[baby_dreams]

I finally decided to start my TTC Journal ... I have a feeling I may be spending a lot of time writing in here

My name is Mandy, I am 25 (Will be 26 this October) and I have been married to DH, J.J. (25) since April 21st, 2007! We have been together for almost 8 years now and he is my best friend and the love of my life! We live together in Ontario, Canada with our furbaby Buddy! He is my joy! He is a Jack Russell x Pug mix and my make-shift baby for now LOL Poor little guy has more outfits then I can count! LMAO

DH and I have been officially TTC since the beginning of June - I have been off the pill since March after almost 7 years of being on it. We have NEVER used protection and I do have an underlying fear of not being able to conceive - since after all this time we have never came close to an "oppsy!"

I have been charting since the beginning of this (my 3rd cycle TTC) and am trying to build up my confidance with the concept ... I am starting to use OPK's this next cycle. I am finding BD time hard to find sometimes as I work straight day shifts and DH is on shift work (2 weeks days, 2 weeks evenings, 2 weeks midnights). Often we are passing each other heading to work and it sucks BIG time.

I am testing tommorrow, AF is due to show her ugly face come Monday and I am really nervous. I had quite the upsetting end to last cycle as I was over a week late, with many symptoms and only got BFN's until she showed. My dr was even quite convinced - I guess I am just in the stages of learning how to deal with the TTC disappointments

I just can't WAIT to get my BFP ... I know it may sound silly, but I feel like I am getting older (my mom was only 15 when she had me and my whole family is younger) and I don't want my time to run out. I have ALWAYS wanted children at a young age ... My mom has also had cancer twice in her young age and more then anything I would love to give her a grandchild ... she has been bugging me for years LOL No pressure

Well enough ramble for now ....

I am sure I will be writing after testing tommorrow

xoxox Mandy