
i hope you dont mind me commenting but i just wanted to send you a hug and say i know how you are feeling, i did the exact same thing but like you could find no negatives. one of my boys slept for 1 hour every 24 and even that didnt bother me. i loved being needed.
i had my m/c in feb and although everyday is hard, every af that comes makes me cry and feel it will never happen again but recently i have found these girls amazingly helpful and finally im starting to come to terms with my loss and starting to appreciate what i have (i felt like i was even pushing my own kids away sometimes)
i really hope you get that sticky bfp soon and although it will never replace marina im sure she will be happy to know your life hasnt stopped because you lost her