Kimberly's TTC Journal

BabyLove23 · #1 November 22nd, 2009, 09:22 AM

July 6th 09 - Stopped BC 30 Days
Aug 5th 09 - 30 Days
Sept 4th - M/C - 31 Days
Oct 5th - 29 Days
Nov 3rd - 34 Days
Dec 7th 24 Days
Dec 31st 28 Days
Jan 28th -BFP!!!!!

Wow, some of these stories I've read are heartbreaking, and others are so heartwarming! My road is not that long, but regardless Im super excited and would love to get to know all of you! Here's my story....

Im 27 years old, and have been very happily married for almost 4 years now. :-) DH is the most amazing husband, and I know he will be a great father! Although we do not have any children of our own yet, we are already parents....in a way. You see, we take care of my brother, Kevin. He is 25 years old, and was diagnosed with Autism when he was just a baby. When DH and I bought our home, we new it would not be complete without Kevin. So, we care for him, and he cares for us. There is nothing better than having a 25 year old, that is more like a 6 year old that will never grow up. He has the innocence and heart of a child. I cant even begin to explain the joy we have thanks to Kevin.

So what could make life even more complete than having a baby of our own? :-) We stopped birth control in June, and decided to start TTC in August. I met with my doctor, started prenatal vitamins, got a full check up, and got ready to "start trying." So far, no luck. I had a miscarriage in September. I was only 4 weeks and 2 days pregnant. I had to wait 4 weeks for my beta levels to get back down to 0. This month, my Dr. confirmed we were okay to start trying again. Now Im just waiting. AF should arrive December 2nd. I thought for sure the holidays would keep me distracted enough to help pass the time, but not so much, LOL! Im thinking of taking one of those "5 days before your missed period" test next weekend. Then again, Im worried may get a negative result, and not believe it.

Will be back with updates :-) Keep your fingers crossed!! XOXOXO

baby:mama · #2 November 22nd, 2009, 12:11 PM

Welcome to the board and TTC journaling. I really admire you and your husband taking care of your brother : ) I am sorry to hear about your miscarriage : ( I hope the holidays bring you a sticky bean with a H&H 9 M's to follow. Again welcome and I am glad to have you here.

KDD · #3 November 22nd, 2009, 01:02 PM

Kimberly. I'm Kimberley (with an L-E-Y) as well. I'm very sorry about your loss. I found great support after my miscarriage on the Trying to Conceive After Loss board. You are always welcome to join us over there too.

I think it's great that you and your husband are caring for your brother. It's so touching.

I look forward to getting to know you better. Good luck TTC!

Im.Nayomi · #4 November 22nd, 2009, 01:39 PM

welcome to J.M. hope you get your

right away

pthree · #5 November 22nd, 2009, 02:51 PM

Welcome! I am also new to the TTC world. I am so sorry to hear about your miscarriage. I hope the next cycle brings good news. That is great about your brother! I used to work with autistic children, and they are fabulous.

Looking forward to getting to know you during this time!

BabyLove23 · #6 November 23rd, 2009, 12:04 PM

Thanks everyone!! Now its just the waiting game. 1 week to go....... <sigh>
What did you guys do to help pass the time?

BabyLove23 · #7 November 23rd, 2009, 02:52 PM

So today Im 9dpo (guestimate). I have not tried an ovulation test just yet. I took a test today, negative. I know Im too early to test, but I feel so....."off". It may just be in my head, but Im exhausted, and way over emotional! Im sure it could just be PMS.....but Im trying to be hopeful! With the holidays coming up, I really want to surprise my family with some exciting news! Not to mention, I'm so ready to be a mom!

pthree · #8 November 23rd, 2009, 03:50 PM

I just started TTC as well and the waiting game is killing me. How has science not found a way to tell us the moment we get pregnant?!

I hope that your off feelings are a good sign of a a BFP coming up!

BabyLove23 · #9 November 23rd, 2009, 06:13 PM

pthree ~ I know exactly what you mean!!! I wish science would catch up already......Not to mention, i have counted and recounted my cycle over and over again. I just realized I am off by 3 days. LOL!! I don't know how much longer I can wait!!!!!

I wish you the best of lucking TTC as well :-) It would be the best gift this holiday season!!!

dansyl · #10 November 23rd, 2009, 06:17 PM

Welcome to the board! These girls are so great and helpful!!

BabyLove23 · #11 November 28th, 2009, 03:41 PM

This is going to be much harder than I thought!! Im now 11 DPO and still BFN. I dont think this is going to be our month. AF is due to visit on Dec 2nd.

Im sad, but Im trying not to let it get me down. This is the holiday season, and I have much to be thankful for. :-)

Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving!

BabyLove23 · #12 November 29th, 2009, 11:23 AM

All my positive energy is gone. This is the worst feeling.
I took another test today, (DPO 12) with some small glimmer of hope.....still BFN.
I have no idea how people go through this for years.......

BabyLove23 · #13 November 30th, 2009, 06:09 PM

Took another test.......no dice.
No more testing. Just waiting on AF now.

BabyLove23 · #14 December 1st, 2009, 04:14 PM

I never WANTED to have AF visit. Now I just want her to get here so I can start trying again.

sigh.....

BabyLove23 · #15 December 5th, 2009, 01:55 PM

Still no AF. Light cramps....but not the normal kind. Im 4 days late. Tests are still negative. I don't understand what her holdup is! I want to have a regular cycle again!
I think I'll call my DR on Monday. I wonder if this has something to do with the "chemical pregnancy" in September...

lex1078 · #16 December 5th, 2009, 09:55 PM

Kim, sorry to barge in... I was lurking around... But you probably just O'd later than you think. Be patient and give AF another few days, till the end of the week before you call the Dr. I know the patience of waiting for AF is infuriating, your body is playing mind tricks on you now. It's another one of those 'easier said than done" deals where you need to be patient. Let me know if you are going to start OPK's (if you want) I'm here to help with those... they can be just as addicting as cigarettes.

I am vicariously living through you right now!!! I need to see a BFP from you SOON!!!!

jensma · #17 December 6th, 2009, 05:40 AM

yes some people do have later O's causing longer cycles after a CP or MC. Do you chart or have you thought about it? That can give you a good idea of when to expect Af as well as i you are PG, when you O (for optimal timing) etc!

Good luck and hope she shows up soon!!

BabyLove23 · #18 December 6th, 2009, 06:03 PM

Thanks Steph :-) I really do appreciate all of your help and support through this!

I cant wait for you and Neal to jump back in the game!!

BabyLove23 · #19 December 7th, 2009, 05:10 AM

She's here!!

Who knew all the pain, bloating, moodiness, ect would make me so happy today?
Time to start charting! Lets see how thing goes........ :-)

BabyLove23 · #20 December 10th, 2009, 06:35 AM

Happy Thursday :-)

AF is out of town! And DH is on board with some OPK's. Ill probably grab some next week...... I know I have time. Between my birthday. Christmas, and New Years, Im hoping this month flies by!!