Congrats on starting a journal! It's one of the most therapeutic & cathartic things I've ever done. It's a great outlet to be able to vent, whine, complain & hope about everything TTC!
I hope the Soy works for you. I bought some a while back and tried it for one cycle. I never had trouble O'ing, so maybe it wasn't needed at the time... But in the past 6 months or so, I've been O'ing later than usual, so I'm wondering if it might be helpful to me now.
I hope you start a new cycle soon so that you can get a great shot at catching that egg!