Feeling rather down today- Vent

-Brandy- · #1 February 3rd, 2012, 11:26 AM

And I am sure it is just AF talking but I just relaly feel like this is never going to happen. I feel like I am open to trying whatever it takes to get pregnant but feeling kind of alone on that. Please do not take this as dh not wanting kids, he absolutely does, but I feel like this process is finally taking its toll on me. I feel like all I think about anymore is how I am not pregnant or about getting pregnant. I have never wanted something so badly and find myself so frustrated that while I am taking prenatals and metformin, dh gets away with doing nothing. Must be nice to only have to worry about dropping the little swimmies off.

He is willing to do the SA if I don't get pregnant this month, and I know that is a step in the right direction and I am sure this is bothering him just as much because I can tell a difference in him and in our reactions when someone else announces a pregnancy. I hate what this is doing to us (our relationship is fine) as people. I do not want to be a bitter, negative person. I have so much to be thankful for, I just can't seem to get this out of my head though. I try really hard to be positive, but right now I just feel like I am "faking it till I make it".

BabyX · #2 February 3rd, 2012, 11:35 AM

I'm sorry that you are having an off day. I'm sure it is AF's fault.

Just keep thinking eight is great!

I totally get the feelings you have about you being the one doing all the work and DH just kind of gets to go along for the ride. Just remember you have us, so you're really not alone.

Kissthegirl · #3 February 3rd, 2012, 12:00 PM

I'm sorry you're having a down day, CB. I hope it gets better by the minute! Just think, your cycle is starting to get back to normal again, and what GREAT chances you have now that you haven't had in the past cycles due to no meds then. It's GOING TO HAPPEN hun!!!! Keep your spirits up & believe that! November DDC is calling your name! I just know it!

Butterbear · #4 February 4th, 2012, 07:29 AM

I'm sorry- I know how you feel

. I'm sure you are right and it is just AF talking- she does that to me too.

. I hope your day gets better.

shannaj · #5 February 4th, 2012, 07:37 AM

Regardless of whether AF is making you feel this way or not...it is a crappy feeling that many of us know all too well. It really is not fair that on average we put in far more effort TTC.

I pray you get your beautiful BFP soon. You do have all of the women on here, you really aren't alone. Wish I could give you a hug in real life...or b-tch with you over a few glasses of wine!!!

bryan and nina · #6 February 4th, 2012, 08:08 AM

Just wanted to give you hugs Brandy!! I want you to be pineapple buddies with Michelle, since I "flaked out" on her.

Eat fresh pineapple (like from a whole pineapple that you cut up), with the core, from Ovulation to 5-6dpo. I've heard so many success stories; it's something about the enzyme in it. I ate 1/2 of one at 5dpo and it may not have contributed but it looks like I implanted at 7dpo, so who knows?!

s!!

SLP83 · #7 February 4th, 2012, 08:21 AM

Oh, Brandy, I'm sorry you were feeling this way yesterday. I hope today is better for you, though with this disgusting gray wet day we are having I bet it is tough for anyone's mood to pick up

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I always feel the same way in the first few days of AF, it is such a punch to the stomach when you realize that you have to go through another whole cycle. You just have to keep faith that this WILL happen for you!

-Brandy- · #8 February 4th, 2012, 04:15 PM

Thank you so much girls it means so much to have uou to vent to. I will hunt down the pineapple and eat it with Michelle, we will be pineapple cb's.

Wish i could say today was better but Grace, my boxer, woke dh and I up this morning because she was having a seizure. It was the scariest thing I have ever witnessed in my life. I love that furball so much and all i could do was hold her and cry. It lasted about 3 minutes and rhen she was dazed for about 5 before she jumped up and acted like nothing was wrong. We took her to the vet and they did bloodwork, all was fine. So they are labeling it as epileptic which apparently they call it that anytime they can't find a reason. So now we just have to wait to see how often it happenes. If it starts happening more than once a mpnth they will Medicate her which can cause liver problems. Fingers crossed it wont happen again!

sleepinangel · #9 February 4th, 2012, 05:19 PM

Oh, I'm sorry to hear about your furbaby. I'm glad she's feeling better now and hopefully it's just a one time thing and no medication needed.

Kissthegirl · #10 February 4th, 2012, 05:46 PM

I'm so sorry for your rough day, lady. Hope you little fur ball is feeling better!!! Great news that the vet didn't really find anything too alarming!

shannaj · #11 February 4th, 2012, 07:51 PM

Sorry to hear you had a crappy day...and so sorry to hear of your scare! I hope it was just one of those things that never happens again.

swtneka · #12 February 4th, 2012, 08:57 PM

bryan and nina · #13 February 5th, 2012, 03:26 AM

Oh no!!!

So sorry about Gracie.

I cannot imagine how scary that must have been to witness. I have heard boxers are prone to getting seizures... I've heard of several people whose boxers got them.

My mil had a lab that got frequent seizures later in life but she lived to be 16 and it was her hips that finally forced them to put her to rest.

So it's very possible for them to live a full and long life, even with epilepsy.

SLP83 · #14 February 5th, 2012, 09:08 AM

That must have been so scary! I know medicine can help control seizures well if it really becomes a problem, but I would still be scared, too!

BTW I love your furbabies, they are beyond adorable

lunar scallion · #15 February 5th, 2012, 09:24 AM

Poor girl! I just love her expression in your siggy. Those eyes look full of personality! I'm sending positive thoughts for her!

KristyR · #16 February 5th, 2012, 09:31 AM

Sorry about Furbaby

And I know how you feel about "faking it until you make it" When we have friends that are having babies I just smile and pretend it doesn't hurt but it so does. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. And you will get preg!! :babydust:

-Brandy- · #17 February 5th, 2012, 08:41 PM

Thank you so much girls. She seems to be ok today, just really exhausted this evening. She had a big day though and ran around a lot and then people came over for the game so she was up more than she would be if dh and I were the only ones here. I woke up several times last night to check on her, guess I am just still worried about her.

Hopefully she will get rested up and we won't have this happen again. She has such a big personality and I just don't know what I would do without her!

Kissthegirl · #18 February 6th, 2012, 08:22 AM

Hope today is a better day for you, CB.

BabyX · #19 February 6th, 2012, 08:33 AM

I'm sorry to hear about you poor little furbaby. I hope she's feeling better now.

-Brandy- · #20 February 6th, 2012, 08:39 AM

She seems to be back to herself, sleeping right now but that is normal during the day for her. I am hoping since our house is back to normal, during the work week its just me and the furbabies during the day, she can rest up and we won't have this happen again.