[mat616]

Found myself picking out baby names 2 days ago and nesting yesterday. I think my biological clock is ringing again.

It's CD1 and I ain't getting any younger.

I want to be a SAHM so badly and spend time with my DS and DD. Tearing up here. This economy sucks!!

[LauraTTCat42]

If you are already picking out baby names and nesting then your biological clock must sound like Big Ben right about now, hehe

I am not far behind you tho!! GL if you do decide to start TTC soon.

[BeckyM]

Good luck!!! I hope this economy eases sometime soon. It makes decisions like this so much harder.

[mat616]

Yes, the economy makes it harder.

Then I start thinking about my DD and how beautiful she is. Then I start thinking about it being fair to her. Maybe I should just be happy with what I have.

Then I start thinking about Downs Syndrome, but I also know people who are in their 20's that have had children with Downs so it is gone out of my mind for a while.

Then I start thinking about my body and can I handle another C-section. Will I miscarry??? I can't do that again, I barely survived the MC. 30 days of torture.

Then I see my DD and think, it is all worth it and I am not getting any younger.

I don't want to become as obssessed as I was when I was 42. I don't want to get as depressed as I was then.

Let's face it, the fact that I am on this board again and considering TTC again, means I really want another child and am trying to talk myself out of it.

CD2.....I have 5 more days to decide something.....

Any advice???????? I just asked my DS if he would love another sibling and he said just like I love my sister. He is a BIG BIG HEART full of LOVE.... that one.... so proud of him I am.....

Advice for this 45 year old. Funny thing is that when I was young I didn't want kids.... this all started later in life......

[LauraTTCat42]

Sorry (((hugs))) I think it is a bit more difficult when we are older to make decisions like this.

Having also had a few m/c and 2 c-sections and troubled pregnancies with both my children, I sometimes have to question myself as to why I want to take so much risk to have another child. It just feels right to try this 1 last time. I wish there was some great piece of wisdom I could give to you, but there isn't other than to do what feels right in your heart.

Good luck in your decision!

[BeckyM]

Good luck sweetie!! These decisions are so hard to make. I was blessed to not have a difficult pg and didn't face the losses so many of you women have faced, our main problem is severe MFI, and I too am struggling with decisions to. It's so very hard... Hugs to everyone!!!

[*SamF*]

It's a tough decision. I knew going into TTC #2 that I would not be able to stay home and we would be looking at HUGE daycare bills. Plus the multiple losses before DS, then the losses between DS and this one made me question things a LOT! But in the end my desire to have a second baby and give DS a sibling won out. Glad it did.

[DawnVH]

you are right. you wouldn't be on here or TTC again if you didn't feel like something wasn't complete, right? All in all, it's up to you on your decision, but I totally back you on it I have had 2 c sections myself, and both pregnancies had complications of a LOT of preterm labor. I asked my doctor if I was wrong or irresponsible for wanting another child. He told me NO. There may be risks this time around and there may not be. God will get us through. I can't tell you I know what it is like to MC as I have been lucky enough to have it not happen, or God didn't allow me to realize it had happened. So I am sorry for you and your losses. I can tell whatever you decide, a new kiddo in the house would be greatly loved by a wonderful sibling, that's for sure! Good luck!

[mat616]

The ovulating pains are practically breaking me in half.

Funny how In the past 22 months I really did not notice them. Don't know if I caught the eggie. Have to admit I did not really give it a huge effort. My timing was poor. But you never know....

Happy Holidays!!

[LauraTTCat42]

FX'd you caught that eggy!