[MrsMamaS]

Day 1 of my Quest for Better Eating Habits

Weight: 189.4 Height: 5' 7"

I will weigh myself NO MORE than once per week. I just want to keep my weight in check. My goal is not to gain or lose, but to maintain. Weight loss at any rate LESS THAN 2 lbs per week is acceptable (though not likely at my goal of 1800 calories per day).

Breakfast
1 cup Kashi Go Lean cereal
1 cup 1% milk
1 cup orange juice with calcium
1 diet mt dew
32 oz water

How I was feeling: somewhat hungry, not emotional, posting on JM while eating, eating because I know I should eat a healthy breakfast

I will record all food and any drinks containing calories and/or caffeine. Caffeine free, diet drinks will not be recorded (I drink a lot of caffeine free diet soda and Crystal Light). Water will be recorded to make sure I'm hitting a minumum of 64 ounces per day.

At the end of the day, I will record my calorie count for the day. Hopefully, I would like to not have to count calories, but for now, I will have to do so to ensure that I don't overeat. I'm shooting for 1800 calories per day.

I would normally go home every day for lunch, but today, my MIL e-mailed me at work to tell me that she had bought me some summer clothes. My MIL and FIL own a restaurant halfway between where I work and where I live, so I met her there for lunch.

Lunch
Chef salad (lettuce, carrots, cabbage, turkey, ham, mozzarella, hard boiled eggs, fat free raspberry viniagrette)
16 oz diet iced tea
32 oz water

How I was feeling: very hungry (my stomach started growling between 10:30-11:00), not emotional, socializing with MIL, unable to finish the complete salad

I also decided sometime this morning that I don't think I'm going to count calories. I think calorie counting will feed my obsessive behavior. I'll just stick to weighing myself weekly, and if I gain, I'll eat less. If I lose too much, I'll eat more.

Snack
Sourdough pretzels - maybe three whole pretzels

How I was feeling: very hungry, not emotional, waiting for DH to get home and playing a computer game, probably could (should) have stopped without eating three whole pretzels

Well, I was going to make dinner tonight, but DH is working really late. I also need to run out and get some FRER tests since tomorrow is 10 DPO and I can test, so we decided we'd have dinner out tonight. Not sure where we're going but will post all the details when we get back.

[MrsMamaS]

I guess I should have copied this here first. I know the TTC journals is an odd place for a food journal, but I definitely think my eating habits are affecting my fertility. Please read and you will understand

So, I've been on here posting for almost a month now and have been asking and wondering why my cycles are messed up.

I think I know why. I just didn't want to admit it. But, at this point in my life, a baby is more important than anything else, so here goes.

I am a severely disordered eater. I do not have anorexia. I do not have bulimia. (OBVIOUSLY - I'm not thin!)

I am a yo-yo dieter, and I have two approaches to food, and only those two approaches:

1) I starve myself to lose weight - we're talking 800-900 calories per day and an hour or more of hardcore cardio a day

2) I eat with no restraint - what I want, when I want, as much as I want.

I have never been able to lose and keep off any amount of weight. I kill myself to lose it and then my addictive binge eating habits come back and I gain it all back.

I lost 15 lbs in the month of January this year. I managed to get another 10n off in February and March. Then, I had my unplanned pg scare. Of course I can't be starving myself if I'm pg! It gave me an excuse. I have probably gained 30 lbs since then. We're talking 30 lbs of weight gain in two months.

I have a problem. I know I have a problem. I'm willing to accept it and do ANYTHING to overcome this.

I also have a heart condition and hypoglycemia - honestly, probably body responses to the hardcore weight loss and weight gain.

I don't know how to eat like a normal person. I either count every last calorie, from my 5 calorie Crystal Light to every stick of gum or I eat and eat and eat.

I want to change but I don't know how to. The only thing I know to do is to count calories...but every time I do, I start shaving calories. I'm addicted to seeing the number on the scale drop. Just as addicted as I am to food.

Any suggestions, input, or ideas accepted, because I just don't know where to go from here.

[Babymakingprincess]

Hi I stumbled across your post by accident!
But I had issues with crash diets & binge eating...emotional eating and for the past few eyars have followed this to my EXTREME pelasure it worked & I still eat this way (when I'm not pg HA! cause of cravings!)
One tip- please cut out all drinks tha aren't water... you don't want to drink all those other thigns when you're pg anyway so nows a good time to work on getting rid of those habits!! All of those drinks are filled with all kinds of chemicals....
http://www.eatcleandiet.com/

You can EAT on this type of plan, which is why it worked for me. No calories to count, just eat a carb (veggies, fruit & whole grains= carb) and a protein at every meal. Eat every 2-3 hours a total of 5-6 times a day!
Good luck!!