Sorry you have this kind of stress when it should be such a happy moment for you
I was a full time working mother when I had my DS and DD and have remained a working mother up until now. That is just the way things are for some of us, it doesn't make us less of a mother because we work. Some but not all ladies are fortunate enough to be stay at home moms. Respect to both, it's not easy either way we do it.