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  #1  
March 14th, 2010, 08:20 PM
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My name is Natalie, 24 and my DH is 26. I've decided to start this journal over here (I usually keep a handwritten one). Ladies on this board have been very supportive and nice! I love it here! As much as I would like to leave without coming back.... I'm back here again.

A little history.
I married the love of my life in hot summer of 2006..It was a rainy day and we were married by a lake. We wanted to have children after we finish our degrees (which we did in 2009). We've been seriously NTNP since November 2008......but i did not get pregnant.

Therefore, we began TTC in July 2009. I used an internet program to calculate my O day and we BD on CD14 and CD15. Then I got into charting BBTs and I must say I enjoyed the process! I loved seeing my graphs and seeing that amazing bi-phasic pattern). Charting helped me realize that I was not Ovulating on CD14...instead it was like day 20! That was probably the reason why we did not conceive while NTNP.

I got pregnant in October 2009 and I was sooo excited! I wanted to run around and sing crazy songs!! I was SO extremely happy! I bought tons of baby stuff! I bought many PG books and i read about everything except m/c. I did not know that m/c were that common! My MIL got sick with swine flu and I am pretty sure i got it too! It might have caused my m/c, who knows.. I had a m/c on December 2....I woke up that morning and realized that my bbs were not sore anymore and all of my symptoms were gone...then i saw blood . We went to the ER but they couldn't do anything about it. I was 7w3d. He/she would have been due in July 2010... My OBGYN said to wait one normal period and try again. Pathology test came back normal and doc said it was due to "bad luck".

I got my BFP three months later. I was happy but i couldn't let myself fully enjoy my pregnancy.. I knew it could happen again. Although I did not expect it that soon! I am having another miscarriage right now. I was only 5weeks this time, due in November 2010..

I want a baby soo much! It's so sad that I'll never get to see my first two babies . well, that is of course if i ever get to see any of my children. I have no idea about what caused my m/c.. My fur babies keep me busy though. I am so thankful for them and for my DH!

I wish I could have a 2010 baby... but i know it's impossible now. which i guess i need to accept.
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March 15th, 2010, 11:05 AM
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I told one of my best friends about my m/c... She said " what were you thinking?? you shouldn't have gotten pregnant again soo soon! that must have caused it!".. well, actually we waited 3 full periods, while my doc told us to wait just one..so I don't think that was the problem. My friends says I should wait at least 6 months before trying for the third time.. she scares me. i know we will nto be trying this month, but I am very hopeful about TTC in April.
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March 15th, 2010, 11:15 AM
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I do not cry that much anymore... but thinking about the fact that even if i ever have children, I will never get to see my first two . Life sucks...
I know that only having another child (and this time the one that would stay with us) could help me be happy again...
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March 15th, 2010, 03:00 PM
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Sorry about all of your pain Here is some baby I love your dog avatar so much!!!
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Nov
nephews Charlie 6, Lorenzo 6
niecesTamara 2, Arielle 8 months Lillian 3 mos

Dec
nephews Charlie 6, Lorenzo 6
nieces Tamara 2, Arielle 9 months, Lillian 4 mos
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Jan Charlie 6 Lorenzo 6 Tamara 2, Arielle 10 months Lillian 5 months.Feb Charlie 6 Lorenzo 6 Tamara2,Arielle 11months Lillian 6 months
March Charlie 6 Lorenzo 6 Tamara 2 Arielle 1 ys old Lillian 7 mos
April Charlie 6 Lorenzo 6 Tamara 3,Arielle 1ys Lillian 8 mos
May Charlie 6 Lorenzo 6 Tamara 3 Arielle 1ys Lillian 9 mos
June my daughter turns 3,Charlie 6 lorenzo 6 Tamara3 Arielle 1 Lillian 10mos
July Charlie 6 lorenzo 6 Tamara 3 Arielle 1 Lillian 11 months
Aug Charlie 6 lorenzo 6 tamara 3 arielle 1ys old Lillian 1
Sept Charlie 7 Lorenzo 7 tamara 3 arielle 1ys Lillian 1ys

to get things like fertilityblend (check!
*We currently take Geritol. Check!
*Conceive Plus by Sasmar Check!
Welcome Womb(check!)
progesterone supplements

ClearBlue Fertility monitor and fertility monitor test strips by ClearBlue.
I am considering to buy that.
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In my TTC#2 Journal
Jan 8,2013 100 posts
feb 6,2014 200 posts
April 26,14 300 postsAug 17,14 400 posts
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March 16th, 2010, 07:04 PM
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Thank you Nayomi! and i def need tons of sticky dust... I cannot survive another m/c .

I keep thinking if we could NTNP this month...Man, today is only CD 6...2 more weeks till O or 30 more till my AF... waiting is hard!!!! ugh.
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March 17th, 2010, 11:52 AM
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March 19th, 2010, 08:32 AM
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I think I've made up my mind. We're going to be NTNP for the next 4 months.... then we're going to TTCAL an April or May baby.... I've always wanted a spring baby and then came to terms to want a baby any month. I waited only 3 months after my first loss and i want to wait longer this time....just to make sure that everything's ok with my body....... I am going to continue charting temperatures so that when we're ready to try again, we'd know the O day .

