel the same,as im tired of this taking over my life, i woke up last night thinking, if this doesnt happen for us, then i will have wasted years and years of my life, worrying/stressing temping, poas,and thinking about babies 24/7,when in those years i could have been doing other things

...(i know that sounds horrible to say), but im just at the point where im tired of constantly thinking about babies and ttc, the months when ive told myself "right enough temping,taking opk etc" i still in my mind work out when im likley to ovulate,my brain does it without me even knowing lol....im just tired and theres gotta be more to life than being brainwashed by babies and ttc!, but then i cant stop!!! ARHHHHHHHH lol
sorry for the rant but i know you ladies wont gudge me like some ppl would
i look forward to getting to know all you lovley ladies out there, baby dust to you all
love Bex x