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  #21  
February 22nd, 2012, 06:46 PM
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Glad you're feeling good about this cycle and that you aren't having too many side effects from the soy!
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February 23rd, 2012, 07:41 AM
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CD 8. This morning I woke up happy knowing I didn't have to take the soy anymore this cycle. I hate taking big horse pills and it always feels like they get stuck in my throat. So...happy that is done and over with right now.

I have about a week to go until ovulation, hopefully. If everything goes right I will still ovulate the same time that I have been for the last 3 months. I'm happy that my cycles have finally seemed to have gone back to normal (as of Dec they have been a steady 28 days). It's almost been a year since my miscarriage, the fact that it took about 9 months for my body to go back to normal is just crazy. I'm wondering if the fertility specialist could have helped my body bounce back sooner? I guess I'm thinking this way, if we do conceive and I have another miscarriage...is it going to take another 9 months to bounce back?! Ugh, the horror.

Lately I've been reading Daily Devotions. I'm not super religious. Yes, I am a Lutheran. I do believe in God. Although, I don't go to church often I still feel like God is here to guide me and loves me all the same. I read a devotion the other day that really had me thinking. It was titled, "Who Is God Sending To You?" I have become so preoccupied by what I want that I wasn't seeing what God was doing. God was sending these beautiful babies to me for a reason and I was more obsessed with why I didn't get to mother them, when I should have been realizing what He was trying to teach me. Patience, Love, Faithfulness, and the beauty that life is, and the miracle that pregnancy truly is. I have 100% faith that God will lead me on my journey to becoming a mother.

I know that miscarriages hurt, but I now realize that God was helping me in some way. By taking those children early on in the pregnancy, I was being saved a bigger heartbreak later on down the road. Who knows if those children of mine had something incredibly wrong with them. Would they have even survived outside my womb? Probably not. God knew that and to spare me, he took them to heaven. I know that they are in such a beautiful place and it makes me happy.
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February 23rd, 2012, 09:16 AM
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I have become so preoccupied by what I want that I wasn't seeing what God was doing. God was sending these beautiful babies to me for a reason and I was more obsessed with why I didn't get to mother them, when I should have been realizing what He was trying to teach me. Patience, Love, Faithfulness, and the beauty that life is, and the miracle that pregnancy truly is. I have 100% faith that God will lead me on my journey to becoming a mother.

I know that miscarriages hurt, but I now realize that God was helping me in some way. By taking those children early on in the pregnancy, I was being saved a bigger heartbreak later on down the road. Who knows if those children of mine had something incredibly wrong with them. Would they have even survived outside my womb? Probably not. God knew that and to spare me, he took them to heaven. I know that they are in such a beautiful place and it makes me happy.
You just made me cry... in a good way. Hugs to you. You're amazing.
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February 23rd, 2012, 10:24 AM
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You just made me cry... in a good way. Hugs to you. You're amazing.
Thank you hon.
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February 24th, 2012, 02:05 PM
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I'm incredibly pissed off. Since CD 1 I've had headaches and I think I just realized the cause....folic acid. I found an article through an MTHFR support group that says MTHFR C677T patients should not be using folic acid supplements, but methylfolate supplements. I'm SO INCREDIBLY MAD AT MY DR!

I just ordered the recommended prenatal for women with C677T mutation, so hopefully that will get here next week and I can start feeling better.
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February 24th, 2012, 02:25 PM
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Wow, it's crazy that your doctor didn't catch that, but it's wonderful that you did. It's so amazing the information we have at our fingertips now. Glad you'll get your appropriate supplements soon.
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February 24th, 2012, 02:31 PM
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Wow! I'd be annoyed, too! I hope the correct supplements help!
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February 24th, 2012, 03:02 PM
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WOW. That sucks. It's funny how often we all just trust what our doctors say. But I've learned through my own personal experiences (especially with my dogs and their old vet) to trust your instincts and not always assume the "expert" is right. Good for you for figuring it out. Hopefully once the new supplements come in, you'll be feeling better in no time.
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February 26th, 2012, 09:56 AM
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I STILL have a headache. I'm thinking it's just going to continue until I get on the proper medication. It's just so annoying!

CD 11 today. I haven't had my LH surge yet so that's good, but I honestly feel like my ovaries are about to burst. They feel SO FULL, which is a good thing since that means the Soy probably worked to produce s big strong egg. I think. I hope. I have been CRAVING sex with hubby today. Right now he's running on the treadmill and all I keep thinking is "I can't wait until later tonight..." LOL. I've been mixing it up a bit in the bedroom by wearing sexy lingerie (a lot was from my bridal shower that I just haven't worn yet) and I think that's put a new spark in our sex life. I gotta think about it this way "If we don't conceive, at least we're having a TON of fun trying." LOL!
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February 26th, 2012, 10:11 AM
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That's the spirit!
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February 26th, 2012, 10:46 AM
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definately the way to approach things id say! ive found myself the last couple of months that 'because we have to' sex just isnt nearly as fun as 'because i really want to' sex so try and go for the latter whenever we can! hope it works for you guys!
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February 27th, 2012, 07:09 PM
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CD 12. I'm starting to think this headache I have been having is due to the Soy...or at least elevated Estrogen levels. I don't know for sure, but after stopping my folic acid for the past couple of days and it is still going on.....I'm a little suspicious of the Soy now.

