TTC journal...makin' a baby!

JessicaRae · #1 March 29th, 2008, 02:28 PM

Well, I decided to make a TTC journal. Here it is! I'm not sure what exaclty what I'll write about but we will see! If you would like to comment, please PM me.

I am 22 and my husband is 25. We have been married for 2 years and have been TTC for 2 cycles now.

JessicaRae · #2 March 29th, 2008, 02:36 PM

I'm sad. I should have gotten AF today but I haven't so I tested and got a BFN. There is nothing in this world I want more than a child. I just assumed that getting pregnant would be easy and take little effort... why else would it seem like EVERYONE is having an "oops" baby? I know it takes some people a while to get pregnant but I guess I just hoped we would be the exception to the rule. We haven't been TTC very long and it's already stressing me out!

DH just called from work to see what was for lunch and I just started bawling. It's probably AF letting me know she's on her way and making me an emotional wreck.

JessicaRae · #3 March 30th, 2008, 06:03 PM

Still no AF. I really felt like I would wake up to it this morning. I've been off BC for over a year now and I thought my cycles were evening out. I've decided that if AF shows this cycle I'm going to start temping. My boobs hurt and I feel all PMS-ey.

JessicaRae · #4 March 31st, 2008, 11:57 AM

I tested again. (slap my hand...) and OF COURSE BFN. I was really thinking maybe not though. My boobs have never hurt like this. Even just having my bra on is kind of hurting! I asked my husband if he thought I was pregnant and he said, "No, didn't you already test?" Grrr. Oh well, It's beyond my control. I feel like it will happen when it happens.

On a more happy note, we're starting to pack... less than 2 weeks until we move into our new house! I'm sooo excited!

JessicaRae · #5 April 6th, 2008, 11:24 AM

Hrmmm. Still no AF. I guess this is just a long cycle. We're considering putting a hold on TTC for a few months so that I'm not having a baby in the middle of my last semester. I'm young, what's another few months? It would also give me time to get a little healthier. I'm registered for Summer/Fall classes and my last semester I'm only going to have 2 or 3 left. It still probably wouldn't be a good idea to have a baby in the middle of the semester.

JessicaRae · #6 April 12th, 2008, 08:39 PM

OK, So it WAS a really long cycle. I KNEW I wasn't prego because we didn't BD around O time due to other circumstances but I really wanted to be, so I talked myself into thinking I was. My husband and I talked and we're going to take more of a "not trying, not preventing" approach for a while... I think. I kind of feel like he just wants to do what I want to do and that frustrates me a little. I really want his opinion and I want to know that he wants a baby as much as I do.

JessicaRae · #7 April 15th, 2008, 05:07 PM

AF has come and gone. We talked and he DOES want a baby (almost

) as much as I do! So on to the next cycle! I'm feeling very excited again about TTC... I've been kinda bummed lately.

I found out today that there is a job opening at work. My husband and I discussed it and we decided that I'm going to apply for it! Yay for more money and less work!!