[Samoy]

So, got my 2ww and I'm NOT pregnant! I'm having all frigging kinds of hot flashes, UTI, Hemrroids emotional roller coaster.

Day before thanksgiving, text my friends and family and one of my friends text back that she just had a baby girl the day before. I'M SORRY!!!!! FRIGGING WHAT!!!!!!! REALLY ***!!!!! REALLY!!!! NOT her.

I'm fighting that two faced *****, in the HR/Health INS. det, at my husband's job who INTENTIONALLY gave me the incorrect health information for the past year! I WANT HER TO FALL OF A ******* LEDGE!!!!! I don't care! FALL!!!!!

I could have been on this health insurance over a year ago. She knew I could be covered! She intentionally steered me away from it. Somehow GOD, gave me a light and I saw it. When I went back she still is saying I won't be covered even thought the insurance said I will and the fertility clinic said I will and they both said she doesn't know what she's talking about. She's a Frigging Director of whatever, Heffer lying. FALL!!!

She's been protecting either my husband's ex low self esteem **** of an ex/ co-worker, who's still throwing herself at him, eventhough he's married. OR, she protecting his baby's mamma because his female co-worker/bestie and baby mamma either were or are besties/spiritual whatever together - how did that work out her - he married me, and that insurance person and the bestie/ coworker are close, follow that, if you can! Either way the *****, is trying to stop me from being my own mom.**** YOU!!!

MAY SHE FALL DOWN SEVerAl FliGHT OF STEPS!

I'm tired of everyone and their frigging negativity in my friggin way. I'm SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE'S ****!!!!!!!!

God said get humility. OK, but how when everyone around me is so ****** up! HOW sweet Jesus.

DON'T ANYONE SAY "SO, sorry to hear that." OR any DEVIATION in a reply. NO ONE!!!!!!

Through out the entire semester, one of my students sat there with her growing belly two months short of my due date. I TOOOOOOKKKKKK it!!!!!! She gave me a gift from her baby SHOWER! IIIIIII ENDURED IT!!!!!! I saw her bellly grow! I said, GOD, I will endure this and not break. This is a test. DID I NOT PASS IT!!!! WHAT ELSE must I do. BE CLEAR GOD, and tell me and I will climb that mountain.

I'm too sad, hurt, depressed and just simply ****** in the head, heart, and soul to hear you. BE CLEAR and I will move ANY MOUNTAIN! BE CLEAR WITH ME! I''m not Sarah!

I see everyone with their big frigging bellies and I friggin smile and say...that will be me soon, appreciate their joy. REALLLLYYYY GOOOOODDDDDD!!!!! REEEAAALLLLYYYY!!!

EVERYONE IS FRIGGING blessed with fertility!!!!!

MY dumb **** husband, with a sad face, endured going to my family's for Thankgiving. The first time he, ever in our entire almost two year marriage, did something that wasn't about his family or his little co-dependent *** world. WELL he better get over it as next summer he will be there and NEXT THANKSGIVING, suck it up!!! BABY BOY!

Everyone in my family saw how sad he was to not be with his frigging co-dependent, manipulative ugly ***, always wanting, hand out family. I'm always going to their functions to celebrate their low frigging self esteem, which they self medicate with excessive food, alchol and jokes pulling down each other down! CRABS IN A F BARREL.

You couldn't fully get to know my family because you felt that getting to know them would be a betrayal to them. GROW UP....YOU CHILD!!!!!!! Yet, you couldn't find a peace of happiness to be with my family. to partake with them. How immature.

Your birthday came and no one gave you **** from your family. Your sister didn't call you to say happy birthday, so you bend down and kiss her ugly behind. For her b'day next month will be whistles and bells. That was their way of manipulating you and keeping you to tow the line. I GOT UGLY'S NUMBER!! I GOT HER NUMBER! WAIT!!! for my response and cissors to cut it!

For our wedding she had one friggin thing to do, bring your cake. SHE purposely forgot it, cause i bought it and not her. I have what she can never get or sleep with or father children with, you.

She gave us $120. for five people for our wedding, so we must spend $6,000.00 on a cruise for her fake *** marriage? You're sister is in our pockets to keep her man. ANd her man is using us to find a carrier with no credentials.

