[ashnichole2326]

OMG my temps are making me crazy!! They look so good, but I still don't know what DPO I am for sure, and I keep testing just to get BFNs . I can't freakin' wait to test monday with FMU and to see what my temps are looking like by then.

I still really have a feeling about this cycle...I hate waiting!!! I'm wondering if I should go ahead and start with FRERs and maybe it would show up sooner ...I'm not sure if they are better or just less likely to have evaps.

I slept in until 7:55, and I usually temp between 7 and 15 after....so my temp may be off a little...but HOLY MOLY!! It is super high. I can't believe it. If one of the 3 days I got + OPKs in a row is my O day, my chart somewhat looks triphasic I think....I'm gonna work myself all up and just be so sad when AF is here...lol

[ashnichole2326]

Today is CD2 . I hate waiting for O as much as I hate the TWW...lol. My plan is to use OPKs again, this time starting on CD10. I'm gonna be madder than heck if I O late this cycle like I usually do. I just feel like these short cycles are too good to be true, and they will just start being long again soon.

I get all excited about my cycles being more regular and I've gotta stop!! I know that without the meds I need, my cycles are not guaranteed to be this normal. Ugghh!!

Anyhow, I am getting REALLY anxious to start fixing our new home up and get moved in!! I've been making lists of everything we need....we need A LOT!!! We have to get new cabinets for the kitchen and replace EVERYTHING in the bathroom. We also have to get all new carpet and wallpaper or paneling. (which is fine by me...who doesn't LOVE new carpet??) There's a ton of things to be done. It's gonna be so much fun though .

I'm gonna TRY to plant things when we move in. Like trees and what not. I really want a willow tree in the front yard . How easy is it to kill one?? I planted flowers a couple years ago and almost all of them died because I couldn't remember to water them when they needed it. lol If all else fails, I have found one plant that never dies, and it's sooo pretty. I have no clue what it is, but I bought it from the Amish who live down the road. It even survived the winter...and I noticed the snow on it was yellow several times .

So, we visited Jerrod's grandparents a couple weeks ago and his grandma said to his mother "I can't wait to see Ashley get pregnant". It made me so sad. Thankfully, they're not too old yet, and we just might be able to manage getting pregnant in time for them to see it happen!! I don't know about my grandma though...she's 85 and she isn't doing real good. I think she's got dementia now . Everyone loves my Grandma...people always talk to me about my grandparents...even strangers. I am dreading the day anything ever happens to her . She is what keeps our family together...and the older she gets, the less time we all spend together. It's so sad.

I must admit that family make TTC so much more depressing. They're all so anxious for us to have a baby...and not everyone knows I have PCOS, and not many know we are TTC. My poor dad...he's the only one out of my grandma's 6 kids who has no grand kids. He's already 61 years old, has 3 daughters and none of us have any kids. lol I'm the only one who even has any business trying at the moment. lol

[ashnichole2326]

CD3...so boring!! lol

Having a crappy day today because I am in PAIN!!!!!!!! Aggghhh!!! AF is such a witch!! She is making me hate being awake right now, so I am prob. going to call it a night soon as I check on all the boards.

I believe that is all I have to say tonight.

[ashnichole2326]

CD4: I am not feeling as crappy today as I did last night...YET!! But this morning I woke up with a mess!! I had been leaking on myself in my sleep. I hate it when that happens. The same thing happened last cycle one night. I think I need to wear a tampon and a DIAPER to bed during AF!!! I don't bleed like that very often...and it's usually while I sleep when it does happen. But yesterday I made it home just in time to not bleed all over my truck seat too...This is a horrible AF and I can't wait 'til it's over with .

One day this week I need to go to WalMart and get my OPKs for this cycle. I really liked the Answer brand ones last cycle. They worked really well for me . I kinda want to do those and the $ ones too, because my +s on $ OPKs are REALLY REALLY +. I don't like it that the side of the test line is way darker on the Answer ones...it confuses me.

I am determined to stick to my plans this cycle, because I feel like if we time everything really good again, and do a lot of extra BDing, we could probably get pregnant without Clomid now. I may be wrong, and I may be able to get pregnant but not stay pregnant...but I could get pregnant and everything be perfect too. We just have to try our best.

One thing that has me worried is the fact that my last LP may have been kinda short. I'm no sure since FF didn't pick my O date...but it worries me a lot that I may have a LP defect in the making...or that I have a progesterone deficiency. I REALLY don't need to have a m/c with O- blood...I'm afraid I wouldn't even know, and then never be able to keep a pregnancy. I don't know exactly how it all works with the - blood type but that's just another pain in my rear!!

[ashnichole2326]

So, it has come to my attention that I have not updated in a month!

Here's my last cycle in a nutshell...I O'd on CD19...spotted from 6DPO to 13DPO when I FINALLY got AF. Then, she went away the next day...and I "think" she is back again. Please, please let her be back again!!!!

Anyhow, this is Saturday. Well...Tuesday I seen my OB/GYN because I thought there was a bump on my cervix. There wasn't. However, I took all of my charts from the past year with me and she asked me if I was ready for Clomid. Yesss!! So, she asked for me to have an HSG, and for Jerrod to get a SA. That is the plan for this cycle. Then.....next cycle it's Clomid 50 mg!!!!! I am sooo excited!!

