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  #1  
December 3rd, 2012, 03:38 PM
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Well, after my ultrasound last week, I had hope for the first time that this pregnancy might stick. Then I started bleeding a little yesterday and went in for a scan. No heartbeat anymore. D&C is scheduled for tomorrow. I would have been 9 weeks today.
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December 3rd, 2012, 03:55 PM
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HUGS

I'm so sorry sweetie.
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175mcg Synthyroid, 1500mg Metformin
Colposcopy = CIN1+CIN2 cells Polypectomy - August 21st
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Seeing MFI specialist/RE in 2015. Vitamins started August 2nd
Trying a few cycles of clomid and progesterone. FX this is all it takes.
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December 3rd, 2012, 09:15 PM
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I am so sorry. I know how hard that is. I will be thinking of you.
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December 4th, 2012, 09:25 AM
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I'm so sorry
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December 4th, 2012, 11:49 PM
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I am so sorry
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December 5th, 2012, 05:19 AM
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I am so sorry hun. How are you doing now?
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December 6th, 2012, 09:28 AM
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So, so sorry to hear that... hugs to you.
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December 6th, 2012, 05:29 PM
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It's been tougher than I thought it would be. Everytime I close my eyes I'm haunted be that last image on the screen... The baby with absolutely no motion, no heartbeat, whatsoever. The fact that just four days earlier it not only had a heartbeat, but a strong heartbeat. I can't help but wonder whether I did something that caused this....like, maybe I shouldn't have gone running last week after I had that good ultrasound. We sent it to get chromosomes tested, so I really hope they find a genetic reason why it failed...otherwise I will always wonder if I did something wrong. I'm just having a hard time letting this one go.
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December 6th, 2012, 09:59 PM
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Awww sweetie *big hugs*

You didn't do anything wrong at all. If women had to live quiet sedentary lives for pregnancies to happen, the species would have died out a long long time ago.

I hope the genetic testing brings you some answers. If not, you could also ask your doctor to run some basic tests on you too. Things like clotting disorders, vitamin deficiencies.
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Matthew&Mark 08/24/2005 9w1d, Mattie Anne 04/07/2008 8w Mel&Dee 01/19/2010 (8 weeks) and 5 chemical pregnancies
Hope 07/22/2012@4w1d, Konnor 11/24/2012@3w6d,"Emmy"1/15/2013@ 3w6d, Ronen 02/10/2013@3w5d, Joy 07/19/2013@3w6d, "Pea" 09/06/2013@ 3w3d

Me: Hashi's, PCOS, Insulin resistant
175mcg Synthyroid, 1500mg Metformin
Colposcopy = CIN1+CIN2 cells Polypectomy - August 21st
Him: MFI low count, low morphology, low motillity
Seeing MFI specialist/RE in 2015. Vitamins started August 2nd
Trying a few cycles of clomid and progesterone. FX this is all it takes.
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December 8th, 2012, 01:15 AM
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Oh I am so sorry. It is so hard. I think running through the "what ifs" and questioning every action is a normal part of the early grieving process. It will pass. I think we all do it to level or another & then have to come to realize that we can't control outcome & that we aren't causing this, it is happening beyond our control. I actually think that is likely a function of subconsciously wishing it were something we did so that way we can just not do that *thing* next time & everything will be fine.

I am sorry momma. It is really rough & raw early on - like someone stomped on your head & ripped your heart out. It won't always hurt as intensely as it does today, Just keep sharing your feelings & it will help you feel less alone and help you process through them.
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We've begun to raise daughters more like sons... but few have the courage to raise our sons more like our daughters. ~Gloria Steinem

If a man has been his mother's undisputed darling he retains throughout life the triumphant feeling, the confidence in success, which not seldom brings actual success along with it. ~Sigmund Freud
My mom is a neverending song in my heart of comfort, happiness, and being. I may sometimes forget the words but I always remember the tune. ~Graycie Harmon
Don't wait to make your son a great man - make him a great boy. ~Author Unknown
You don't raise heroes, you raise sons. And if you treat them like sons, they'll turn out to be heroes, even if it's just in your own eyes. ~Walter M. Schirra, Sr.
A man loves his sweetheart the most, his wife the best, but his mother the longest. ~Irish Proverb
Mother's love is peace. It need not be acquired, it need not be deserved. ~Erich Fromm
Children need love, especially when they do not deserve it. - Harold Hulbert
Mother is the name for God in the lips and hearts of little children. ~William Makepeace Thackeray
God could not be everywhere, so he created mothers. ~Jewish Proverb
The best conversations with mothers always take place in silence, when only the heart speaks. ~Carrie Latet




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December 8th, 2012, 07:28 AM
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I'm sorry that this happened. I hope that physically you are feeling some improvement these 4 days. Keep talking (posting). You're not alone.
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December 8th, 2012, 01:22 PM
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All of your support really means a lot. There are times I think I'm getting past it, but then I'll randomly start tearing up over it again. I think the fact that we will be taking a break for a while (if not forever) is actually helping relieve some of the stress. Like, at least I KNOW I won't be having any more losses in the next 6 months. Now I just need to stop stalking the July DDC.
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December 8th, 2012, 01:31 PM
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*hugs*

You will never get past it, but it will get better. Allowing yourself time to grieve now, means it won't sneak up on you full force later like it did to me. I suffered more in years 3 and 4 than I did in 1 and 2 because though I allowed myself some grieving, I kept it all bottled up inside.

It's been 4m since I lost hope, and I still stalk her DDC on a regular basis.
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Awesome siggy made by Jaidynsmum
Matthew&Mark 08/24/2005 9w1d, Mattie Anne 04/07/2008 8w Mel&Dee 01/19/2010 (8 weeks) and 5 chemical pregnancies
Hope 07/22/2012@4w1d, Konnor 11/24/2012@3w6d,"Emmy"1/15/2013@ 3w6d, Ronen 02/10/2013@3w5d, Joy 07/19/2013@3w6d, "Pea" 09/06/2013@ 3w3d

Me: Hashi's, PCOS, Insulin resistant
175mcg Synthyroid, 1500mg Metformin
Colposcopy = CIN1+CIN2 cells Polypectomy - August 21st
Him: MFI low count, low morphology, low motillity
Seeing MFI specialist/RE in 2015. Vitamins started August 2nd
Trying a few cycles of clomid and progesterone. FX this is all it takes.
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