IndyMommyWannabe / Keri-Ann's TTC Journal

IndyMommyWannabe · #**141** December 5th, 2011, 08:32 PM

thanks, Adrienne. I've been tearing up all day and cried for a bit yesterday when I found out...there's nothing anyone can do or say for her to make the pain go away. It just absolutely breaks my heart.

MillerMom2b · #**142** December 6th, 2011, 03:49 AM

That is awful news about your friend at work. I'm keeping them my thoughts and prayers....

Coley · #**143** December 6th, 2011, 06:49 AM

My God... I cannot imagine what they must be going through. Ugh! It makes my guts churn!! They will definitely be in my thoughts...

WOO HOO for the countdown to DH's S/A! Did the Dr. give you guys instructions about how long before the S/A to abstain?

IndyMommyWannabe · #**144** December 6th, 2011, 10:17 AM

Oh I didin't even think about that! Hmm...well, I should be O'ng today or tomorrow...and the SA isn't until the 13th...so I dunno...hmmm....

I know I have to stay on DH about taking in the other order for the DNA SA to be done, from my doc, in order to get ready for (IF we can) do IUI...

IndyMommyWannabe · #**145** December 7th, 2011, 08:30 PM

so yesterday I O'd.

And last night we did the dance. hahaha.
I was having ton of "O" pains last night too - which I'm taking to be a good sign! course, DH was sooooooo tired and it was totally one of those "we need to do what we need to do" sorta nights. no real passion.

i hate those - BUT if it gets it done...

DH's next SA was scheduled for December 13. Yeah. that's not happening. he's just too busy with work. He's gonna call to reschedule but knowing his doc's office the won't get in til after Christmas! and - with his work at christmas time, he won't have time til January anyways!

I'm TRYING to be patient...but C'MON! ya know?

KatieKat · #**146** December 9th, 2011, 05:26 AM

Totally frustrating! I'm sorry DH's SA is getting pushed into January - I think you're being far more patient than I would be in your situation, so good for you

Hopefully this month is the one, and you won't have to worry about all this! I'm hoping you get a BFP for the holidays

junie22 · #**147** December 9th, 2011, 09:02 AM

Patience is a virtue... Patience is a virtue... Patience is a virtue...

(I'm trying to brainwash you.

)

kbpeanut · #**148** December 9th, 2011, 09:23 AM

First, my thoughts and prayers go out to your friend at work...that is just devastating news. I am so sorry they are going through this.

And yes, patience IS a virtue

And for the record (though every place might say differently), my DH is getting a repeat S/A done next week, and they asked for 4 days abstinance. When he had it done before a couple years ago, it was 3 days. For what it's worth!

IndyMommyWannabe · #**149** December 14th, 2011, 01:13 PM

WOW. the generocity of people absolutely amaze me sometimes!!!!!! So we held a bake sale today here at work to help raise money for my co worker who lost her baby, to help cover the cost of the funeral (since insurance won't pay)...it was amazing. we raised over $2,000!!!

I worked the first hour of the bake sale - and there were SO many people who'd buy a bag of cookies or a brownie for $1 or $2 and give a 20 and tell us to keep the change!

I can not tell you all how much it warms my heart to know how much people truly DO care about others!!

junie22 · #**150** December 14th, 2011, 01:19 PM

That is so amazing. So glad you were able to raise so much to help her and her family. It really is heartwarming.

Belita · #**151** December 14th, 2011, 05:20 PM

That's wonderful!

IndyMommyWannabe · #**152** December 16th, 2011, 12:32 PM

So I am at 10DPO today. I don't have any hopes this month (other than my usual hoping/praying for a miracle! hehe)...today I did spy an extremely faint tinge of red and I've been peein' like frickin' crazy

?...

I know they say implantation happens 7 - 10 days after ovulation (again, 10DPO! but I also know better...

although my lower back IS killing me today...lol.

DH's next semen analysis is on the 29th. I'm excited to find out what his levels have risen to and whether or not we can move forward with IUI in January or February!