I had a dream last night that I was pregnant again and bleeding again!! OMG! I do not want that to ever happen again....then there was a glimmer of hope that the third baby would survive and stay with us..
Maybe I should write this journal somewhere else but I love my TTCAL ladies...
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March 23rd, 2010, 09:57 AM
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Your more than welcome to stay here hun! Praying for you. I am also NTNP. In God's timing it will happen.
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March 28th, 2010, 07:57 PM
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Thank you, Shortcake!

something weird is going on with my cycle after m/c... FF's just detected O on CD 15 which is not possible! I've been charting for 6 cycles and i always O on CD 19 or 20.... so i am hoping my body is not too messed up after m/c....

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April 1st, 2010, 06:48 PM
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Hi Natalie.. I hope you don't mind me dropping in here. I am so sorry for all your losses

I have heard that a m/c can change O date..

I hope once you start TTC again that you get a sticky BFP right away!
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April 2nd, 2010, 06:34 AM
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Thank you Judy! drop in here anytime!

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April 2nd, 2010, 06:44 AM
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I thought I've come to terms with adopting a baby and never giving birth to my own child. My DH said he'd love an adopted baby very much. So I kinda stopped being sad of never having babies once I realized that we could adopt a young child. well, last night's dream changed it all!

I was pregnant in that dream... and very far along.. I felt the baby's feet kicking me and that was such an unforgettable feeling.. Then I gave birth and it was a girl. OMG. I wish I could really have a baby . I'm 24 and after these losses I feel like I'll never be able to have H&H 9 months...

Oh, I tested again today! BFN. I do not know why i keep testing?? It's just I still feel pregnant and my bbs still hurt.

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April 6th, 2010, 08:00 AM
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Today is CD 27.. i cannot wait for AF to show!! I am still not sure if we're going to TTC next cycle, probably just NTNP. I am going to try to wait 3 months but it's going to be hard.. i want a baby sooo much!!!

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April 7th, 2010, 05:45 PM
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AF is here!! yay!! a little too early but i am not complaining!

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April 11th, 2010, 06:53 AM
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CD 4 today... I am not sure if my health is up to par to get PG again.. my bb just stopped hurting yesterday.. if my ovaries do not hurt anymore, we could probably ttc this month...

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April 17th, 2010, 08:02 AM
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CD 10. crazy me..I ordered more HPTs...lol

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April 17th, 2010, 02:01 PM
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Good for you I hope they show BFPs!!

Have you decided whether you will go to Europe to see the dr?
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April 17th, 2010, 03:25 PM
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Judy, thank you! I hope so!!! I hope you get your BFP soon too!!!

I decided that if I I feel ok, I am going to fly there this August... I hope to be PG by then so that i could stay for the rest of PG and have a baby born there. If i am not PG by August, I'm gonna have tons of testing done to determine the reason!

I do not know what happened to my flat stomach... . it never came back to normal after my 1st m/c... hmmm... I gotta workout some!
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April 18th, 2010, 09:00 AM
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Today is CD11 of my first cycle after the second m/c... I need to get pregnant this cycle..I know there's a huge chance I won't because after my first m/c it took me 3 months to get PG again...

I am going crazzzy without a baby. This is like a huge baby fever.. i wanted kids since i was 18 or so...but I got this terrible baby fever 2 years ago and it's getting worse with every day! I love going to the zoos and parks but i do not feel like going there anymore without a baby. I think my toy dog is tired of my love and all that hugging i give him. My chickens are tired of me too! They love eating of my hand but they do not enjoy me holding them that much. I love the way my puppy tries to play with my chickens. lol.

My MIL is getting an outside kitten. Her friend's cat gave birth to 5 kittens and she agreed to take one of them. But she doesn't want to buy a litter box or cat food. I am not a cat person but i do care about animal's treatment...MIL wants that kitten to live outside but she doesn't think it's necessary to put a fence around her yard! I said that it's dangerous and irresponsible. She told me if that cat gets hit by a car, it's just life, you cannot save everyone! I guess she was hinting on my vegetarian beliefs.. Excuse me? I do not think that irresponsible people should have any pets at all!

What does this "animal talk" has to do with a TTC journal? Well, my pets have helped me a lot to get through my losses. I think I'd be totally depressed right now if it wasn't for my toy poodle and three pet chickens. I need to take care of somebody and I enjoy taking care of them. I think my losses made me "greener". My cycles are long and i gotta do something i love while waiting to TTC. I am still studying for my final license exam..that is kinda interesting but not when my mind keeps coming back to my obsession with babies...

My BBT were looking nice until today. This morning I had a huge temp jump...way too early for O and it may mess up my O day recognition... well, i am not gonna worry about that since i plan on using those 5 OPKs that I got... I've never used OPKs before so this is something new to try. I love POAS!
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April 18th, 2010, 08:36 PM
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I hope you are pregnant by then!! I'm sure you will be (knock on wood)!!

I know how it feels to want a baby!! Today I was at a party at a banquet hall and there were soooo many kids!

It's so cute you have pet chickens! They are not into cuddling though are they

I'm sorry your MIL is so thoughless when it comes to animals.. that makes me angry too!

I hope you get a pos OPK soon - I got mine today, the first time since my m/c!!
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