[Lyz]

I'm assuming you are testing tomorrow? Fingers crossed!!!!!!!!

[KatieKat]

Nikki - I hope hope hope hope you get a surprise tomorrow morning.

Fingers and toes crossed that it's not evil AF and the spotting stops. You're in my thoughts!!

[Coley]

When I saw the "bleeding" this morning, I never did my progesterone for the day. Since they're not telling me to stop yet, I did today's and the applicator had only brown bits on it... no red.

I'll have Danny take me to get a box of tests when he gets home. I may do one tonight and another in the morning just to be sure.

[JewJewB]

I'm praying hard for you, Nikki!

[Belita]

I'll hope you're wrong since I had spotting early on, too, but I know you know your body so well at this point.

[JennyLee]

Holding out hope for you!

[denalibear]

Oh Nikki I've still got everything crossable crossed

[wastcougr]

I'm still holding out hope, as well, Nikki! I'm waiting on eggshells over here!

[hoping and waiting]

Everything crossed for you sweet lady! Can't wait!!

[fromustobaby]

[Crystallee]

SO many prayers for you.

[Tracy87]

good luck today! Thinking about you

[hoping and waiting]

So sorry about the BFN.

[Coley]

CD 37 - 14 DPIUI of Cycle #40...

I, obviously, wound up NOT testing last night. I was really thirsty and kept having a hard time holding my pee. So I said Screw It. I figured better to wait and use FMU that way there wouldn't be any question.

Woke up this morning, temped for some stupid reason (not like they matter or mean anything while on prog. LOL!), went downstairs and peed in a cup. I wiped first and only saw brown... then a darker red.

I dipped my FRER and I'm sorry to report yet another BFN.

Danny is having a hard time understanding why it didn't work, not that I have any answers for him... He just thinks the numbers were sooo on our side and can't wrap his head around what could've possibly gone wrong, how one of those 50 million sperm couldn't hook up with one of my 3-4 possible eggs.

He actually said "I'm starting to think maybe we're not meant to have kids" I told him not to say that... that maybe it just confirms my thought that IVF is how we have to go. Maybe the shells on my eggs are too hard and the swimmers can't get through on their own... I dunno....

Either way, I'm watching for her to start up properly so I can call the RE. We're both keen to find out what the Dr's thoughts on this cycle are, what he thinks we should do next and if it's another IUI, I'm curious to know what, in his professional opinion, makes him think it's worth trying again.

[hoping and waiting]

Poor Danny.. I know it's just as hard for him as it is for you. Looking forward to hearing what the doctor says. It's going to happen....I love how your little motto says "never giving up on our first". Your first born child will feel so blessed someday to know just how very much you wanted him or her and everything you did to bring him into this world. It'll all be worth it.

[Crystallee]

So sorry to hear this. I'm curious to see what the doc's opinion is to do next as well. I hope both you and Danny can find some peace with this cycle and move forward with this new one and whatever the doctor suggests.

[Lyz]

really?? that's hearbreaking. I personally think you should do IVF next since this wasn't you first time at the IUI rodeo. Big Big Big hugs Nikki. You are MEANT to have kids, it's just not going to be the easy, or even moderately easy way.

[denalibear]

I'm so sorry Nikki... I wish I was there to give ya a big ol' hug.

[Tracy87]

Lamesause. I'm sorry. Hopefully your docs will have a good plan. If they recommend ivf, so be it. It's not too bad. Besides, with your insurance, it's probably the quickest thing and give you the best chance.

[Cait&AngelAbove]

I am so sorry Nikki!