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February 15th, 2012, 07:49 PM
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Hi I'm Shasta, 27. I turn 28 in June. DH is Jesse, 26. We have been TTC our first for a year now. I've had 2 losses, one with DH, one 6 years ago with an ex. Just recently we started seeing a fertility specialist to see what our issue may be and it came back with MTHFR C677T gene mutation along with a Balanced Reciprocal Translocation between Chromosomes 1 and 4. I know the particular breaks but won't list them here as it really doesn't matter where the breaks are. We were initially told by our specialist that we would have up to a 90% chance of miscarriage, however our genetic counselor said it's more like 15%. We could potentially have a baby with BRT, or UBRT (which results in trisomy issues) or the baby could be completely normal, it all depends on how my eggs split their chromosomes. We were told we would need IVF, but we want to continue TTC naturally until we save up money for IVF, in the hopes that we will get lucky and God will hear our prayers.

This next cycle I'm using:
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February 15th, 2012, 07:56 PM
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Today has been hard for me to handle. A woman who started TTC after me (way after me) had her baby on Valentine's Day. It frustrates me to no end that I have to deal with miscarriages, loss, and grief. Not to mention, every day I know that I am the reason for them. While I'm happy we know why, I really feel like dying. My heart breaks whenever I hear of a new BFP from a friend who hasn't tried nearly as long as we have. It's frustrating. And while I'm happy for them and congratulate them, in my solitude I cry.

Tomorrow AF is going to grace me with her presence. Jesse and I are going to up the baby dancing (every other day) and will be using some supplements (like Soy) to help with a stronger ovulation. I have a message out to my fertility specialist to see if we can go with Clomid. A few ladies here on the TTCMA forum have used Clomid to produce multiple eggs in the hopes that one will be a good egg. I'm hoping my dr will want to give that a try. It couldn't hurt, right? Here's to hoping he'll see it my way!
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February 15th, 2012, 08:24 PM
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Hi, Shasta! I'm Jack. I'm also 27 and turn 28 one month before you. DH is Hiro, 36.

I hope you will be lucky enough to conceive naturally before IVF comes about! Miracles happen all the time. Wishing you all the best, and looking forward to reading about your journey.

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February 16th, 2012, 08:22 AM
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Hi, Shasta! I'm Jack. I'm also 27 and turn 28 one month before you. DH is Hiro, 36.

I hope you will be lucky enough to conceive naturally before IVF comes about! Miracles happen all the time. Wishing you all the best, and looking forward to reading about your journey.

Thank you. Sticky to you!
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February 16th, 2012, 08:50 AM
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Today is CD 1. AF came early this morning and was just mean about it too! I didn't really sleep all that well, and then the cramping started which made sleeping nearly impossible.

My dr rejected my request to try Clomid. Said that it would be a waste of time and money. I guess I'll go at this on my own with the help of Soy. Starting CD 3 I'll be taking about 150 mg and hopefully that will help produce a stronger egg. You never know unless you try right?
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February 16th, 2012, 08:56 AM
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Shasta, so glad to see you started a journal. I'll be stalking it, as I've always stalked you. And I'll be hoping for a miracle for you before you go the IVF route.

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February 16th, 2012, 09:01 AM
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Welcome to TTC#1! I hope that the soy works for you. I've heard of it working well for some women. I saw a bit if your story on TTCMA. That stinks that your doctor won't let you try the Clomid! I hope you get your sticky BFP soon and won't need the IVF!
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Hi Shasta! I'm Dawn (27) and DH (33). I am so sorry for everything you have gone through and are going through. That really sucks your doctor won't put you on clomid. I really hope you get your miracle baby naturally!

I have also heard good things with soy and how much it has helped women. I hope it works for you. GL.
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February 16th, 2012, 11:40 AM
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Hi Shasta! I'm Dawn (27) and DH (33). I am so sorry for everything you have gone through and are going through. That really sucks your doctor won't put you on clomid. I really hope you get your miracle baby naturally!

I have also heard good things with soy and how much it has helped women. I hope it works for you. GL.
Thank you. GL to you too!

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Welcome to TTC#1! I hope that the soy works for you. I've heard of it working well for some women. I saw a bit if your story on TTCMA. That stinks that your doctor won't let you try the Clomid! I hope you get your sticky BFP soon and won't need the IVF!
Thank you! I hope so too!

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Shasta, so glad to see you started a journal. I'll be stalking it, as I've always stalked you. And I'll be hoping for a miracle for you before you go the IVF route.

Hi hon! Don't hide your siggy!!!!
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February 16th, 2012, 12:06 PM
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Hi hon! Don't hide your siggy!!!!
It's just habit here. I'm still rooting for all my TTC #1 girls, but I don't want to flaunt the reminder that I'm pregnant.
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February 16th, 2012, 04:06 PM
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I know what you mean, Adrienne. I'm not hiding mine yet (unless I'm posting on a sensitive topic), but once I'm reasonably sure I've got a sticky bean, I'll be doing the same. Plus, I bet most of us are stalking you anyway, so we already know all about it.

Shasta, I really hope the soy is beneficial to you! I've heard good things!
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February 16th, 2012, 05:10 PM
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HI Shasta - welcome to our little world. I'm Karin, DH is Patrick, we're on cycle 40 (3 yrs 3 mos) of TTC our first, with one loss middle of last year. We're both 37 (yowza!), and are in the middle of our first IVF cycle. Dx = dim ovarian reserve, and slight MFI. Nothing too pointed, we've just got some tired eggies and swimmers.