We're the used couple. You're nephew thinks your middle name is want giver. He could care less about your well being. Your son's sister can't even bring the words..."I love you" to her lips, even though you sneak and give her money every month and pay her Iphone 4 cell bill. All she could say on "facebook" is..."Happy birthday and god bless," really, couldn't that so called "like a daughter" pick up the cell that we're paying for and call you?

Asked my girlfriend to help me format my resume and she proceeded to tell me how I couldn't get a job now, because of the economy, so what makes me think... ***** DID I ASK YOU THAT!!!!!**** U!!!!!!!!!! PICK A ******* finger...this one!!!!!!! I just text that heffer and gave her my mind!

I will NOT take another day of people's ****!

I despise all of my friends right now. I need them most right now and every single one of them has abandoned me. Yet, I must show up to be there for them. PICK A ******* finger!!!! EVERY FRIGGIN ONE OF YOU! My Besties forever, as you both keep saying...."I'm still waiting for my wedding gift!" "I'm still waiting for either one of you to show up for me on my wedding day!" You both acted like guest!!!!

EVERYONE PICK a ******* finger! AND SIT ON IT!!!

I'm done! :angry 2:

[Mom 2 Avery]

I bet getting all that out felt sooooooo good!!!

[lizm75]

Wow sounds like a mess, maybe bringing a baby into it isn't the best idea anyway.

[LauraTTCat42]

The stress and inconsideration that everyone is placing on you in your life is not good or fair on you, to say the least.

It sounds like you really needed to get all of that out, and glad you did. But do THEY know how you REALLY feel about what they are putting you through? Or are you keeping it all bottled up inside of YOU?

[BeckyM]

((Hugs)) sweetie. I'm glad you can vent this all out here, I know its much harder to let it out IRL. I wish I could do much more then just send these virtual hugs.

[Samoy]

Dear All,

Yes, Amy, it was gooooood to get it out, thanks. I'm in the mood of getting anyone and everything out my way! MUCH better Amy, letting everybody have it and pushing back! WAAAYYY better.

Found out that my husband was sad at Thanksgiving because my sister turned into a mean girl. As she sat within earshot, his cell phone rang, it was next to her. She picked it up and saw his sister pix pop up and said..."what an ugly picture or person..." She said. he came out shortly thereafter and asked if his phone rang. She also said he didn't hear.

He did because of a comment he made later.

I let her have it! She's not in a good place right now and she needs to leave that place and not get in my business to mess it up. Told her that what she did was mean spirited and she's no better that his sister who's been mean with a smile to me. So, she too is ugly. She's also cut from ALL further info!

@Laura, no I haven't told until now or have had access to my voice up until now. So, me telling my husband that "this will be our new insurance," is my voice emerging. Checking my sister is my voice emerging. Telling my husband that he and his sister's were mean to me at his mother in law's birthday and that there is a difference between a joke and fodder and they were making fodder out of me and I didn't appreciate it, was my voice emerging. Telling my husband that his son and my step son's sister has not spoken to him in over three years since we've been together is not solely on her bitter mother, she has some ownership in that. She challenged her mom to see some boy, why not you...?

And she only talked to you when you sent her a big fat check when she went to college and then asked for a iphone 4 and for you to pay her bill. She will call soon...it's Christmas and we'll hear from her again in June for her birthday.

@Liz, because I really desire to give birth to my own child and no life is perfect, you have to work on the imperfections as we move along, as I am.


Samoy, better :-)

[BeckyM]

I'm glad you feel better, and boo on your sister being mean & ugly. I just don't understand family at times. ((hugs))

[*SamF*]

Glad you are feeling better! A good vent and making yourself heard is so helpful!

[mat616]

Glad you are feeling better. I couldn't follow some of it, but the paying the cell phone part I did and I can understand how that is very upsetting and inconsiderate.

I have to say, I have been " learned" on "PICK A FINGER". Never heard of that one, but it is one I will use. lol.

And yes, when friends are having children effortlessly, it feels as if people are flaunting their fertilty. But think that one day it will be you having your miracle.

Hope your days get better and that you get the great insurance!!