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Well ladies... I write a journal at home so I might as well have one here too!

I thought I would start off with my story first. DH and I got pg the first time and had a m/c at 13w3d with our son on December 15, 2008. We then had another m/c on May 29, 2009 at 6w2d. We have now been TTC for over a year and it has been one H*ll of a year. At this point with everything I am so frustrated with everything I would love to just scream. DH and I at this point are NTNP... BUT I want a baby desperately. I started seeing a new doctor and so far so good. She sent me for a bunch of testing and I find out all the results at my next appointment September 12th.

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I'm feeling pretty confident that I O'd yesterday. I had such bad Oing pain yesterday afternoon/evening. When I had my appointment about a week and a half ago she said she didn't think I would O because there were no follicles that we large but she said that they only start about a week before so I'm hoping that I'm just Oing late this cycle. Keeping my fingers crossed we DTD the past 2 days and we will be for the next few just in case.

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Well AF finally arrived on Saturday after a 53 day cycle. So now this cycle I am on my Metformin and I am doing Clomid on days 5-9. I'm praying this is it for me ladies. My patience is running thin and I feel like I will never be pregnant again. So here is to hoping that this is it for me.

[<>*NaYoMi_BaBy_Dreamer*<>]

hoping for you a this cycle.

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Thank you!!!

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Hello lovely ladies... I have not been keeping this updated. I've been taking things pretty hard lately. It has been almost a year since I lost my son. And throughout this year I kept thinking each month that AF would not arrive and I would be pregnant again. And each time she has shown and I have become more depressed. I really am starting to believe that I may never get to fulfill my dream of becoming a mother. This morning I woke up and AF arrived. DH and I were both very upset. I told him maybe we should just give up. Maybe we aren't meant to be. I know that is a horrible way to think but at this point I don't think my mood can sink any worse.

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I so know how you feel girl...to the point I could cry right now...........I hope your pain end soons...so that You can have something to smile about...and mean it...Thinking about you too girl...thanks for writing in my journal..it really made my day.

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Aww thank you hun! I know how your feeling too! Hopefully we both find something to make us smile soon! Hugs! If you ever need someone to talk to I'm only a PM away.

[Im.Nayomi]

thanks girl How you been? Ok so I just read the very early part of your journal.......so what did you find out Sept 2009 about your cycles? I looked at your siggy gallary beautiful work...... My latest project is hunting for this book at the library.....before buying it online....I do not know if you read books or not...but I thought I would mention this to you :

Supernatural Childbirth: Jackie Mize: 9780892747566: Christianbook.com

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They diagnosed me with PCOS. I am now on Metformin 2000mg a day and this is the third cycle I'm on Clomid. If Clomid does not work this cycle then I think we are going to NTNP. I read everything I can get my hands on I will have to check that book out. How are you doing? And thank you. My siggy making is what is keeping me sane!

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I hope and pray this clomid works......how many cycles does it take most girls before they get their with clomid? Happy anniversary to your baby on 12/15. It was hard to take my eyes off of your siggy

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It varies... Some women can't get pregnant on Clomid. I know DH and I are at a breaking point with TTC though. We just feel so down about it anymore. Thank you! I made it yesterday when I was having a bad day thinking about it almost being a year.

[Im.Nayomi]

just checking on ya...how are you? didn't I see you over in the NTNP board???