Hi ladies...update on me

Jsalcedo · #1 February 1st, 2012, 03:24 PM

Heyyy I know it's been a while but I have beeb going through some changes lately...

I am no longer TTC...I have decided for a couple of weeks now that whatever happens happens. I am tired of forcing myself when I know I am not the problem. DH doesnt know though (he still thinks we're TTC) but is a personal choice that I will need to talk to him about eventually.

Right now in my mind we are NTNP.

Also, I started Weight Watchers and school also started. Id rather just have a child when I finish after December but if it happens then I'll be happy also. I love DH with all my heart but lately I've been loving the free time I get. Pretty selfish of me I know and I dont know if is because I am 23 but I feel like Fergie with her song "Big Girls Don't Cry".

Well, I still lurk at your posts and if I feel any symptoms I will post but I am done obsessing about something that I feel that if God hasn't given a child to me then he is doing it for a good reason. Hey, maybe DH is not the man I should have children with you know.

Thanks for reading and see you girls around.

Diamond2009 · #2 February 1st, 2012, 03:44 PM

I"m glad you popped in and i completely understand what you are saying. After this cycle i'm going to NTNP either and put it in the hands of God. He has a reason for everything. Hope everything works out for you and good luck with school. POp in now and then and give us a update.

Jsalcedo · #3 February 1st, 2012, 05:53 PM

Oh thank you dear....is just so hard to see bfn after bfn. Is like we try so hard for nothing. Eventually I will start TTC again but I told myself not until we can pay for a full IVF session. You too...pop in once in a while.

aarafko · #4 February 1st, 2012, 07:27 PM

Don't completely give up! It took me 6 years to conceive this miracle baby. I know that there were many times I wanted to give up. I had to over come what seemed like endless obstacles. Though I don't completely know your situation, I can understand your frustration. Keep your head up, that little miracle will come when you least expect it! That's how it happened to me. Good Luck! I wish you only the best!