[WingWoman]

Sorry for the lengthy post. It's almost midnight, and I have nothing but time with my airman away on training and nothing but time until I can test.

Sooo...feeling kinda crazy. Haven't been this obsessed with being pregnant or not in...ever. And I have birthed 5 kids, lol. About a week ago I just got this gut feeling that I would get pregnant this month. DH and I use NFP, though we are admittedly sloppy because we are sorta ok with getting pregnant. But we don't "misbehave" on EWCM days cause that would be like TRYING to get preggers. We want a baby together, but the timing would be better in 6 months or a year.

Since I got this "gut" feeling, I knew I should be very careful if we didn't want to get pregnant yet. I track my CM, and I always have VERY clear signs of impending fertility, and 2-3 days of very obvious EWCM, with one day being an obvious peak. I've successfully been using this as birth control for almost 4 years (since my youngest was born).

This month has been WHACK.

I have 28-33 day cycles. I've learned to stop freaking out when I'm "late", cuz I can tell when I have a long cycle by how late I ovulate.

LMP April 21
CD11 (Tues May 1) - I started seeing a bit of EWCM. A bit early for me. Warned hubby, so he WD that night.
CD12 (Wed May 2) - Dry as a bone. Thinking maybe the CM yesterday was actually semen- though I don't typically make that mistake. Hmmm. Ok. Hubby doesn't WD that night. Not really worried because I often O late, and I'm used to obvious EWCM.
CD13 (Thurs May 3) - Seeing some CM, but not stretchy at all. Hubby doesn't WD that night.
CD14 (Fri May 4) - We DTD at 3 in the morning, when he comes home from a midnight showing of the Avengers, lol. BEST. LOVEMAKING. EVER. It was amazing and beautiful. Not thinking AT ALL about BC or CM or O or whatever. Just how much I love that man and how freaking awesome he is. Later that day, I start to see the beginnings of EWCM. Oh....SNAP.
CD15 (Sat May 5) - (This is the day I would normally expect to ovulate, unless I was having a long cycle.) I start to bug out about DTD early Friday morning. But I don't see hardly any CM...? Weird. I can't stand the suspense- I want to know if I am ovulating, so I go buy a $store OPK. DARK pink test line. Crap.
CD16 (Sun May 6) - Nauseous as crap. I "feel" pregnant. I know it could be psycho-symatic or whatever, but I feel the same way I did with DS1. I knew 2 days later that I was pregnant with that child. And I was sick as a dog for months. CM is like whitish lotion.

So now I'm just waiting. We have a LOT of sex, so it's not like it would be a shocker. I am so thrown off because for YEARS I have been doing this, and I haven't had a month where I had NO FREAKING CLUE what was up with my CM. If I got a POS OPK on Saturday, and we DTD early Friday morning, maybe I'm not actually ovulating for 24-48 hours after the POS test, and so I don't have to worry so much. But I only took the one test, and I have never used them before, so I have no idea of my pattern. I could test POS for a couple of days because I have very strong hormones. DH left Friday for training, so no chance to DTD this weekend, lol. Which decreases the chance of me getting pregnant this month.

I go back and forth between thinking I must be nuts, no way I'm preggo, to thinking I DEFINITELY am. I kinda think God is messing with me, lol. The most fertile mucus I saw was actually on Tuesday- but that MUST have been an error because it was way too early, and POS OPK was Saturday.

I wish I could fast forward the clock. I figure I'll start testing on CD24 (May 14), since I have no freaking idea when I really ovulated.

Sorry for the book. But I got it all out now, so maybe I can sleep!

PS- At first I was really freaking out. But now, honestly, I'm kinda hoping I am. But I'm afraid to want it too much for fear of disappointment if I'm not. So I'm just stuck in limbo. At least I only have a few months to wait before we TTC if I'm not already.

[WingWoman]

78 people reading about my cycle and sex life and no one wants to comment? haha

I know I'm a newbie, but show me some love!

[MrsMommy]

Hey!!! Welcome!! I'm new here too! I hope you get the answer your looking for! My cycle has been completely loony this month too! Heck I was having ovulation symptoms 3 days after my period ended and now my body is acting like its in its luteal phase even though it hasn't even been a week! So I completely feel your. pain on complete confusion!! Please keep us up to date on how everything goes!!!!

[lazoca]

I have only been on here for about 2 weeks now and I love that you WingWoman are willing to share.

My DH and I have decided to sort of NTNP and this is our first month. I had been on BC so long that I was really lucky if I just spotted as AF really almost just stopped coming to see me (I have to say I was not unhappy about this). So when I stopped my birth control I and really did not have AF to have an actual start day for my cycle it has made it hard to tell based on the Ovulation Calendar when I would ovulate so I tried to watch my CM.

I am really wanting to test but don't want to test to early and get discouraged when I still could be. I have noticed some things that are different in the last few days that make me think I might get a BFP but also think it is all psychological and in my head and AF will show up anytime now.

I am not good at this waiting part of things. I am very excited and scared at the idea and like you 6 months from now might be better but my DH and I have put off having kids for 7 1/2 years (we have been married almost 8) because we wanted our educations done, careers to be off to good starts, and just not ready.

Now I am 31 almost 32 and we have decided that we are not going to put things on hold (like starting our family) any longer. I too really want a baby so much that I am afraid of being completely devastated if I get a BFN.

Keep us posted!

[WingWoman]

I'm finally starting to chill out a bit. Hubby got home tonight. He is a nice distraction from the wait.

I am feeling so sick that I am in bed and he is taking care of me. I was *this* close to throwing up, and had horrible migraine. The nausea and headache are slowly subsiding after taking some motrin and nibbling some chicken. Almost fell down the stairs going to bed I felt so dizzy.

I don't know what the heck is up- but this is a little over the top for preggo symptoms, so that actually makes me less freaked out about being nauseous.

And looking back at my previous months' charts, there have been other times where we cut it that close to O. I think I'm not as fertile as I used to be. 10 years ago I would get knocked up walking by a man on the right day, lol.

We shall see...

[ninja_mommy]

Maybe your CM was dried up if you were dehydrated? Or sometimes I know mine just falls in the toilet right away, not making it very noticeable.
I hope you get the outcome you are looking for!

[sunshine1994]

My cycle has been so kooky. I am about a week late and I could have sworn I was pregnant. I even had spotting two weeks after my period began.

I have taken 4 pregnancy tests and they have all been negatives!! I am so stressed out with school and with my pregnancy scare that I assume that I just completely skipped my period this month

keep us up to date!

[strvnwritr]

I've been behind on reading posts so I'm just now reading your story. And wow, it definitely sounds like this could be your month! Especially with the relaxed love-making you described...I conceived both my children under similar circumstances. So with that and the timing, it absolutely sounds possible. Good luck and please keep us posted!

[anniemal]

I also have been behind on reading.....end of school and baseball are to blame LOL

But, with reading your story, good luck to you! And I hope that you get the answer that you are hoping for!