So, AF came Thursday...the same day I took Jerrod's semen to the lab. So, I got online and ordered some PreSeed. I figured we could start trying it out this cycle. Yesterday I called and told the doctor's office to go ahead and schedule the HSG. I also got the results back from Jerrod's SA. The nurse said "Everything looks great". The only thing she thought could be an issue was the volume. She said this wasn't a big deal...that we could just abstain for a couple days before O. However, I really don't think we need to. He usually has a lot more than what he had the day we did the SA...we were both really baffled by the amount in the cup. I think maybe it was because he had just woken up when we got the sample.

I will update when I know the date of my HSG and all that. I will be using OPKs this cycle. I already have those, and I have PreSeed on the way. We're all set!! And I hear HSG may result in a BFP!! If it doesn't this cycle, I am VERY hopeful it will next cycle with the Clomid!!

I really feel like we FINALLY have a shot at this!!!!

[Im.Nayomi]

I love your new siggy!!!

[ashnichole2326]

Thanks Naomi!!

[ashnichole2326]

Well...here I am just a couple days before my HSG...I'm not really sure what to expect from it or from this cycle at the moment. This is really just a strange cycle right from the beginning...or better yet, from the end of my last cycle. I don't know what to make of the spotting I had from 6 DPO to the time I started AF...and it's so odd that AF only lasted 4 days. It's usually around 7 days.
Then, yesterday my OPK was pretty dark for CD6...who even does OPKs that early anyhow, right??

Anyhow, I'm starting to wonder if I am gonna O even earlier now..which is fine I guess if I do. Maybe it's a good thing. I'm starting to wonder how I should go about TTC this cycle...I don't really know if I should put as much effort in right now or wait until my next cycle, when I will be using Clomid for the 1st time. Next cycle just seems SO appealing...it'll be 1st cycle post-HSG and 1st Clomid cycle. My cycles are already on the borderline of normal for the time being....

I'm trying so hard to not get my hopes up about the next few cycles. However, it's never happened that I would have 3 cycles less than 35 days in a row...and add to it an HSG and clomid...you get a whole lot of HOPE!!

[Hockey247]

I just realized you had a journal. Sorry for not posting sooner. I'm Sam BTW! I am also contemplating what to do. I am not sure if I am going to go for my HSG. I think that with everything you have on the horizon, I would be very excited for the future too.

I wouldn't give up completely on this cycle, make sure you at least cover your bases but your future definitely seems bright. Hope you get that soon

[ashnichole2326]

Thanks Sam!! Nice to meet you!!

[Lex&angels]

Since it sounds like you're going all out next cycle, it sounds like this one would be a good one to really take it easy, perhaps not use opks or temp, just go with the flow?
I've found I can't seem to do two cycles in a row at maximum intensity, I kinda alternate relaxed/pessimistic and full-intensity optimism.

[BabyBee13]

Ashley i'm coming in to say hi!..and i'm really happy that your appointment went well..now it is time for you to hop on the bfp train..

[ashnichole2326]

Thanks girls!! I am so happy that my HSG went well yesterday!! I'm not so sure about taking it easy this cycle though...I have hardly BD'd in FOREVER and I actually need it...a lot of it if possible!! So I think I'm good to go!!
I'm gonna use the pre~seed, which I think will make things nicer anyhow...and I also have those instead cups on the way My OPK today was quite a bit darker than they have been lately so I am thinking O will be approaching sometime soon .
Not a clue what is up with my CP because for the last week or more, it has been to one side....it's like really far to the side instead of in the middle. Today I can't reach the opening, like it is turned backwards or something. So odd!!

Anyhow, I am feeling good about things as of right now. We're pretty excited to try new things...we need that at the moment I think. Hmmm....I'm thinking next cycle I will add Robitussin since I will be starting Clomid which can dry a girl up a bit!!

I'm gonna be depressed if I ever run out of new things to try before I get my BFP.

I swear to you ladies...I have not been so optimistic in ...well...ever!! It really does a woman good to try new things and have fun with it as opposed to being so serious!!

[Coley]

I really hope you guys catch it this time!

[ashnichole2326]

Thanks Nikki!!

So, I got my OPKs, HPTs and of course my instead cups today I just ordered them Thursday so it took two days of waiting and that's it!!

OMG, I never imagined they would be SOOOO big!!

I'm thinking I should start posting my OPKs and such to make my journal more interesting and fun.
Today I am on CD13...still spotting from the HSG and here's my OPKs:

[ashnichole2326]

5-9-10

[Servilia]

Hey Ash! That bottom one looks positive to me! Good luck catching the eggie!!

[ashnichole2326]

Thank you....2x BDing today should help, right?? lol

I took a couple afternoon OPKs today too...same urine!!



Wonder why this time the early pregnancy test one is darker than the Answer brand one?? So odd...

[♥Ashley♥]

They must have different sensitivities...have you checked that? Or less dye in the fainter one... I just ordered some opk's from ebay (ive never done that, only used early-pregnancy-tests.com or saveontests.com) and they claim their opk's detect 10 instead of 20, so they are more sensitive. Who knows if thats true though! Either way youve definitely gotten a +opk! I see you didnt have a temp rise today, hopefully you get a nice big jump tomorrow!!!

[ashnichole2326]

Thanks Ash!! I can't wait to be in the TWW...I HAVE TO get some BDing done tonight though...hope I O tomorrow instead of today to be honest...lol.

Anyhow, thought I would just add a whole series for fun

5-7-10

5-8-10

5-9-10



5-10-10


5-11-10




5-12-10


5-13-10

5-16-10 and 5-17-10

5-18-10 CD23