Glad you've decided to join us here. We've got a great group of ladies, and I can honestly say that if I didn't have this group for the past 3 years, I would have gone mental. We've got the vets, like me, and some newer ladies, and every type in between. But we're all great, and we're all here for whatever you need. There are a few of us TTC w/MA right now, so you're in safe hands with us.

Again, welcome...looking forward to getting to know you!
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February 17th, 2012, 08:12 AM
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I'm sore today!! I did Slim in 6 workout along with a little Pilates and boooy do it feel it today. I didn't do the whole workout because my asthma was bothering me. I think I need to go at a much slower pace than the girls on the DVD do. I think it was about 10 minutes in and i gave in. LOL

Last night I saw a friend's newborn. She had to have a c-section due to being in induced labor for 55 hours with really no progress past 7 centimeters. Poor thing. But Baby Ryan is such a cutie pie and I'm so happy for them. I feel bad that her husband has to deploy in 2 weeks. I know she'll get through it just fine, but I can only imagine how tough it is going to be for him to leave now.

It's CD 2 and I'm feeling much better today, mentally I mean. I don't feel like throwing a tantrum and breaking every piece of glass we own because I'm frustrated. I've really decided that I'm going to grab ahold of the reins and make it happen. It being getting pregnant. I think part of it is that I now have a place where I can write down my thoughts without fearing that someone close to me is going to see it. I have my blog, but it's not "safe" there for these words. Here, you all understand what I'm feeling and what I may be going through. You understand that I don't literally mean I want to die. It's just how I feel. So, I'm happy to have this journal. It makes me feel so much better.
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February 17th, 2012, 09:23 AM
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You got it...we're all here, and everyone has their own story to share. We vent, rant, B***H, moan, gripe, laugh, cry, and hug each other. Anything you share is safe here, hon. Glad you are feeling better today!
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February 18th, 2012, 04:20 PM
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Today is CD 3. I'll be taking my first dose of Soy Isoflavones tonight, 140 mg. I'm excited to get this show on the road. I've been making sure I take my prenatals, because let's face it, I have been slacking quite a bit.

I didn't exercise today, because I feel really self-conscious about working out in front of Jesse. I don't know what it is, but I almost feel embarrassed about it. I know that I shouldn't and he's seen me at my worst, but still.

Anyways, i'll keep everyone posted on any side effects I get from the Soy.
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So sorry that you have to go through this. I understand how you feel about everyone getting pregnant around you. I try to remind myself that everthing happens for a reason and one day God will answer my prayers. The past 6 months have been a strugle

One day we will all get our babies

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February 19th, 2012, 06:34 AM
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CD 4 today. I started the Soy last night, those pills do not smell good at all! I got both of them down though, so that's good. I wish they were in capsule form and not caplet form. For some reason, if I taste anything weird, I have a hard time getting it to go down. I literally had to drink 2 full glasses of water to get both caplets down.

No side effects this morning. I slept really well which may have been a "side effect" but I'm not sure. I also made sure I took all of my other supplements/pills. The folic acid supplement can make me a bit jittery at night and I'm not sure which supplement is messing with my asthma. It could possibly be the folic acid. I'm not sure, but I actually had to take my inhaler last night which almost never happens anymore due to the med change I had when we moved to Dover.

Anyways, I'll continue to report any side effects from the Soy. so far so good, but I'm taking them at night so I may not experience anything.
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February 20th, 2012, 02:24 PM
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CD 5! No side effects still from the Soy. I'm pretty happy about that. Seems like AF is on her way out (only a tad bit of old blood left) so that's good. Jesse and I are going to baby dance every other day, starting today! I know he's excited about it. LOL.

Not a whole lot going on right now otherwise. Hopefully I'll be able to keep a positive attitude about this cycle.
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February 21st, 2012, 08:22 AM
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CD 6. My ovaries feel FULL. I hope ovulation doesn't come on too early because of the Soy! I'm not in any pain or anything, it's more of just a soreness. I keep thinking it might even be from exercising and not the Soy at all, but I just don't know. It feels like my ovaries. I have today and tomorrow left to take the Soy so I guess we'll see what happens. I've been ovulating about CD 14-15 lately so hopefully that won't change.

Last night I made the big mistake of staying up later than usual, and I started to develop a headache. That'll teach me! I've been taking my Soy at 8pm every night, so I guess I need to get my butt in bed by 10pm before the side effects start to kick in. Jesse and I didn't DTD last night due to me still bleeding a bit, so we're starting tonight. Again, he's pretty excited. LOL.

Also I was going to start temping today but forgot. I'm pretty bad about remembering so I'll probably just say screw it and not temp. Temping usually gets me a little stressed out, so it's probably for the best.
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February 22nd, 2012, 04:25 PM
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CD 7. Oh the horror!!! The migraines I've been having are CRAZY. I think it's really the only side effect I've been having. Thankfully tonight is my last dose of the Soy, which is good because I can't stand the taste of those pills.

As far as mental health, I'm a lot better this week. I still have my days where I don't want to get out of bed, but I make myself. I need to start getting myself together.

I'm excited to get this cycle started and get into the 2WW. I feel really good about this cycle and our chances.
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