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October 31st, 2012, 12:12 AM
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again.

*sigh*.

I started working in October. I absolutely HATE the job. It's a really crappy job, but I think I also hate it because I never thought I'd have to work. When we started to ttc last December, I assumed we'd be pregnant by now. I assumed DH would have a better job and we'd be on the right path. But we are actually further behind than we were.

I've started having trouble sleeping. A pretty good sign for me that things are going bad. My head aches are back, some days I have no appetite at all. But I'm still packing on the pounds, it's so bad my shoes no longer stay tied .

I just don't know what to do. I guess there really isn't anything I can do except just keep on hating things like I am.. we need the income right now.
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October 31st, 2012, 07:16 PM
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I have been there and I just can't tell you what will help. I have tried medication and it helped and cause issues. I am just grateful I am not back their after losing Seth...
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October 31st, 2012, 09:25 PM
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sry your job sucks and sry you are working.

also, this sucks. Plain fing sucks. Sucks. Sucks. Sucks. I wish we could all be joyful together, i wish we could all have our rainbow babies, why can't we? Why?
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November 1st, 2012, 12:30 AM
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I have been there and I just can't tell you what will help. I have tried medication and it helped and cause issues. I am just grateful I am not back their after losing Seth...
I have been off and on meds since I was 12, the only kind that ever worked was nortryptline, and it didn't deal with the depression, just the headaches (less pain made the depression easier to manage on its own).


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sry your job sucks and sry you are working.

also, this sucks. Plain fing sucks. Sucks. Sucks. Sucks. I wish we could all be joyful together, i wish we could all have our rainbow babies, why can't we? Why?

I dunno Megs.. but I'm getting dang close to just giving up. We are less than 2 months way from our 1 year trying.
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Me: Hashi's, PCOS, Insulin resistant, Multiple miscarriages
Polypectomy - 08/21/14 Laproscopy - 12/05/2014
Him: MFI low count, low morphology, low motillity
Seeing MFI specialist/RE in 2015. Vitamins started August 2nd
Cycle 1: Clomid cd3-7 ~ bfn
Cycle 2: Clomid cd 3-7 ~ beta negative (< 3)
Cycle 3: Lap on cd 2 - Femara cd 3-7 - Testing Christmas Day
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November 1st, 2012, 09:15 AM
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Don't quit! Don't give up!

I'm pretty sure you've been beside me telling Augie this, you can't give up.

The other day I was watching that stupid I didn't know I was pregnant show. The couple had tried for 3 years and finally stopped trying and adopted. Then the lady had an eptopic(sp???) And lost her tubes. 20 years into their marriage, she had their baby.
No one should have to wait 20 years, but you always have to think that it's possible. Please don't give up, please!
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November 1st, 2012, 10:13 AM
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I am so sorry that you are in this. I have struggled with depression even being medicated the last 4 years. Mine stems from anxiety. Life truly isn't fair.

Money sucks. loads and loads of hugs.
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November 1st, 2012, 11:48 AM
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Thanks girls. He's 100% sure this is from what happened at work the other night. I had been doing ok until that (they refused to let me go to the bathroom between break and lunch, and since I'm on AF and losing up to 12oz of "stuff" every cycle you can imagine what happened).

Meagan, DH's 36th is 10 days from today, which will leave us with 4 years. If it doesn't happen, we're done. It was part of the deal, no babies after his 40th.
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Me: Hashi's, PCOS, Insulin resistant, Multiple miscarriages
Polypectomy - 08/21/14 Laproscopy - 12/05/2014
Him: MFI low count, low morphology, low motillity
Seeing MFI specialist/RE in 2015. Vitamins started August 2nd
Cycle 1: Clomid cd3-7 ~ bfn
Cycle 2: Clomid cd 3-7 ~ beta negative (< 3)
Cycle 3: Lap on cd 2 - Femara cd 3-7 - Testing Christmas Day
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November 1st, 2012, 05:55 PM
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I quit. DH told me to quit on my first break and to come home. he couldn't handle me this unhappy anymore.
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Me: Hashi's, PCOS, Insulin resistant, Multiple miscarriages
Polypectomy - 08/21/14 Laproscopy - 12/05/2014
Him: MFI low count, low morphology, low motillity
Seeing MFI specialist/RE in 2015. Vitamins started August 2nd
Cycle 1: Clomid cd3-7 ~ bfn
Cycle 2: Clomid cd 3-7 ~ beta negative (< 3)
Cycle 3: Lap on cd 2 - Femara cd 3-7 - Testing Christmas Day
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November 1st, 2012, 08:35 PM
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I quit. DH told me to quit on my first break and to come home. he couldn't handle me this unhappy anymore.

That's awesome!
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November 2nd, 2012, 12:28 PM
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He told me this morning he can already see a huge difference in me. Not only did I sleep soundly, but I woke up mostly happy (I feel sick, so I can't be totally happy).

I applied for a few jobs last night, but unless I find something I like, I only have to work until Christmas eve... I wouldn't mind something part time, even just 8-12 hrs a week just to kill sometime after Christmas.. he'll be gone from Feb to June anyway.
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Awesome siggy made by Jaidynsmum

Me: Hashi's, PCOS, Insulin resistant, Multiple miscarriages
Polypectomy - 08/21/14 Laproscopy - 12/05/2014
Him: MFI low count, low morphology, low motillity
Seeing MFI specialist/RE in 2015. Vitamins started August 2nd
Cycle 1: Clomid cd3-7 ~ bfn
Cycle 2: Clomid cd 3-7 ~ beta negative (< 3)
Cycle 3: Lap on cd 2 - Femara cd 3-7 - Testing Christmas Day
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November 7th, 2012, 06:02 PM
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*hugs* I hope you can find something with decent pay and hours to help you out. A job can be so vicious. I quite mine last year and immediately felt so relieved.

I hope you guys don't have to try much longer and get your sticky BFP. I wish so much that all of us could have our happy endings. This week marks 6.5 years since we started trying and our first miscarriages and such. We've got 4 years until our end date now and I'm starting to think it won't happen.
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November 8th, 2012, 03:37 PM
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*hugs* I'm sorry Jen!!!!

My cycle seems to be wonky this month. I don't have a clue what's going on, and both ovaries feel awful. I really really cannot wait until we can magically afford health insurance, because this sucks
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Me: Hashi's, PCOS, Insulin resistant, Multiple miscarriages
Polypectomy - 08/21/14 Laproscopy - 12/05/2014
Him: MFI low count, low morphology, low motillity
Seeing MFI specialist/RE in 2015. Vitamins started August 2nd
Cycle 1: Clomid cd3-7 ~ bfn
Cycle 2: Clomid cd 3-7 ~ beta negative (< 3)
Cycle 3: Lap on cd 2 - Femara cd 3-7 - Testing Christmas Day
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