I'm realizing more and more now that I really need to get going with an exercise program. I have a normal BMI and everything, but I really just need to tone up. I put on my bathing suit today and I look HORRIBLE in it! Starting tomorrow morning I'll be working out to tone up and lift a few assets (heh). Hopefully my asthma won't get in the way and I'll be able to stick with it.
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February 27th, 2012, 07:20 PM
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I gotta think about it this way "If we don't conceive, at least we're having a TON of fun trying." LOL!
Love it! And good luck getting into shape. Hope the asthma cooperates.
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February 28th, 2012, 06:30 PM
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CD 13, BRING ON THE LH SURGE!!! Tonight I had my first positive OPK. I'm very excited. Tomorrow we'll be baby dancing and hopefully we'll catch that egg.

I've been watching 19 Kids and Counting and I can't help but cry whenever she talks about her pregnancy and about how she "prays for a healthy baby". It makes me sad to know she miscarried. At that far along in the pregnancy too.

As far as I go, still having the headaches, yay me. I can't wait until the new prenatals come in the mail. Hopefully they don't take too long. I am going shopping tomorrow for our food for the week. I've been starting to use Emeals (budget friendly meal planning) for my weekly meals since it's so much easier than trying to do it myself. I also need my hair cut. I hope I can get it cut soon as it's getting horribly too long for my liking.

I know this was all over the place...basically just random thoughts.
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February 29th, 2012, 06:22 PM
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Good luck!

I know what you mean about Michelle Duggar. I've only seen commercials and I feel the same way. It's so sad.
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March 1st, 2012, 11:05 AM
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I'm officially 1 DPO! WOOT! CD 15. My dr just crushed my good mood tho.

I recently contacted my dr to get his opinion on an article I found at mthfr.net. I'm not sure how to take his response:

Shasta,
Anyone can post anything on the internet. I would recommend that you stay with reputable authorities, like the NIH - MTHFR - methylenetetrahydrofolate reductase (NAD(P)H) - Genetics Home Reference
MTHFR mutations have been linked with increased risk of specific problems, such as spina bifida. Well done clinical trials have clearly demonstrated that use of folic acid significantly reduces the risk. Since you only have a single mutation and normal homocysteine levels, you really do not need to take more than 1mg of folic acid (the amount in most prenatal vitamins). So, as long as you are taking a prenatal, don’t need to take extra folic acid.

I wish you the best of luck. Given your diagnosis, it is possible to succeed on your own, but unfortunately the odds are against you. Therefore, IVF with PGD is recommended.

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Why can't he be supportive?! I want to cry right now. Am I being too emotional about his response?

Ugh, I hate doctors.
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March 1st, 2012, 11:22 AM
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Sorry that he is seemingly being unsupportive, but as an outsider looking in, I think he might just be being realistic and saying these things as he feels they are in your best interest. My RE said something similar early on in my treatment. She said "You have the ability to do this on your own, but the chances aren't very good. Donor eggs are your best shot, to be honest."

Given that I didn't want to go that route yet, she said IVF with ICSI is our best shot. I was disappointed to hear that, but I didn't take it as her not being supportive, rather she was just being realistic.

On a lighter note - YAY for 1 DPO!
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March 1st, 2012, 11:43 AM
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I dunno. I guess I don't want to believe that I need IVF seeing as how the genetic consultant said I only have a 15% chance of miscarriage. Maybe I should be realistic and stop trying to fool myself? The thing that kills me is we just can't afford IVF right now. Yes, of course once we get there we can deduct that money from our taxes, but still. That's a lot of money that Jesse and I just cannot do right now. Probably not for a long time.
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March 1st, 2012, 01:03 PM
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TTC is such an emotional process. When I was having my loss, I felt like my doctor was extremely unsupportive (she didn't even say sorry for our loss) and so clinical. I was convinced I would switch OBs. Now that I'm further removed from it and she's doing tests most doctors wouldn't run for another year or 2 more losses, I'm feeling like she was being clinically positive and realistic for us. At the time all I heard was the negative and not hearing the positive things she was saying for us.

I think it is confusing that your OB and genetic counselor are saying two different things. I'm not clear, is your genetic counselor saying that overall your chances of miscarriage are only 15% or your chances of miscarriage if you happen to have a genetically normal embryo 15%?

I'm so sorry this is so hard for you. I can only imagine the pain that you're suffering. I think the fact that you found this information on a MTHFR website would make it most likely trustworthy. Are you able to ask your genetic counselor about his/her thoughts on the folic acid? I think the genetic counselor would better know how it would affect your pregnancy with your specific mutations. Most general OBs only know so much, I'd trust your genetic counselor over your OB. If you have other options for an OB maybe try someone else who is more willing to listen to your genetic counselor's recommendations and thoughts?

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I definitely understand the financial aspect of affording to get pregnant. I really hope you get a sticky bean all on your own.
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