[Kimber77]

My name is Kim (29) and my DH is William-nn B (26), married September 9, 2006. DH wanted to start ttc right after we were married but we said we'd wait til Spring. I couldn't wait any longer and stopped my bcp without his knowledge. I want him to be surprised since he was the one wanting to start so fast. I am on CD3 and hoping that ff is correct on my ovulation date so we can get down to business! lol Right now we are enjoying being the furparents to our Springer spaniel Lil Bear (11yrs), Goober the cat (5 yrs) and Bentley our lil baby yorkiepoo (1 yr). Keeping my fingers crossed that we are blessed the first time around but being very scared/nervous that its not going to happen.

[Kimber77]

AF finally was gone on Sunday so thinking that the more often the better my chances I jumped right on it and did some BD Sunday and plan on daily routine through mid month. Keeping my fingers crossed!

[Kimber77]

I think i'm having symptoms of O today with a little cramping going on. FF says I should O on the 14th and that i'm most fertile on the 11th, 12th and 13th so I guess i'll just keep BD'ing until then and hope that its correct. We skipped the 8th but did on the 9th and 10th.

[Kimber77]

Not much of an update, just still really crampy today and last night I had major cramping in my right ovary. Hoping thats a good sign of O and we'll catch that little egg right off the bat.

[Kimber77]

We BD on the 12th, 13th and 15th. Skipped the actual O date since I read that you should have a break so that DH can build up some good swimmers. Hope that helped as well as I didn't have visible CM until the 15th. Keeping my fingers crossed since we are now in the 2WW. That sucks!! Of course mentally I keep going back and forth, telling myself that I know it won't be for me but then I keep thinking i'm having symptoms of pregnancy like sore bb's, stronger sense of smell, increased hunger, increased urine, etc. I just have the worst feeling that its not going to be our time but i'm going to keep praying.

[Kimber77]

Just wanted to jot down some other symptoms that i've been having just in case this is going to be a BFP. I'm having alot of heartburn, increased gassy feeling and some nausea. Want to make sure that i've covered all of my bases just incase i'm totally screwed up on my cycle and when I O'd so BD on 16th and skipped 17th. Please, please, please let this be it!!

[Kimber77]

I'm now 9 DPO and had some light brownish spotting this morning that is starting to fade. I'm sure AF is going to show her ugly face!! If so I will start charting on CD1.

[Kimber77]

Well AF decided to show on 1/26 and is finally gone today. However i've also been very sick since 1/26 and still am not feeling 100%. I bought a thermo with all intentions of starting to chart and the thing doesn't work and with being sick it just didn't happen so I guess we'll start that next month if I don't get a BFP before then.

[Kimber77]

CD 11 and having lots of EWCM so we've been BD everyday. I really want this to be our month. DH bday is 2/20 and that should be my testing day if AF doesn't show this time.

[Kimber77]

Well...I gave in and tested on Sunday at 13 dpo, BFN!!! Grrrr!! AF is due today and so far no show but i'm having cramping so i'm sure she is on her way. I'm taking back my thermo tonight and once again exchanging for hopes of getting one that works.

[Kimber77]

AF showed today. On to another cycle....

[Kimber77]

I am now on cd 8. I have already started to notice a change in CM so we are starting to bd like crazy. Hopefully i'll be able to tell when i'm about to O and get a +opk. Keeping my fingers crossed that this is our cycle. I found out yesterday that my cousins gf is expecting in Sept. Its so hard to hear everyone elses good news.

[Kimber77]

Its been awhile since i've wrote on here. Seeing all the bfn pg tests really starts to get to you. My 18yr old neice is expecting her second any day now and that will be tough to handle since i'm still waiting to see my BFP. I got a +opk this cycle and today i'm 15dpo. I took a pg test this morning that has the lightest second line. I'm trying not to get my hopes up in fear that its a false positive. Keeping my fingers crossed that it only continues to get darker and i'll be expecting a Christmas baby. What a great gift from above that would be!!

[Kimber77]

Confirmed blood test today!!

[Kimber77]

Well I thought I wouldn't be writing in this journal for a couple years when i'd be trying for my second child but here I am back to the drawing board, trying for #1. I was 13 wks on June 22 and was scheduled for my second appt to get to hear the hb and dh was going with me. Well Thurs, 6/21, I started cramping a little so I stayed home on 6/22 with my feet up until my doctors appt at 4:30pm. At 3pm on 6/22 I had spotting and cramping that started, then 15 min later I started bleeding really bad so dh took me to the ER. They did an u/s and said that the fetus was gone. They did some suction thing and kept me overnight to make sure my body would pass everything on its own and I wouldn't have to have the D&C. I feel like i've passed everything but the kitchen sink. It was quite an experience that I'm sure when I do have a baby labor should be a breeze. I honestly think I could do it naturally after all that! They said it was just a random thing that happens when chromosomes don't line up correctly and that I have a -rh factor and my blood type is A-. So I had to get a shot of rhogam to protect me and help my body not build antibodies to help protect me and the next pregnancy. We can't try again until i've had a normal cycle which should be in July, I hope anyway. I hate not knowing when my cycle will return to normal and we can start this process again. If it all works out like i'd hope we should get to try again in August. Once pregnant I will have to have another shot at 28 wks and another after delivery. I feel like I am emotionally ready to be pregnant again already. I loved having a baby growing inside me and making plans for its future. I really have this gut feeling that it was a girl but i'll never know. I still think about it daily and can't believe how much it hurts inside even though I never really got big or got to see it on u/s or hear the hb. I was still so attached to this tiny thing living inside me. I will miss my angel baby forever.

[Kimber77]

My appt on July 3rd didn't go so well. I had lab work done to test my hcg and it was still at 400. Had more lab work done on 7/10 and it had only gone down to 200 and had an u/s that confirmed I still have tissue and old blood in there so now I have to have the D&C. I just hate that they had to drag this out for so long. I feel like all of those emotions I was finally moving past have come back and now i'm going to have to heal physically and emotionally all over again. I just don't know when my cycle will ever return to normal now. So here I am, today I turned 30, no baby, no pregnancy and i'm scheduled for D&C on Friday the 13th. Woo freaking hoo!!

[Kimber77]

My D&C went well. I had surgery at 7am and had one HOT anesthesiologist!! Didn't have to have the tube down my throat or a catheder which was great!! I was a little groggy and had some cramping/bleeding when I came home. I got a new prediction from Cheri "In any case, new connection is SEPT and still saying BOY.. so that is either birth month, concieve month or the month you find out in"

[Kimber77]

I had what I am pretty sure was my regular cycle on 7/20 and went to the doctor on 7/31. He said that everything looked good and with my cycle starting back up that we just needed to wait on another normal cycle which i'm pretty sure is on its way to be full force now. I started spotting a little over the weekend and started light flow today with major cramping which is normal for my cycles so we should start trying at the end of this month.