I'm not really TTC yet because we wanted to wait until October to start. We BD'd on the day of O, but that was because I thought I was 2 days past O until my temps showed I O'd on CD 18 not 16. But of course now that there IS possibility I'm preg, it's in my head. If I O'd on CD18, then I'm only 5dpo, so I couldn't REALLY be having preg symptoms.
Yet here I am, analyzing everything. Sore breasts, yeah, but NOT sore like when I was pregnant last month. Nausea, but this is more after I eat and maybe it's nerves. The real trouble comes from actually taking pregnancy tests even though it's near impossible get a positive test 5dpo. And yet I've taken several tests since I MCd and all were SUPER negative, even when I had me "I want to see a line" eyes on. Then when today I thought I saw a line (you know, the kind that probably isn't really there) I compared it to my old test that was super negative, and yeah, I'm definitely imagining a line on one but not the other.
Why do I do this to myself? Why am I obsessed when we were trying to AVOID pregnancy until October?
It also has me wondering about those super sensitive tests. Do they maybe just always show a very very very very faint positive starting a certain number of days past ovulation? I've taken at least 10 of these tests before ovulation and even at 4dpo and they weren't even a smidgen positive. Is there another hormone that can cause a slight positive?
Of course, could just be a dud test, but this was why I took like 10 of them when I knew I wasn't pregnant. I wanted to see if I would get dud positives, and I didn't. It has me wondering what else causes this, unless it really just is my eyes playing tricks on me.
PICS
One of these is an old one I took to make sure these tests weren't giving me false pos. good news is it stayed "clear" each of the 10 times I tested this (no evaps). The other pic is from this morning. I won't say which is which.
It's important to note that I had to lower the shadows because my camera "washed out" the test.
IDK why I obsess with things like this. In 4 or 5 days, I'll know. It's too early to get a positive at 5dpo, so even if there really is a line on one of these tests, it's just a fluke. It does make me wonder if these tests pick up on something other than HCG though or if we all make small amounts of HCG, even if we aren't pregnant, shortly before AF comes.