Ya know...I absolutely LOVE Christmas. It's my (like so many others) absolute FAVORITE time of the year! But this year it's hard not to want to go browsing through the toy department and think "hmm...I'd love to buy ___ or ___ if I only had my own"...

and - like I posted on the main board...my department / team had our holiday luncheon today. I sat next to one of the women in our dept. who's due with her second. Believe me, I truly am absolutely happy for her and wish her a very healthy & happy pregnancy...but it really was SO incredibly hard to sit next to everyone talking about "babies this" and "babies that"...and "oh when I had MY baby" ... "oh did you hear who just had a baby"?

I can't even begin to describe how hard it was not to sit there and burst into tears.

oh well...I KNOW my time will come one day. I KNOW it will...it's just so dang hard...just having one of those days today.

IndyMommyWannabe · #**153** December 27th, 2011, 01:15 PM

so sick

supposed to work today. went INTO work...but only because I thought both people on my team were out this week...got there, they were both there, so I stayed for my workload meeting and came home. so phlegmy and can barely talk. ugh.

in other news though, had a great christmas!

DH got me the flip-pal that I wanted!

it is AWESOME! I can't wait til my mom and I can go to the libraries now and do some more genealogical research!

I've been scanning my pictures with the flip-pal like CRAZY! Seriously scanned over 50 pictures in like 20 minutes!

So on Christmas eve, my sister in law (who, btw, is ONLY like 8 or 9 years older than me...) had her daughter AND grand-son there. I stole the baby for a bit...and OMG I just wanted to sit there and hold him all. night. long! he was sooooooooooooo adorable! Even DH got in on some of the baby-holdin' action...

he is SO good with babies.

so his SA is on thursday and I can not WAIT to find out what our next steps are!

I have been MIA here on the boards during december...but i guess I'm just getting a bit disheartened...it's so hard not to...but I will not (can not) give up hope.

junie22 · #**154** December 27th, 2011, 01:57 PM

FX'd for a good SA on Thursday.

Belita · #**155** December 27th, 2011, 06:41 PM

I hope his SA goes well and you get some good information! Congrats on the flip-pal! I just renewed my subscription to Ancestry today in hopes that getting back into the genealogy will help me me through all this, too.

IndyMommyWannabe · #**156** December 27th, 2011, 06:43 PM

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Originally Posted by Belita

I hope his SA goes well and you get some good information! Congrats on the flip-pal! I just renewed my subscription to Ancestry today in hopes that getting back into the genealogy will help me me through all this, too.

Oh Belita, I am sooooooo very sorry for your loss.

Belita · #**157** December 27th, 2011, 06:48 PM

Thanks, Keri-Ann.

IndyMommyWannabe · #**158** December 30th, 2011, 01:59 PM

yay! so we are FINALLY going to be referred to a fertility specialist!!!!! i really have been trying to be patient...but the fact that I have a blocked tube - I dunno - I just feel that we should have been referred to a fertility specialist long ago.

So DH's latest SA seems promising at least, since his morphology # went from 0% to 5% (although it needs to be over 15%...) and his motility went from 30% to 66%!!

But his total volume and count are still low...

I keep telling him we NEED to look into acupuncture - but he has this idea in his head that they're going to stick needles into his...well you know.

But the Midwest Fertility Specialists Website (which is where we are being referred to) - even has a link specifically TO an acupuncturist that they work with!

I just feel like everything is on him. and I hate sorta sitting here feeling absolutely in NO control at all. I want to make sure that we've covered EVERYTHING on my end...and while I like my doc (who i've honestly only met twice...) I just don't feel like she's done anything to look at ME. It's like - OK, yes. I have a very clockwork cycle. I DO seem to have postive OPK's on/around the 14th day of my cycle.

BUT I've noticed - for the past couple of months - that I tend to have those 25 / 30 day cycles. I want a doc to look at that and tell me if there IS something there to be concerned with or not.

WOULD I be a good candidate for clomid? I know my doc and I talked about it briefly and her concern is - BECAUSE I do tend to ovulate - and on the 14th day...that it's too much of a risk to end up having multiples...(which I'd love to have, but I know my husband doesn't want)...however, of course, if it's meant to be than it's meant to be.

but - I wonder though - AM I truly ovulating if I have one blocked tube??? what IS my LP? Do I have any worries with my progesterone levels? I have NO idea anything as the only test I've had done is the hSG test.

I am just SO excited that we are moving forward!!