[yellowgirl78]

Hello everyone and welcome to my TTC journal. Just to tell you a little about myself, I'm 29 and DP is 35. We just started TTC and this will be my first baby. I thought we almost had it last cycle, but it was a BFN and AF showed 2 days early. Last cycle I experinced AF symptoms I normally don't get; sore nipples, nasuea and cramping before she came. I was almost convinced I was pregnant with those symptoms but AF showed her ugly face. After going through that I can see right now that this is going to be a stressful process so this is what brought me to the wonderful word of journal and charting. DP and I have different work schedules so trying to find BD time will be very critical. I work 2 jobs and he goes to bed by the time I'm off from work and is out the door by the time I even think about waking up. He did say once we are successful in conceiving I will have to give up my full time job and just keep my part-time one...which is okay with me.

So today I'm actually on CD 15 and since I just started all of this, I'm not sure when the O day is, if it hasn't happened already. I'm going to by a thermometer tonight and I will start charting. The last time DP and I BD was on CD 11, but I'm pretty sure that was to early.

CD 11 = DP and I BD twice early AM
CD 12 = Felt a little sick in the AM and lower abdominal pains in late evening.
CD 13 = feeling just a little ill AM
CD 14 = woke up with lower abdominal pain 8am lasted about 20 mins, sharp lower pain in stomach again at 11:38. Very very small amount of white CM on undies around 2:25pm.

So far today I'm feeling fine, but I will update as the day goes on. As you noticed we only had one day of BD, due to our busy schedules. I may have to give up a job just so we can make this happen.

*UPDATE*
Well its 4:10 pm on CD 15 and I've been feeling some weird things going on in my lower stomach. Not cramping and it doesn't really feel like O pain, because I defiantly know what that feels like. I don't know if my mind is playing tricks on me or what. I've been keeping track of my periods on this online calandar and it's telling me my next O date is tomorrow, which I may believe is wrong because my period came early. I guess I will just have to make through this cycle, I'm pretty sure I'm not pregnant but the waiting and wondering really gets to you.

[yellowgirl78]

CD 16

7:35am
Nothing new, woke up with a pimple. A Pimple wow, I know it's crazy but I'm writing everything little thing down everyday so I can find a monthly pattern.

8:43am
Feeling okay, got to work and had that slight nasuea feeling..nothing to serious though. I'm sure if I go eat a muffin it will go away..lol.

1:30pm I was getting into my car and felt a sharp tingling sensation in my lower back, it lasted about 2 minutes.

9:00pm
Nothing more to report today, no strange feelins besides the funny little pain in my lower stomach...not quite sure how to describe it. It's been coming and going all day.

[yellowgirl78]

CD 19

Well it's Monday and I have a few more strange feelings to report.

Yesterday (CD 18) I was sitting in the bowling alley last night and all the sudden I felt like little drops were falling from my you know were. So I'm thinking, Its way to early for AF so what the heck is going on. When I finally made it to the bathroom there was some White looking CM in my undies, now I've seen that before but I never felt it drip like that..so wierd. I know gross huh..lol

This morning on CD 19 I felt a wierd poking like pain in my lower stomach right below my belly button but off to the side just a tad. Not sure what that is....I feel so silly reporting all this stuff, maybe I've experienced these things before but never really paid attention this close.

I have no idea when I ovualated and highly doubt I'm pregnant since we only BD on CD 11, unless those little guys hung around for a few days...lol

Just wanted to add that I'm starting to feel some very slight cramping, almost makes me think AF is coming any minute, but it's only CD 19..what the heck..maybe I'm just imagining this...what's it called (invisible pregnancy symptoms).

Well its about 3:30 pm and I'm still having mild cramping..similar to AF and my left boob has been itching allday, I even tried to put lotion on it..LOL

Af is not due for another 9, 10 or 11 days. My last cycle was only 27 days, however I've had 28 and some 30 day cycles..so who knows.

