[Diamond2009]

Wow....alot has changed here since I left.....alot of new faces and a few vets are left, which makes me sad Lots of baby to my ladies It's time you ladies move into a DDC.

For those who do not know me. My name is Kim (32) Mom to Juvon 14, Lyric 10 and Janiyah turning 3 in September. I was on this board from Sept 2011 after coming off the pill until March 2012 when i got my BFP. I moved on to the Dec DDC. I had a normal pregnancy....no cramps, no bleeding, nothing. No probloems what so ever. On July 2nd at 18 weeks i woke up and had a lil leakage....i wasnt sure if it was amniotic fluid or i couldnt control my bladder....it continued little by little through out the day. I told my hubby that i think i should go to the hospital but then when i thought about it i was like i dont want to wait in ER for 6 hours for it to be nothing (mind you i have had 3 pregnancies and never has my water broke,,,all my kids were overdue and water had to be broken by the doctor) so i wasnt sure if thats what it was. I spent the day with the family that day and felt better by the end of the day. When i woke up July 3rd i felt fine...i did some grocery shopping and when i came home i had some spotting so i went to ER (not the hospital i was to deliver at). After a 6 hour wait they seen me and said the U/S tech had gone home for the day. They did the bedside U/S (the one on the cart which is not that great) The doctor said i dont see much amniotic fluid and would like you to come back tomorrow morning for U/S. I cried and asked why i couldnt go to L&D. He said they do not send pregnanct women up there until after 22 weeks or something like that. So i went home....The next morning July 4 i went to the same hospital for a U/S the tech did not tell me anything. She said i would have to go wait in ER for the results....i said forget that i'm not waiting 6 hours again and i called my OB's office crying....The secretary answered and said my OB was on vacation and that she wanted me to come in immediately to L&D at my hospital i was to deliver at. I got there around 3pm they sent me to triage went over the U/S from the other hospital which showed i had 1 pocket of amniotic fluid. They sent me for another U/S and it then showed NO FLUID. I was devasted. They told me that the baby could not develop with no fluid and the chances of my reaccumulating my fluid was unlikely. I told them i needed to go home and think. Before i left they said if i get a fever i need to come back immediately since that is a sign of infection. We went in the next morning July 5th to have another ultrasound done praying that i had some amniotic fluid returning but i was heartbroken when they told me the same diagnosis. We decided to be induced ( the hardest decision i made in my entie life) I was in labor for 4 hours and delivered my baby girl Lauren weighing 0.5 lbs 20 cm long at 8:08 pm. She was beautiful and now in the hands of God. I miss her everyday and wish things had been different

I`m meeting my OB tomorrow as i have so many questions for her...why did this happen to me.?? What are the chances of it happening again?? (i could not go through that again) When is it healthy to TTC again?

I pray my body and heart recover quickly and i get my rainbow baby !!!!

[ThaiSpice]

I'm so sorry for your loss!

I am pretty new around here, so I didn't know you, but I did read some of your updates, because someone posted the links/updates here. I was completely heartbroken for you! I hope that you will be holding your rainbow baby in your arms very soon!

[lunaverde]

I remember you, Kim. I am so heartbroken for you right now. I'll be praying for you and your family.

I hope you find answers from your OB and that you'll be able to TTC again without worries. I hope you get your rainbow baby very quickly! Love and blessings to you and your family.

[seri0uslyc0nfused]

I hate seeing old faces I am so sorry again, and I hope your mind, body and soul gets back to normal quickly.

[miraclebaby2011]

Hey Kim. I commented on our post in the ddc. I AM TRULEY SORRY for your lost. Nobody wants to bury thier kids.I just wanted to let you know that I am a lending ear for you to talk or a shoulder for you to lean on. I want you to be gentle with yourself because this is a rollercoaster. It has been almost a year for me and I still riding this rollercoaster. Love,hugs, and rainbows to you....
I can also recommend some websites for grieving motheers who have lost a child no matter what age.. Let me know if you want that.

[captivate]

I hope you find good answers tomorrow and you can TTC soon.


I hope the funeral for your little sleeper was as beautiful as she. xxx

[BabyX]

Oh no Kim! I am so very very sorry. I just can't begin to imagine the pain that you must be going through right now. I hope that you are able to get some good answers and support from your OB.

[muffin]

(((HUGS)))

I'm so sorry again for everything that you've had to go through. It's just not fair!

I am glad however that you're not beaten down by it. I hope you have the strength to go through this crazy TTC stuff all over again!

[MAS1313]

I am so sorry Kim, I kept up with all your updates and am completely heartbroken for you. I hope your on can give you some answers.

BIG HUGS

[RoxanneMI]

I am so very sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts. I hope the doc can give you some answers and have you on your way ttc that sticky little bean.

[Caerus]

I'm so sorry, Kim.

[livinglife06]

I've been following your story.. I'm so sorry Kim! So many thoughts and prayers are being sent your way!

[ninja_mommy]

I've said it before, but your loss just breaks my heart I pray you can have a healthy, uneventful pregnancy soon

[LPNMOMMY84]

Good lord. Im so so so sorry, I mean WTH!????? Why does this crap happen? Im so sorry this happened. Im newer here so I don't know you but your in my thoughts and prayers.

[CyndiBear]

Kim I remember you leaving us and being SO over the moon for you....I hope and pray you get the answers you need and I hope that you can jump on the TTC train soon....I'm sure you will get your baby and that this happened for a reason, even though it feels horrible and heartbreaking. We love you!

[WorkerBeeMama]

I'm truly sorry for your loss. I had a miscarriage in between my two daughters and it was devastating. I hope your doctor gives you some answers. Big hugs.

[mrsb1029]

I am so sorry for your loss! I couldn't imagine how painful it was. You are in my thoughts.

[momto3brazils]

I had seen a post for prayers for you and had followed your updates and was heartbroken when I heard you had to deliver your little daughter. My heart goes out to you and I hope your OB tells you its something that should not happen again. I hope you can get the clear to try for your rainbow baby as soon as you feel ready to. God Bless.

[*Momma2Nix*]

I've been wondering how you were doing, Kim. Again, I'm so so sorry that this happened to you. It is so heartbreaking. I pray you find peace emotionally and physically very soon and that your doc can give you some answers

[jl046100]

I remember u from the ttc board I'm so sorry u lost ur precious daughter hopefully u get ur rainbow baby very soon x