I can somewhat relate, we've been TTC for almost a year now. We thought it would be just as easy to get pregnant with #2 (Connor only took a couple of months). If we get pregnant soon, they would be just over 3 years apart. We also though we would be popping them out one after the other lol, and never thought they would be this far apart in age. I'm also 32 and hear my clock ticking, I wanted to be done having children by 35, but also considered have 3 children. Depending on how much longer it takes to have #2, there may not be a #3!
I'm so sorry for your loss! Here's hoping we both get our BFP's soon!!