[babydreams0809]

I tested this morning, because I have had some symptoms of pg, nausea, tender breasts, exhausted a lot, ect. I just knew that this month would be different then the ones past, but when I tested this morning, I got a BFN. My heart is so hurt right now, this is our one year mark of TTC. I am so frustrated!! Why is this so hard? Why are there teenage girls, and women out there who get pregnant all the time because of one little "oops" moment? I am getting emotionally worn out and drained from all of the negatives that I have seen over the past year. DH wants to start a family as desperately as I do, we are both just ready to have children. I have yet to see my doctor about not being able to conceive, but I am terrified of what she might say.

My whole life, all I have ever wanted to do is to be a mom. When I thought about school, I could never see myself getting beyond a certain point in college. When I think about work, I never see myself in a real "career", I have only ever seen myself in the same position as my own mother. Raising a mess of kids, and working a little from home to supplement the income.

Now, I am starting to lose hope. I don't think that my heart can take another month of waiting. As I was sitting here typing this, I happened to look up at the shelf above the computer. On the shelf, we have a plaque that reads: "Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to an all-knowing God." That was said by Corrie Ten Boom, a Holocaust survivor. If she made it through that hell, then maybe I can make it through another month.

[lunaverde]

I know how you feel and I'll be praying for you. Sometimes, TTC sucks.

GL and FX for you! Hopefully next cycle you'll have the most amazing news to share with everyone!

[dlammers]

I have been bummed out about TTC lately too. I keep asking myself how come I got pregnant TWICE without trying or even being ready for it. And now, when I am emotionally and financially ready...I can not get pg. I hope that you get your bfp soon. I have heard of a lot of women that get pg that first month they decide they are going to quit trying...maybe you should try to focus on something else and your bfp will suprise you!

[MAS1313]

Hugs

[captivate]

Oh hunni I am so sad right now for you. xxx Dont give up hope. Give up TTC for a little while but dont give up the hope. x

[WorkerBeeMama]

My best friend got pregnant the first month she tried, then lost the baby at about 6-8 weeks. It then took her and her husband 1.5 years of TTC without and then with help and she still was not pregnant. She put it on hold for a month and without any help or even trying really she got pregnant that month. I felt so bad for her but she never gave up hope and kept trying and she has an adorable little son now.

I am one of those oops women - two oops pregnancies and the one time I did TTC it took me 4 months and then I had a miscarriage. What I am trying to say is that you never know what will happen and to not lose hope. Go see your Dr. I know at least three women that had a hard time TTC and all they needed was clomid to help them along, so it may be something as simple as that.

Keep your hopes up - I believe it will happen - sometimes it just takes longer than others and sometimes it takes a lot longer than others. I have had female repo surgery in the last three years and so my obgyn wants me to try for 4 months before coming in for help if I do not get pregnant. Most drs are 1 year, so you should make an appt now. I HTH. Big hugs!