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August 24th, 2009, 08:22 AM
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Well I decided maybe it was time to start a journal after a year of TTC#1. I hoping maybe it will help me not to give up and give me a place to put my emotions in words.

We starting TTC last August I skipped that cycle coming of of BCP. And then have had a very regular cycle since. I had a wonderful doctor who said if I wasn't PG by March or April she would test DH well we found out he has plently of spermies they just don't know which direction to go. We had an appointment with an RE who was a really nice man however they want 3000.00 up front to do an IUI we don't have that money right now so we bought some preseed and have been trying on our own for a little bit now with no luck. Last month I read on the internet how to do your own IUI at home we tried that this cycle with no luck as of right now I have started spotting but BB's are still killing me? I hope we can do this on our own but it is not looking so good right now.

Today I am having feelings of just giving up I know we shouldn't but the up and down emotions are killing me.

We just found out my brother is going to be a daddy a couple of weeks ago. I am very happy for them and excited to be an aunt for the first time but it is very hard not to be bitter and wonder what I have done wrong why can't I have that too KWIM???

And then yesterday we went to a family reunion where they all know that my brother is having a baby and my grandpa goes what is this with your baby brother having a baby and you two are just messing around that was like a slap in the face!!!!

Well I hope my next entry is a little more upbit!
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August 24th, 2009, 10:05 AM
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Shannon, do you have insurance? Or can you call around to different places and check IUI prices? I just did my first IUI....I go to an infertility specialist....she is an ob/gyn, she is not an RE. $3000 is ALOT of money for an IUI....the costliest one I've found in Houston/College Station is $1400 and that is for people who don't have insurance.

Wishing you luck!!!
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August 24th, 2009, 10:22 AM
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Yeah I have insurance all they will cover is for the fertility testing but not the treatments. I have checked 2 other places and they want to put me on meds and do all kinds of u/s so that is why they charge that much I guess. I haven't really asked around to see if they would do it with out putting me on meds.
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hey welcome to the board...hope you get your sooner than soon
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August 25th, 2009, 12:32 PM
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Thank you baby dreamer.

Well I thought today I would feel a little better about things but I really don't though I have been on the verge of tears all day and feel like just staying in bed all day in the dark. I guess the one year mark is hitting me harder than I thought it would. I really wanted this to be our month after we tried so hard this month and timed everything perfectly. And then I would have been pregnant right along with my SIL.
I hope this feeling goes away. My mom is supposed to be bringing something over tonight that is supposed to help I guess. I will have to see how it works.
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this post makes me want to cry...i know how you feel...please hang in there....
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August 26th, 2009, 05:45 AM
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Thanks hun. I am doing a little better today I will see how the day goes. I think AF isn't helping with the emotions I took it out on DH last night and then had a break down he probably thought I was crazy he handled it really well though.

I meant to say that any comments are welcome
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I'm so sorry you are feeling so badly. I just went to check your chart, and I see that you are still on the same cycle... so maybe the spotting is a good thing. AF hasn't come in full force or anything yet. I was hoping to see some temps so I could see if maybe she was on her way or not.

I know how tough it is when family asks those questions and they never put them in a gentle way. It's always, they think, joking... but it really does cut like a knife. I've tried not to blame the ones who don't know that we are actually trying. I'm sure your grandpa didn't mean to hurt your feelings... but that doesn't make it sting any less.

I hope you'll be getting some good news very soon. Hang in there sweetie!
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Thank you baby dreamer.

Well I thought today I would feel a little better about things but I really don't though I have been on the verge of tears all day and feel like just staying in bed all day in the dark. I guess the one year mark is hitting me harder than I thought it would. I really wanted this to be our month after we tried so hard this month and timed everything perfectly. And then I would have been pregnant right along with my SIL.
I hope this feeling goes away. My mom is supposed to be bringing something over tonight that is supposed to help I guess. I will have to see how it works.
My insurance company told me over the phone they would not pay for anything related to infertility or the IUI...but they paid in full for the HSG and ALL of my ultrasounds for the IUI. The reason is because they were all coded as X-ray services - mentioned nothing about infertility or the IUI...so they picked up the tab. You could always check with the medical biller at the office and ask how they code them. I was actually prepared to pay for them and was pleasantly surprised when they were paid.
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August 26th, 2009, 07:47 AM
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Thanks ladies. Nikki I am going to try to temp and use opk's this next cycle if AF does come in full force I got discouraged and just stopped for a couple of months so hopefully I can find my BBT we moved so I am not sure where I put the thing.
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Hey sweetie! Hope the spotting is IB and you will get to be Preg with your SIL!!! I agree with Lee Ann, there are ways to ask them to code things so that they will be covered. $3,000 sounds like way too much money! Hang in there and don't give up!
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August 27th, 2009, 07:00 AM
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Well AF showed this morning. Last night was ruff the spotting stop for like hours and then I had this horrible pain I was curled in a ball and rocking back and forth and crying it was so bad DH was ready to take me to the ER I said no. Well since the spotting had stopped and BB's were still tender and then with the horrible pain I though I better POAS and make sure I was miscarrying or something well it was a BFN which that made me feel better that I was micarrying the pain had never been that bad before. It is alot better this morning. So on to Cycle number 13 we go!!!
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Well today is CD2. AF was bad last night and woke me up with horrible cramps at 2 AM!!! I am feeling alot better today about things. I have decided to concentrate on loosing weight over the next few months! My mom brought me some rescue remedy it is supposed to help with stress and I can tell that it is working so that is good.

We are supposed to go to FT wayne tomorrow one of our friends brother is turning 21 so we are taking him out for a good time!! So I plan on having a good time this weekend and not dwell on not being PG right now!!!

I hope you ladies all have a good weekend. And those that are testing I really hope you get your BFP this weekend you all deserve it!!!
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I'm sorry the hit you with such vengeance... but I'm glad to hear that you are feeling better today.

I hope you have a good time with your friend's brother this weekend!
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August 28th, 2009, 06:22 AM
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Thanks Nikki
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August 31st, 2009, 06:30 AM
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Well AF is gone she was actually very good to me this month was not really heavy and didn't have to bad of cramps so that was kinda nice. I was at home on the couch sick all weekend. I left work early on Friday got home at about 2:30 and literally didn't leave the house till this morning to come to work. I was bummed it was such a nice weekend too stupid flu!!! Still a little nauseous but feeling alot better so that is good.

I meant to start temping this morning and totally forgot and I set the thermoitor right beside my alarm clock I am going to have to get used to this all over again
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Eh, glad you are feelings better!!!! Maybe its a good thing you didnt temp, especially if you may still have a lingering higher temp. KWIM?
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August 31st, 2009, 08:38 AM
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I never thought of that but you are right it probably would have been a little higher than normal.
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Had a hard time yesterday after I read the Duggers were have #19 I don't know why it hit me so hard I was at work had just open the internet and saw the heading and just started crying. It was crazy!!!! Don't get me wrong I am happy for them I just had a selfish moment of when is it my turn or the others on here who have been trying for so long? KWIM???

I am happy the week is half over and ready for a 3 day weekend!!!!!! No big plans yet just ready to be off!!!
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