[Samoy]

I ovulated yesterday. Yeah! My DH came to bed tired and not wanting to ttc. I rolled over in overwhelmed with hurt, tears and frustration as he snored. He woke this morning apologizing profusely and professing his love and how he would never hurt me, but he did. He did. Cool

I got an email yesterday from a school for two class, this morning during our faculty meeting he text me to take back his offer as the classes were given to two other faculty by the an associate chair. Cool.

At the exact same time, the Admin Assistant announced she's due in January. I was due in December. Cool.

The chair pulled me over perplexed by the unemployment office calling them regarding this summer. I was embarrassed. Cool.

I left the faculty meeting early and ran to the adjunct office to I have to watch her belly grow. I have to watch her grow a baby, while I stew.

I am emotionally and spiritually exhausted. I am spent. I am weak. I just want to sit on this couch and have a poor me party. My DH is upstairs, upset that I'm upset.

My head hurts.

[missy123]

I just want to give you huge hugs.

I have been where you are and I feel your pain. I am so sorry I wish you did not have to go through all this.

[Jen71]

I'm soooo sorry and I soooooo get it.

I've had similar types of things happen. The hubby not in the mood at the one moment he HAS to be. Dealing with other people having babies and I'm not anymore.

I had a weepy weepy day myself. My bosses daughter had her baby today, the daughter that has children the same age as mine, and we were pregnant at the same time. We were both pregnant with baby #3 at the same time, but now I'm not and she just had hers. Not wanting to hijack your post, but just to say that I completely get it.

Big Hugs to you!!!

[pepper73]

I'm so sorry. TTC is such an overwhelming and emotional process. I totally understand the hurt you felt when your DH was not "in the mood". It is so hard to not get upset by it.

I also understand the pain felt when people close to us are pregnant. I have a friend who's scheduled c-section is on my birthday. I am happy for her but I'm also upset about it. When we are TTC, it seems like there are pregnant women and babies everywhere. It totally sucks!

I hope things turn around for you soon!! Keep us posted on how you're doing!

[BeckyM]

I'm so sorry sweetie. My heart just aches when I think about the losses you and these other ladies have gone through. It's just not fair. Please vent to us anytime, we are all here for each other.

[*SamF*]

I'm so sorry! That is too much crap in one day for anyone!
I understand about watching other people get bigger and bigger, while you keep thinking that should be me. And I can relate on the TTC side with DH, either he was too tired or just couldn't do it. I had many similar nights, crying myself to sleep.
Just keep the faith and hope alive that you will get your perfect sticky BFP.
Big

[GG1995]

I am so sorry that you had such an awful day!!

(((HUGS)))

[latestartTTC]

Wow. I think we all relate very well.

In addition to my first pregnancy and then subsequent miscarriage at 36, I've had a similarly frustrating and exhausting month at work. My obgyn (not my normal doc, but the one that treated me for my m/c) is sticking with her "wait 2-3 cycles" to TTC again. I was due with my first on Apr 20, perfectly in between my birthday Apr 17 and my sweet Mom's birthday Apr 25. We are naming baby (if a girl) after my mom who passed away 5 years ago. I also just had dinner with some great friends who have a 3 month old baby girl. They also have no idea I miscarried a week ago. I'm so happy for them. AND, so jealous. Long day......Long week.

Deep breaths.

Let's take a time out! If you can, lets ALL GO GET PEDICURES this weekend. Just do something nice for yourself, to relax! DH are taking a quick beach trip for his birthday. SO, go enjoy yourself. Big hugs to all of you. Hope all of us get our sticky bean soon. Maybe the BC will malfunction this weekend. I'm afraid to hope for that though. Wouldn't want another m/c or any complications .

[Merry Robin]

I read your post and thought about you when reading "Get Pregnant Now: 12 Ideas to Help You Get Pregnant Right Away".


I have been trying for so long to get pregnant, that I felt like I must ready myself for disappointment. I would say that has been the wrong approach. Push that out of your mind and focus and preparing your body, life and checkbook for the changes that will happen. Being a parent is about rolling with the punches because things dont go as plan, and we can't control others. Even with children you cant control their behavior, but you can control your own. Role model now the behavior that you would want to teach. Think of it as a little more time to prepare. You are so lucky to have this time than other parents that have too little time to prepare.

[Pajama Mama]

I ovulated yesterday. Yeah! My DH came to bed tired and not wanting to ttc. I rolled over in overwhelmed with hurt, tears and frustration as he snored. He woke this morning apologizing profusely and professing his love and how he would never hurt me, but he did. He did. Cool

I got an email yesterday from a school for two class, this morning during our faculty meeting he text me to take back his offer as the classes were given to two other faculty by the an associate chair. Cool.

At the exact same time, the Admin Assistant announced she's due in January. I was due in December. Cool.

The chair pulled me over perplexed by the unemployment office calling them regarding this summer. I was embarrassed. Cool.

I left the faculty meeting early and ran to the adjunct office to  I have to watch her belly grow. I have to watch her grow a baby, while I stew. 

I am emotionally and spiritually exhausted. I am spent. I am weak. I just want to sit on this couch and have a poor me party. My DH is upstairs, upset that I'm upset. 

My head hurts.
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Samoy

Hope things are looking up for you this week!

[Samoy]

@Merry Robin. You are right about spending time roll modeling, but role modeling what? I fell like if I take my mind of this, that one moment will pass and I will miss my baby, my child, as time is not on my side. How would I role model, cause I want to.