I am hopeful this time everything is aligned for me... I am pregnant again! This is pregnancy # 14 for me & I have 2 living children... I am praying every second that I get to hold this LO in November. After losing Daniel at 19 weeks 2 days, I went through a I am just going to get pregnant phase - I think I was doing it to make up for losing him, luckily I didn't get pregnant because it would have been to make up for losing Daniel, not to be happy being pregnant. I then started dating a man, and for some time we were just using the withdrawal method, but because of some needs of mine that weren't being met (won't get into that here

) we decided that I would go on BC. I was on it for about 5 months... I missed a dose and here I am pregnant again. I am currently 9 weeks and 2 days and live every day in fear that something will go wrong. The reason I lost Daniel was because of IC (incompetent cervix) so I will be having a cerclage placed preventitavely on May 21st - the procedure itself freaks me out, but I will not risk losing this LO the same way as Daniel. I have been declared high risk and have a busy journey ahead, and even though it wasn't planned, I am ecstatic!