[Brittney06]

Well I decided that as much as i want to start a new topic and start ranting I might as well just start my own journal at least that way I will keep myself entertained! So I am very bored right now I am seriously exhausted but I can't sleep it is 5:30 am and for some reason I am sitting on my comp wide awake even though I feel so tired! So far this morning still no AF so I am still very cranky and since I didn't start while sleeping it pry means I won't start all day cuz I normally start while I am sleeping I don't think I have ever started in the middle of the day but who knows there's a first time for everything. I really hope AF stays away cuz I reallllly want a BFP but if she comes its ok to cuz this is my first cycle after a m/c so I can't expect to much either way I just wish I knew what the heck is going on cuz I feel so dang moody my poor DH doesn't know what to do. I talked to him yesterday, ok actually I yelled at him then had a full fledged melt down and cryed in his arms for like an hour cuz I feel so mean lately. He talked to me and said he felt like he was walking on egg shells around me (which he is right) I go from happy to mad to crying to pissed back to happy all in like a span of 5 minutes, its crazy! So anyways I will blabber on more later right now I am gonna see if I can figure out how you always get your little signature thingys at the bottoms of your post.

[Eleysia]

I hope you are ok with comments... If not I'm sorry. I know how you feel with the snapping and stuff trust me. Im diagnosed manic depressive (bipolar type 2), and was on meds for about 1.5 years. I had to come off of them to TTC sincenthey causse birth defects. When I had my m/c it sent me into the deep end for sure. I started my own journal for the same reason. I kinda felt bad posting topics and ranting and bringing everyone down. I even had to stop reading anything from my last DDC and everyones posts in TTCAL who had gotten their bfp's. I was very angry and hurt. I feel alot better now after having been able to talk to DH, and my family IRL and in JM. I hope this is your month, and that AF doesnt show. Im crossing my fingers for you hun

P.S. go to Siggies R us, it is a forum. just request one from one of the ladies and they will make it for you. they do beautiful work.

[Brittney06]

No i don't mind at all I feel kinda like a stalker around here cuz i am so new and everyone knows everyone else so I enjoy it! I sometimes think i have depression but have never been to the doctor to find out because we are ttc so i know i can't take meds right now I think after we get lucky and have a baby i wll go and find out for sure. I am still waiting on af or not waiting on her I am not quite as moody today which is good but I feel soooooo tired I don't know if i should test again or not cuz i really don't know when my cycle will come since i know most people after a m/c have really long cycles I might give in and test in the morning cuz i don't hinki can hold out much longer. Thanks for the post. Wishing you all lots of baby dust!!!!

[Brittney06]

I think I O'd today even though I have been thinking I needed to start AF with m/c i guess my cycle was just off finally got a definate pos. on my opk the line was darker than the control and i took a pg test just to make sure it wasn't catching something else instead and that was negative so I had to have o'd so we BD and now I am joining the 2ww. STICK BABY STICK.
P.S. my reading from brooke did say this is my month to conceive so lets pray it true!!!!

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

Good luck to you! Hopefully brooke was right!

[Eleysia]

Dude, I dont know how I missed that your brooke reading said this month but I hope she is right!!!! Good luck and KUP!!!

[Brittney06]

Well I think we are finally down to the one week wait since i believe i o'd on the 4th so af should show no latter than the 18th i will pry test on the 16th or so I just really don't know if this is my month. So far no symptoms but I am staying positive since before the m/c i didn't have any symptoms till after my af was due so we are hoping and praying that it comes true this month I want a little one so much! I have always wanted to be a mommy so even though i technically am a mom to an angel i want an angel i can hold also i don't know if that is selfish of me but i want to have a child and i want to give my dh a child. I hate all this waiting and wondering it drives me crazy even though i don't post a lot on the boards i check them about 100 times a day and get so excited for every bfp and am hoping we all get them soon!