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  #1  
April 29th, 2013, 07:33 AM
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I'm so tired of thinking about it all. Tired of checking the TP everytime I go to the restroom. Tired of thinking what day it is. Tired of checking the clock, the calendar, the OPKs, the thermometer etc.

I'm tired of thinking of what every sneeze, itch, cramp, sore boob, swollen Hemorrhoid, stretchmark, watery eyes, nausea, badly poured concrete slab, flat tire, Jesus shaped cloud and black cat walking in front of a ladder means for my TTC future.

I don't want to check FF to see if I should make love to my husband.

I don't want to get pregnant just to be told it's an empty sac, no heartbeat, I'm too old, it's over, again.

I want the joy of another child in my life without taking the joy out of my life to get it.

Does any of this make sense?
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April 29th, 2013, 09:46 AM
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Absolutely. I kinda had a breakdown last month. I can't take it anymore. Since then I'm kinda like whatever. Jesus either you got this or you don't. Either way I can't handle the stress of it. Today I got what looked like a positive on both my IC's and so I got excited and tested with a frer test bfn. I was like well ok. So tomorrow I should start spotting. Normally I would be depressed, but I just can't do that anymore. I reckon I'll either keep trying or I won't. I'm not sure I care anymore.
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April 29th, 2013, 10:35 AM
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Oh I hear you there. I don't even bother with HPTs anymore. I know the minute I take one, I'll get AF. Even if she's not due for 10 more days.

Charting just pisses me off. I have more important things to do. And spending money on OPKs, HPTs and Dr.s Forget it. I have broken appliances, injured animals and a child that told me the other day "you are ALWAYS working" and who is growing up so fast, I'm missing out on the best years.

I'm at the point now that if it happens, then we're blessed. If it doesn't, well at least we tried. We got real close too and I guess that's what hurts the most. Am I bitter? You better freaking believe I am. Do I have any regrets? None.

I'll keep trying. I know my cycle enough to know that after AF ends, we have a chance. Once AF starts, we don't. If we are intimate during those days in between we may add to our family. The chances get smaller every month. But like you said, I'm not going to get depressed everytime AF shows.
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April 29th, 2013, 11:08 AM
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That's is, whatever happens happens. If it happens I'll be thrilled, if it doesn't then I tried my hardest and that's that.
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April 29th, 2013, 05:51 PM
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I can't even imagine the frustration that most of you have gone through TTC. Not to mention the heartbreak of a miscarriage.

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May 1st, 2013, 12:22 AM
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i dont even buy htp anymore my husband really pissed me off the other day and told me lets face it were not having anymore kids its been 3 years.. lets move and enjoy life then he goes we we wont really have to pull and pray then either cause u cant seem to get pregant and I was so pissed cause its not all me maybe its him he never got tested.. ggrrrr but anywho I feel your pain
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May 1st, 2013, 09:12 AM
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Aw, that was mean. It's YOUR fault of course, isn't it? I'd start calling him Henry IIIV. SO Medieval.
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May 2nd, 2013, 12:24 AM
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ya he was a big *** for that... life just sucks right now.
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May 2nd, 2013, 06:04 AM
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Diver, are you sure you aren't PG? 105 days? You could be almost 4 mos by now. You should have an US done to see if the baby is hiding somewhere.
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May 2nd, 2013, 09:18 AM
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that funny you should say that I had a dream the other day that I was pregant and didnt know it until I had stomach pains and went to the hospital..lol.. I have never tested..I have 5 internet cheepys that I won once and there still sitting there.. maybe I should use one.
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May 2nd, 2013, 09:25 AM
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ok took my test it was neg .. damit lol
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May 2nd, 2013, 12:06 PM
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AW! I was really hoping too. Maybe since they are old, they are no good. Better go and buy some more.
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May 2nd, 2013, 01:20 PM
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Wow you have such self restraint Diver!

I'm already frustrated being 3 days late and I've tested with 3 different tests. I can't even imagine going 100+ days. Would your Dr. Even consider doing an US?
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May 2nd, 2013, 11:54 PM
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as soon as payday hits I told hubby I need to go in and get a jump start..
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May 3rd, 2013, 04:40 AM
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Yeah you may need too. This is beyond ridiculous. Get a jump start and some clomid.
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May 3rd, 2013, 04:25 PM
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Divermom would you ever get Clomid on your own?
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May 4th, 2013, 09:20 AM
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I would get clomid if I knew how.. or what to get.i think Im gonna bump up my vitmin d its snowing again in alaska can u belive it ..

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May 5th, 2013, 09:45 AM
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I'm sure there are places on the Internet to order it? If your Dr. refuses to help you, and you frustrated enough that could be an option?

I would definitely read up on it a little more.
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May 6th, 2013, 06:27 PM
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i am been reading alot.
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May 6th, 2013, 08:43 PM
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I'm going to do a little reading and I'll let you know what I find.
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