*UPDATE*
It's about 8:10pm and I'm still having AF like cramps. They have been a little stronger since this afternoon, I've been to the bathroom twice thinking I was going to see AF super early. This is really wierd, because I never get AF cramps, and I'm not sure why I'm getting them 9 or 10 days before she is due. THIS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY

[yellowgirl78]

CD 20

Well its about 11:25am and I'm still having mild AF type cramps. This is the second day and it's really mind boggling. I'm not sure when I ovulated and my period is due in 8 or 9 days. Who has ever had cramps this early and not be pregnant. My last cycle I got AF cramps one day before she came and I usually never get them. I also got tender nipples about 8 days before she came and I've never had that before either. So maybe I'm just having more crazy AF symptoms and the evil little witch is teasing me.

Well its 4:25pm and the mild AF type cramps are still hanging around. I spoke with an aunt today and she said she gets cramps around 4-5 days before AF comes, so that just shot my hopes down.

I'm just going to stop wondering and wait for AF to show her ugly face and start fresh this new cycle...I'm going to buy my themometer this weekend and start my charting.

[yellowgirl78]

CD 21

Well it's CD 21 and the mild AF cramps are still around, more noticable at some times. Just sharp pains throughout my boobs hit me now and then. I still keep running to the bathroom thinking AF has showed up early only to find nothing. I really can't imagine having to go through this for months and months. I'm trying to be patient and not go out and by several tests to take everyday, twice a day...but it's really killing me. I'm going to try and hold off until Monday.

4:36pm

A couple times I noticed my left boob was tingling a little bit and still itchy. I'm still having mild cramping and still keep running to the bathroom looking for AF only to find lotiony white CM (TMI..I KNOW, GROSS)

Everybody I talk to keeps saying, oh I get that sometimes before my period or yeah it's probably just new AF symptoms for ya....just keep shooting my hopes down why don't ya....I'll just keep my comments to myself and the computer from here on out....LOL

I also read on another site that this lady only BD 4 days before she ovulated due to a UTI and still got pregnant, those little guys hung around for 4 days...so that gave me a little bit more hope.

[yellowgirl78]

Okay so I'm laying in bed and my (.)(.) were feeling a little wierd and itchy so I got up and lifted my shirt and Blue Viens just staring right back at me. Now I look at my (.)(.) all the time and I've never noticed these veins before. Now again, maybe they've been around and I just never noticed them...this is so crazy. The AF type cramps are sightly there, but not as noticable. I ordered some early result HPT tests from the internet, so by the time they get to me..I'll be closer to AF time and I can test.

[yellowgirl78]

CD 22

Still have cramps that are coming and going. My (.)(.) also have a slight tingling burning type sensation that I keep noticing off and on. Now I've been pregnant before and this is one of the earliest symptoms I noticed before AF was due. Last month my nipples were hurting a week before AF showed up, but not like they are now...it's a completly different feeling. I'm going crazy and I want to walk away from work and buy a test right this minute...but I'm still going to hold off.

[yellowgirl78]

CD 23

So I'm sitting at work this morning thinking, wow I'm not really feeling anything this morning. Then this afternoon, here comes the good ole cramps. Now I've been having these since Monday and if these turn out to be just AF cramps thats just darn cruel. Still a little slight tingle in my (.)(.), but it comes and goes. It is really killing me to not go by a test and I'm going crazy, but I want to hold off as long as possible...at least till the ones i bought from the internet come. If AF shows before they get here, at least I'll have them available next month. When I was pregnant last year I got a BFP the day before AF was due. My thoughts keep going back and forth..your pregnant, your not pregnant or you can't be pregnant.

[yellowgirl78]

CD 26

Well I broke down and took a test on Friday afternoon (CD 23) and Saturday at 2:30 am (CD 24) and they were both BFN. So now I'm pretty convinced that AF is on her way.

I had a very bad migrane all day Sunday and woke up with one today, I couldn't even make it into work on time today my head hurt so bad. I'm not feeling to good today, I just feel real tired and my muscles ache and I have no appetite.

[yellowgirl78]

CD 28

Two BFN's a few days ago, so I just decided to wait it out. No AF yet, but I'm almost sure she will be here tomorrow full blast. I had mild cramping today with a little bit of spotting each time I use the bathroom...the same thing happened to me last month. Spotting and Cramps and AF the very next day. So I guess I'm out this cycle and we'll have to try again soon...which is going to be hard because DP and I are going to be traveling for the next couple of weeks coming up to different places. THIS SUCKS.